1921-1928 Ralph

The road to Drogheda brought back no memories of his youth, thought Father Ralph de Bricassart, eyes halfshut against the glare as his new Daimler bounced along in the rutted wheel tracks that marched through the longsilver grass. No lovely misty green Ireland, this. And Drogheda? No battlefield, no high seat of power. Or wasthat strictly true? Better disciplined these days but acute as ever, his sense of humor conjured in his mind animage of a Cromwellian Mary Carson dealing out her particular brand of imperial malevolence. Not such ahighflown comparison, either; the lady surely wielded as much power and controlled as many individuals as anypuissant war lord of elder days.

The last gate loomed up through a stand of box and stringybark; the car came to a throbbing halt. Clapping adisreputable grey broad-brimmed hat on his head to ward off the sun, Father Ralph got out, plodded to the steelbolt on the wooden strut, pulled it back and flung the gate open with weary impatience. There were twenty-sevengates between the presbytery in Gillanbone and Drogheda homestead, each one meaning he had to stop, get outof the car, open the gate, get into the car and drive it through, stop, get out, go back to close the gate, then get inthe car again and proceed to the next one. Many and many a time he longed to dispense with at least half theritual, scoot on down the track leaving the gates open like a series of astonished mouths behind him; but even theawesome aura of his calling would not prevent the owners of the gates from tarring and feathering him for it. Hewished horses were as fast and efficient as cars, because one could open and close gates from the back of a horsewithout dismounting.

"Nothing is given without a disadvantage in it," he said, patting the dashboard of the new Daimler and startingoff down the last mile of the grassy, treeless Home Paddock, the gate firmly bolted behind him. Even to anIrishman used to castles and mansions, this Australian homestead was imposing. Drogheda was the oldest andthe biggest property in the district, and had been endowed by its late doting owner with a fitting residence. Builtof butter-yellow sandstone blocks handhewn in quarries five hundred miles eastward, the house had two storiesand was constructed on austerely Georgian lines, with large, many-paned windows and a wide, iron-pillaredveranda running all the way around its bottom story. Gracing the sides of every window were black woodenshutters, not merely ornamental but useful; in the heat of summer they were pulled closed to keep the interiorcool.

Though it was autumn now and the spindling vine was green, in spring the wistaria which had been planted theday the house was finished fifty years before was a solid mass of lilac plumes, rioting all over the outer walls andthe veranda roof. Several acres of meticulously scythed lawn surrounded the house, strewn with formal gardenseven now full of color from roses, wall-flowers, dahlias and marigolds. A stand of magnificent ghost gums withpallid white trunks and drifting thin leaves hanging seventy feet above the ground shaded the house from thepitiless sun, their branches wreathed 66 in brilliant magenta where bougainvillea vines grew intertwined withthem. Even those indispensable Outback monstrosities the water tanks were thickly clothed in hardy native vines,roses and wistaria, and thus managed to look more decorative than functional. Thanks to the late MichaelCarson's passion for Drogheda homestead, he had been lavish in the matter of water tanks; rumor had itDrogheda could afford to keep its lawns green and its flower beds blooming though no rain fell in ten years. Asone approached down the Home Paddock the house and its ghost gums took the eye first, but then one was awareof many other yellow sandstone houses of one story behind it and to each side, interlocking with the mainstructure by means of roofed ramps smothered in creepers. A wide gravel driveway succeeded the wheel ruts ofthe track, curving to a circular parking area at one side of the big house, but also continuing beyond it and out ofsight down to where the real business of Drogheda lay: the stockyards, the shearing shed, the barns. PrivatelyFather Ralph preferred the giant pepper trees which shaded all these outbuildings and their attendant activities tothe ghost gums of the main house. Pepper trees were dense with pale green fronds and alive with the sound ofbees, just the right lazy sort of foliage for an Outback station.

As Father Ralph parked his car and walked across the lawn, the maid waited on the front veranda, her freckledface wreathed in smiles. "Good morning, Minnie," he said.

"Oh, Father, happy it is to see you this fine dear mornin"," she said in her strong brogue, one hand holding thedoor wide and the other outstretched to receive his battered, unclerical hat.

Inside the dim hall, with its marble tiles and greet brass-railed staircase, he paused until Minnie gave him a nodbefore entering the drawing room.

