THE vivacity with which Camilla quitted Cleves, was sunk before she reached Etherington. She had quitted also Edgar, quitted him offended, and in doubt if it might ever be right she should vindicate herself in his opinion. Yet all seemed strange and unintelligible that regarded the asserted nuptials: his indifference was palpable; she believed him to have been unaccountably drawn in, and her heart softly whispered, it was herself he preferred.
From this soothing but dangerous idea, she struggled to turn her thoughts. She anticipated the remorse of holding the affections of the husband of her cousin, and determined to use every possible method to forget him-unless, which she strove vainly not to hope, the reported alliance should never take place.
These reflections so completely engrossed her the whole way, that she arrived at the Parsonage House, without the smallest mental preparation how to account for her return, or how to plead for remaining at Etherington. Foresight, the offspring of judgment, or the disciple of Experience, made no part of the character of Camilla, whose impetuous disposition was open to every danger of indiscretion, though her genuine love of virtue glowed warm with juvenile ardour.
She entered, therefore, the breakfast parlour in a state of sudden perplexity what to say; Mr. Tyrold was alone and writing. He looked surprized, but embraced her with his accustomed affection, and enquired to what he owed her present sight.
She made no answer; but embraced him again, and enquired after her mother.
‘She is well,’ he replied: ‘but, tell me, is your uncle impatient of my delay? It has been wholly unavoidable. I have been deeply engaged; and deeply chagrined. Your poor mother would be still more disturbed, if the nobleness of her mind did not support her.’
Camilla, extremely grieved, earnestly enquired what had happened.
He then informed her that Mrs. Tyrold, the very next morning, must abruptly quit them all and set out for Lisbon to her sick brother, Mr. Relvil.
‘Is he so much worse?’
‘No: I even hope he is better. An act of folly has brought this to bear. Do not now desire particulars. I will finish my letter, and then return with you for a few minutes to Cleves. The carriage must wait.’
‘Suffer me first to ask, does Lavinia go with my mother?’
‘No, she can only take old Ambrose. Lavinia must supply her place at home.’
‘Ah! my dearest father, and may not I, too, stay with you and assist her?’
‘If my brother will spare you, my dear child, there is nothing can so much contribute to wile away to me your mother’s absence.’
Enchanted thus, without any explanation, to have gained her point, she completely revived; though when Mrs. Tyrold, whom she almost worshipped, entered the room, in all the hurry of preparing for her long journey, she shed a torrent of tears in her arms.
‘This good girl,’ said Mr. Tyrold, ‘is herself desirous to quit the present gaieties of Cleves, to try to enliven my solitude till we all may meet again.’
The conscious and artless Camilla-could not bear this undeserved praise. She quitted her mother, and returning to Mr. Tyrold, ‘O my father!’ she cried, ‘if you will take me again under your beloved roof, it is for my sake-not your’s –I beg to return!’
‘She is right,’ said Mrs. Tyrold; ‘there is no merit in having an heart; she could have none, if to be with you were not her first gratification.’
‘Yes, indeed, my dear mother, it would always be so, even if no other inducement —.’ She stopt short, confused.
Mr. Tyrold, who continued writing, did not heed this little blunder; but his wife, whose quickness of apprehension and depth of observation, were always alive, even in the midst of business, cares, and other attentions, turned hastily to her daughter, and asked to what ‘other inducement’ she alluded.
Camilla, distressed, hung her head, and would have forborne making any answer.
Mrs. Tyrold, then, putting down various packets which she was sorting and selecting, came suddenly up to her, and taking both her hands, looked earnestly in her face, saying: ‘My Camilla! something has disquieted you?-your countenance is not itself. Tell me, my dear girl, what brought you hither this morning? and what is it you mean by some other inducement?’
‘Do not ask me now, my dearest mother,’ answered she, in a faltering voice; ‘when you come back again, no doubt all will be over; and then —’
‘And is that the time, Camilla, to speak to your best friends? would it not be more judicious to be explicit with them, while what affects you is still depending?’
Camilla, hiding her face on her mother’s bosom, burst afresh into tears.
‘Alas!’ cried Mrs. Tyrold, ‘what new evil is hovering? If it must invade me again through one of my children, tell me, at least, Camilla, it is not wilfully that you, too, afflict me? and afflict the best of fathers?’
Mr. Tyrold, dropping his pen, looked at them both with the most apprehensive anxiety.
‘No, my dearest mother,’ said Camilla, endeavouring to meet her eyes; ‘not wilfully,-but something has happened–I can hardly myself tell how or what-but indeed Cleves, now —’ she hesitated.
‘How is my brother?’ demanded Mr. Tyrold.
‘O! all that is good and kind! and I grieve to quit him-but, indeed, Cleves, now —’ Again she hesitated.
‘Ah, my dear child!’ said Mrs. Tyrold, ‘I always feared that residence!-you are too young, too inconsiderate, too innocent, indeed, to be left so utterly to yourself.–Forgive me, my dear Mr. Tyrold; I do not mean to reflect upon your brother, but he is not you!-and with you alone, this dear inexperienced girl can be secure from all harm. Tell me, however, what it is —?’
Camilla, in the extremest confusion changed colour, but tried vainly to speak. Mr. Tyrold, suspended from all employment, waited fearfully some explanation.
‘We have no time,’ said Mrs. Tyrold, ‘for delay-you know I am going abroad,-and cannot ascertain my return; though all my heart left behind me, with my children and their father, will urge every acceleration in my power.’
Camilla, wept again, fondly folding her arms round her mother; ‘I had hoped,’ she cried, ‘that I should have come home to peace, comfort, tranquillity! to both of you, my dearest father and mother, and to all my unbroken happiness under your roof! How little did I dream of so cruel a separation!’
‘Console yourself, my Camilla, that you have not been its cause; may Heaven ever spare me evil in your shape at least! you say it is nothing wilful? I can bear everything else.’
‘We will not,’ said Mr. Tyrold, ‘press her; she will tell us all in her own way, and at her own time. Forced confidence is neither fair nor flattering I will excuse her return to my brother, and she will the sooner be able to give her account for finding herself not hurried.’
‘Calm yourself, then,’ said Mrs. Tyrold, ‘as your indulgent father permits, and I will proceed with my preparations.’
Camilla now, somewhat recovering, declared she had almost nothing to say; but her mother continued packing up, and her father went on with his letter.
She had now time to consider that her own fears and emotion were involving her in unnecessary confessions; she resolved, therefore, to repress the fulness of her heart, and to acknowledge only the accusation of Miss Margland. And in a few minutes, without waiting for further enquiry, she gathered courage to open upon the subject; and with as much ease and quietness ............