Mary Carson was sitting in her wing chair by an open window which extended fifteen feet from floor to ceiling,apparently indifferent to the cold air flooding in. Her shock of red hair was almost as bright as it had been in heryouth; though the coarse freckled skin had picked up additional splotches from age, for a woman of sixty-fiveshe had few wrinkles, rather a fine network of tiny diamond-shaped cushions like a quilted bedspread. The onlyclues to her intractable nature lay in the two deep fissures which ran one on either side of her Roman nose, to endpulling down the corners of her mouth, and in the stony look of the pale-blue eyes. Father Ralph crossed theAubusson carpet silently and kissed her hands; the gesture sat well on a man as tall and graceful as he was,especially since he wore a plain black soutane which gave him something of a courtly air. Her expressionlesseyes suddenly coy and sparkling, Mary Carson almost simpered. "Will you have tea, Father?" she asked.

"It depends on whether you wish to hear Mass," he said, sitting down in the chair facing hers and crossing hislegs, the soutane riding up sufficiently to show that under it he wore breeches and knee-high boots, a concessionto the locale of his parish. "I've brought you Communion, but if you'd like to hear Mass I can be ready to say it ina very few minutes. I don't mind continuing my fast a little longer.""You're too good to me, Father," she said smugly, knowing perfectly well that he, along with everybody else,did homage not to her but to her money. "Please have tea," she went on. "I'm quite happy with Communion." Hekept his resentment from showing in his face; this parish had been excellent for his self-control. If once he wasoffered the chance to rise out of the obscurity his temper had landed him in, he would not again make the samemistake. And if he played his cards well, this old woman might be the answer to his prayers.

"I must confess, Father, that this past year has been very pleasant," she said. "You're a far more satisfactoryshepherd than old Father Kelly was, God rot his soul." Her voice on the last phrase was suddenly harsh,vindictive. His eyes lifted to her face, twinkling. "My dear Mrs. Carson! That's not a very Catholic sentiment.""But the truth. He was a drunken old sot, and I'm quite sure God will rot his soul as much as the drink rotted hisbody." She leaned forward. "I know you fairly well by this time; I think I'm entitled to ask you a few questions,don't you? After all, you feel free to use Drogheda as your private playground-off learning how to be a stockman,polishing your riding, escaping from the vicissitudes of life in Gilly. All at my invitation, of course, but I dothink I'm entitled to some answers, don't you?" He didn't like to be reminded that he ought to feel grateful, but hehad been waiting for the day when she would think she owned him enough to begin demanding things of him.

"Indeed you are, Mrs. Carson. I can't thank you enough for permitting me the run of Drogheda, and for all yourgifts-my horses, my car.""How old are you?" she asked without further preamble. "Twenty-eight," he replied.

"Younger than I thought. Even so, they don't send priests like you to places like Gilly. What did you do, tomake them send someone like you out here into the back of beyond?""I insulted the bishop," he said calmly, smiling. "You must have! But I can't think a priest of your peculiartalents can be happy in a place like Gillanbone.""It is God's will.""Stuff and nonsense! You're here because of human failings-your own and the bishop's. Only the Pope isinfallible. You're utterly out of your natural element in Gilly, we all know that, not that we're not grateful to havesomeone like you for a change, instead of the ordained remittance men they send us usually. But your naturalelement lies in some corridor of ecclesiastical power, not here among horses and sheep. You'd look magnificentin cardinal's red.""No chance of that, I'm afraid. I fancy Gillanbone is not exactly the epicenter of the Archbishop Papal Legate'smap. And it could be worse. I have you, and I have Drogheda."She accepted the deliberately blatant flattery in the spirit in which it was intended, enjoying his beauty, hisattentiveness, his barbed and subtle mind; truly he would make a magnificent cardinal. In all her life she couldnot remember seeing a better-looking man, nor one who used his beauty in quite the same way. He had to beaware of how he looked: the height and the perfect proportions of his body, the fine aristocratic features, the wayevery physical element had been put together with a degree of care about the appearance of the finished productGod lavished on few of His creations. From the loose black curls of his head and the startling blue of his eyes tothe small, slender hands and feet, he was perfect. Yes, he had to be conscious of what he was. And yet there wasan aloofness about him, a way he had of making her feel he had never been enslaved by his beauty, nor everwould be. He would use it to get what he wanted without compunction if it would help, but not as though he wasenamored of it; rather as if he deemed people beneath contempt for being influenced by it. And she would havegiven much to know what in his past life had made him so.

Curious, how many priests were handsome as Adonis, had the sexual magnetism of Don Juan. Did they espousecelibacy as a refuge from the consequences? "Why do you put up with Gillanbone?" she asked. "Why not leavethe priesthood rather than put up with it? You could be rich and powerful in any one of a number of fields withyour talents, and you can't tell me the thought of power at least doesn't appeal to you."His left eyebrow flew up. "My dear Mrs. Carson, you're a Catholic. You know my vows are sacred. Until mydeath I remain a priest. I cannot deny it." She snorted with laughter. "Oh, come now! Do you really believe thatif you renounced your vows they'd come after you with everything from bolts of lightning to bloodhounds andshotguns?""Of course not. Nor do I believe you're stupid enough to think fear of retribution is what keeps me within thepriestly fold.""Oho! Waspish, Father de Bricassart! Then what does keep you tied? What compels you to suffer the dust, theheat and the Gilly flies? For all you know, it might be a life sentence."A shadow momentarily dimmed the blue eyes, but he smiled, pitying her. "You're a great comfort, aren't you?"His lips parted, he looked toward the ceiling and sighed. "I was brought up from my cradle to be a priest, but it'sfar more than that. How can I explain it to a woman? I am a vessel, Mrs. Carson, and at times I'm filled withGod. If I were a better priest, there would be no periods of emptiness at all. And that filling, that oneness withGod, isn't a function of place. Whether I'm in Gillanbone or a bishop's palace, it occurs. But to define it isdifficult, because even to priests it's a great mystery. A divine possession, which other men can never know.

That's it, perhaps. Abandon it? I couldn't.""So it's a power, is it? Why should it be given to priests, then? What makes you think the mere smearing ofchrism during an exhaustingly long ceremony is able to endow any man with it?"He shook his head. "Look, it's years of life, even before getting to the point of ordination. The carefuldevelopment of a state of mind which opens the vessel to God. It's earned! Every day it's earned. Which is thepurpose of the vows, don't you see? That no earthly things come between the priest and his state of mind--notlove of a woman, nor love of money, nor unwillingness to obey the dictates of other men. Poverty is nothing newto me; I don't come from a rich family. Cha/y I accept without finding it difficult to maintain. And obedience?

For me, it's the hardest of the three. But I obey, because if I hold myself more important than my function as areceptacle for God, I'm lost. I obey. And if necessary, I'm willing to endure Gillanbone as a life sentence.""Then you're a fool," she said. "I, too, think that there are more important things than lovers, but being areceptacle for God isn't one of them. Odd. I never realized you believed in God so ardently. I thought you wereperhaps a man who doubted.""I do doubt. What thinking man doesn't? That's why at times I'm empty." He looked beyond her, at somethingshe couldn't see. "Do you know, I think I'd give up every ambition, every desire in me, for the chance to be aperfect priest?""Perfection in anything," she said, "is unbearably dull. Myself, I prefer a touch of imperfection."He laughed, looking at her in admiration tinged with envy. She was a remarkable woman.

Her widowhood was thirty-three years old and her only child, a son, had died in infancy. Because of herpeculiar status in the Gillanbone community she had not availed herself of any of the overtures made to her bythe more ambitious males of her acquaintance; as Michael Carson's widow she was indisputably a queen, but assomeone's wife she passed control "of all she had to that someone. Not Mary Carson's idea of living, to playsecond fiddle. So she had abjured the flesh, preferring to wield power; it was inconceivable that she should take alover, for when it came to gossip Gillanbone was as receptive as a wire to an electrical current. To prove herselfhuman and weak was not a part of her obsession.

But now she was old enough to be officially beyond the drives of the body. If the new young priest wasassiduous in his duties to her and she rewarded him with little gifts like a car, it was not at all incongruous. Astaunch pillar of the Church all her life, she had supported her parish and its spiritual leader in fitting fashioneven when Father Kelly had hiccupped his way through the Mass. She was not alone in feeling charitablyinclined toward Father Kelly's successor; Father Ralph de Bricassart was deservedly popular with every memberof his flock, rich or poor. If his more remote parishioners could not get into Gilly to see him, he went to them,and until Mary Carson had given him his car he had gone on horseback. His patience and kindness had broughthim liking from all and sincere love from some; Martin King of Bugela had expensively refurnished thepresbytery, Dominic O'Rourke of Dibban-Dibban paid the salary of a good housekeeper.

So from the pedestal of her age and her position Mary Carson felt quite safe in enjoying Father Ralph; she likedmatching her wits against a brain as intelligent as her own, she liked outguessing him because she was never sureshe actually did outguess him.

"Getting back to what you were saying about Gilly not being the epicenter of the Archbishop Papal Legate'smap," she said, settling deeply into her chair, "what do you think would shake the reverend gentlemansufficiently to make Gilly the pivot of his world?"The priest smiled ruefully. "Impossible to say. A coup of some sort? The sudden saving of a thousand souls, asudden capacity to heal the lame and the blind .... But the age of miracles is past.""Oh, come now, I doubt that! It's just that He's altered His technique. These days He uses money.""What a cynic you are! Maybe that's why I like you so much, Mrs. Carson." "My name is Mary. Please call meMary."Minnie came in wheeling the tea trolley as Father de Bricassart said, "Thank you, Mary."Over fresh bannocks and anchovies on toast, Mary Carson sighed. "Dear Father, I want you to pray especiallyhard for me this morning." "Call me Ralph," he said, then went on mischievously, "I doubt it's possible for me topray any harder for you than I normally do, but I'll try." "Oh, you're a charmer! Or was that remark innuendo? Idon't usually care for obviousness, but with you I'm never sure if the obviousness isn't actually a cloak forsomething deeper. Like a carrot before a donkey. Just what do you really think of me, Father de Bricassart? I'llnever know, because you'll never be tactless enough to tell me, will you? Fascinating, fascinating . . . But youmust pray for me. I'm old, and I've sinned much." "Age creeps on us all, and I, too, have sinned."A dry chuckle escaped her. "I'd give a lot to know how you've sinned! Indeed, indeed I would." She was silentfor a moment, then changed the subject. "At this minute I'm minus a head stockman.""Again?""Five in the past year. It's getting hard to find a decent man." "Well, rumor hath it you're not exactly a generousor a considerate employer.""Oh, impudent!" she gasped, laughing. "Who bought you a brand-new Daimler so you wouldn't have to ride?""Ah, but look how hard I pray for you!""If Michael had only had half your wit and character, I might have loved him," she said abruptly. Her facechanged, became spiteful. "Do you think I'm without a relative in the world and must leave my money and myland to Mother Church, is that it?""I have no idea," he said tranquilly, pouring himself more tea.

"As a matter of fact, I have a brother with a large and thriving family of sons.""How nice for you," he said demurely.

"When I married I was quite without worldly goods. I knew I'd never marry well in Ireland, where a woman hasto have breeding and background to catch a rich husband. So I worked my fingers to the bone to save my passagemoney to a land where the rich men aren't so fussy. All I had when I got here were a face and a figure and abetter brain than women are supposed to have, and they were adequate to catch Michael Carson, who was a richfool. He doted on me until the day he died.""And your brother?" he prompted, thinking she was going off at a tangent. "My brother is eleven years youngerthan I am, which would make him fifty-four now. We're the only two still alive. I hardly know him; he was asmall child when I left Galway. At present he lives in New Zealand, though if he emigrated to make his fortunehe hasn't succeeded. "But last night when the station hand brought me the news that Arthur Teviot had packedhis traps and gone, I suddenly thought of Padraic. Here I am, not getting any younger, with no family around me.

And it occurred to me that Paddy is an experienced man of the land, without the means to own land. Why not, Ithought, write to him and ask him to bring himself and his sons here? When I die he'll inherit Drogheda andMichar Limited, as he's my only living relative closer than some unknown cousins back in Ireland." She smiled.

"It seems silly to wait, doesn't it? He might as well come now as later, get used to running sheep on the black soilplains, which I'm sure is quite different from sheep in New Zealand. Then when I'm gone he can step into myshoes without feeling the pinch." Head lowered, she watched Father Ralph closely.

"I wonder you didn't think of it earlier," he said. "Oh, I did. But until recently I thought the last thing I wantedwas a lot of vultures waiting anxiously for me to breathe my last. Only lately the day of my demise seems a lotcloser than it used to, and I feel . . . oh, I don't know. As if it might be nice to be surrounded by people of myown flesh and blood.""What's the matter, do you think you're ill?" he asked quickly, a real concern in his eyes.

She shrugged. "I'm perfectly all right. Yet there's something ominous about turning sixty-five. Suddenly old ageis not a phenomenon which will occur; it has occurred.""I see what you mean, and you're right. It will be very pleasant for you, hearing young voices in the house.""Oh, they won't live here," she said. "They can live in the head stockman's house down by the creek, well awayfrom me. I'm not fond of children or their voices.""Isn't that a rather shabby way to treat your only brother, Mary? Even if your ages are so disparate?""He'll inherit-let him earn it," she said crudely.

Fiona Cleary was delivered of another boy six days before Meggie's ninth birthday, counting herself luckynothing but a couple of miscarriages had happened in the interim. At nine Meggie was old enough to be a realhelp. Fee herself was forty years old, too old to bear children without a great deal of strength-sapping pain. Thechild, named Harold, was a delicate baby; for the first time anyone could ever remember, the doctor cameregularly to the house.

And as troubles do, the Cleary troubles multiplied. The aftermath of the war was not a boom, but a ruraldepression. Work became increasingly harder to get.

Old Angus MacWhirter delivered a telegram to the house one day just as they were finishing tea, and Paddytore it open with trembling hands; telegrams never held good news. The boys gathered round, all save Frank,who took his cup of tea and left the table. Fee's eyes followed him, then turned back as Paddy groaned. "What isit?" she asked.

Paddy was staring at the piece of paper as if it held news of a death. "Archibald doesn't want us."Bob pounded his fist on the table savagely; he had been so looking forward to going with his father as anapprentice shearer, and Archibald's was to have been his first pen. "Why should he do a dirty thing like this to us,Daddy? We were due to start there tomorrow.""He doesn't say why, Bob. I suppose some scab contractor undercut me." "Oh, Paddy!" Fee sighed.

Baby Hal began to cry from the big bassinet by the stove, but before Fee could move Meggie was up; Frank hadcome back inside the door and was standing, tea in hand, watching his father narrowly. "Well, I suppose I'll haveto go and see Archibald," Paddy said at last. "It's too late now to look for another shad to replace his, but I dothink he owes me a better explanation than this. We'll just have to hope we can find work milking untilWilloughby's shed starts in July."Meggie pulled a square of white towel from the huge pile sitting by the stove warming and spread it carefullyon the work table, then lifted the crying child out of the wicker crib. The Cleary hair glittered sparsely on hislittle skull as Meggie changed his diaper swiftly, and as efficiently as her mother could have done.

"Little Mother Meggie," Frank said, to tease her. "I'm not!" she answered indignantly. "I'm just helping Mum.""I know," he said gently. "You're a good girl, wee Meggie." He tugged at the white taffeta bow on the back ofher head until it hung lopsided. Up came the big grey eyes to his face adoringly; over the nodding head of thebaby she might have been his own age, or older. There was a pain in his chest, that this should have fallen uponher at an age when the only baby she ought to be caring for was Agnes, now relegated forgotten to the bedroom.

If it wasn't for her and their mother, he would have been gone long since. He looked at his father sourly, thecause of the new life creating such chaos in the house. Served him right, getting done out of his shed.

Somehow the other boys and even Meggie had never intruded on his thoughts the way Hal did; but when Fee'swaistline began to swell this time, he was old enough himself to be married and a father. Everyone except littleMeggie had been uncomfortable about it, his mother especially. The furtive glances of the boys made her shrinklike a rabbit; she could not meet Frank's eyes or quench the shame in her own. Nor should any woman gothrough that, Frank said to himself for the thousandth time, remembering the horrifying moans and cries whichhad come from her bedroom the night Hal was born; of age now, he hadn't been packed off elsewhere like theothers. Served Daddy right, losing his shed. A decent man would have left her alone. His mother's head in thenew electric light was spun gold, the pure profile as she looked down the long table at Paddy unspeakablybeautiful. How had someone as lovely and refined as she married an itinerant shearer from the bogs of Galway?

Wasting herself and her Spode china, her damask table napery and her Persian rugs in the parlor that no one eversaw, because she didn't fit in with the wives of Paddy's peers. She made them too conscious of their vulgar loudvoices, their bewilderment when faced with more than one fork. Sometimes on a Sunday she would go into thelonely parlor, sit down at the spinet under the window and play, though her touch had long gone from want oftime to practice and she could no longer manage any but 78 the simplest pieces. He would sit beneath thewindow among the lilacs and the lilies, and close his eyes to listen. There was a sort of vision he had then, of hismother clad in a long bustled gown of palest pink shadow lace sitting at the spinet in a huge ivory room, greatbranches of candles all around her. It would make him long to weep, but he never wept anymore; not since thatnight in the barn after the police had brought him home. Meggie had put Hal back in the bassinet, and gone tostand beside her mother. There was another one wasted. The same proud, sensitive profile; something of Fionaabout her hands, her child's body. She would be very like her mother when she, too, was a woman. And whowould marry her? Another oafish Irish shearer, or a clodhopping yokel from some Wahine dairy farm? She wasworth more, but she was not born to more. There was no way out, that was what everyone said, and every yearlonger that he lived seemed to bear it out.

Suddenly conscious of his fixed regard, Fee and Meggie turned together, smiling at him with the peculiartenderness women save for the most beloved men in their lives. Frank put his cup on the table and went out tofeed the dogs, wishing he could weep, or commit murder. Anything which might banish the pain.

Three days after Paddy lost the Archibald shed, Mary Carson's letter came. He had opened it in the Wahine postoffice the moment he collected his mail, and came back to the house skipping like a child. "We're going toAustralia!" he yelled, waving the expensive vellum pages under his family's stunned noses.

There was silence, all eyes riveted on him. Fee's were shocked, so were Meggie's, but every male pair had litwith joy. Frank's blazed. "But, Paddy, why should she think of you so suddenly after all these years?" Fee askedafter she had read the letter. "Her money's not new to her, nor is her isolation. I never remember her offering tohelp us before.""It seems she's frightened of dying alone," he said, as much to reassure himself as Fee. "You saw what shewrote: "I am not young, and you and your boys are my heirs. I think we ought to see each other before I die, andit's time you learned how to run your inheritance. I have the intention of making you my head stockman-it will beexcellent training, and those of your boys who are old enough to work may have employment as stockmen also.

Drogheda will become a family concern, run by the family without help from outsiders.""Does she say anything about sending us the money to get to Australia?" Fee asked.

Paddy's back stiffened. "I wouldn't dream of dunning her for that!" he snapped. "We can get to Australiawithout begging from her; I have enough put by.""I think she ought to pay our way," Fee maintained stubbornly, and to everyone's shocked surprise; she did notoften voice an opinion. "Why should you give up your life here and go off to work for her on the strength of apromise given in a letter? She's never lifted a finger to help us before, and I don't trust her. All I ever rememberyour saying about her was that she had the tightest clutch on a pound you'd ever seen. After all, Paddy, it's not asif you know her so very well; there was such a big gap between you in age, and she went to Australia before youwere old enough to start school." "I don't see how that alters things now, and if she is tight-fisted, all the more forus to inherit. No, Fee, we're going to Australia, and we'll pay our own way there."Fee said no more. It was impossible to tell from her face whether she resented being so summarily dismissed.

"Hooray, we're going to Australia!" Bob shouted, grabbing at his father's shoulder. Jack, Hughie and Stu 80jigged up and down, and Frank was smiling, his eyes seeing nothing in the room but something far beyond it.

Only Fee and Meggie wondered and feared, hoping painfully it would all come to nothing, for their lives couldbe no easier in Australia, just the same things under strange conditions. "Where's Gillanbone?" Stuart asked.

Out came the old atlas; poor though the Clearys were, there were several shelves of books behind the kitchendining table. The boys pored over yellowing pages until they found New South Wales. Used to small NewZealand. distances, it didn't occur to them to consult the scale of miles in the bottom left-hand corner. They justnaturally assumed New South Wales was the same size as the North Island of New Zealand. And there wasGillanbone, up toward the top left-hand corner; about the same distance from Sydney as Wanganui was fromAuckland, it seemed, though the dots indicating towns were far fewer than on the North Island map.

"It's a very old atlas," Paddy said. "Australia is like America, growing in leaps and bounds. I'm sure there are alot more towns these days." They would have to go steerage on the ship, but it was only three days after all, nottoo bad. Not like the weeks and weeks between England and the Antipodes. All they could afford to take withthem were clothes, china, cutlery, household linens, cooking utensils and those shelves of precious books; thefurniture would have to be sold to cover the cost of shipping Fee's few bits and pieces in the parlor, her spinetand rugs and chairs. "I won't hear of your leaving them behind," Paddy told Fee firmly. "Are you sure we canafford it?""Positive. As to the other furniture, Mary says she's readying the head stockman's house and that it's goteverything we're likely to be needing. I'm glad we don't have to live in the same house as Mary.""So am I," said Fee.

Paddy went into Wanganui to book them an eight-berth steerage cabin on the Wahine; strange that the ship andtheir nearest town should have the same name. They were due to sail at the end of August, so by the beginning ofthat month everyone started realizing the big adventure was actually going to happen. Th............