The first trivial sound that broke the spell, was the sound of a match struck in the next room.
He rose, and groped his way to the door. Teresa had ventured upstairs, and had kindled a light. Some momentary doubt of him kept the nurse silent when he looked at her. He stammered, and stared about him confusedly, when he spoke.
“Where — where —?” He seemed to have lost his hold on his thoughts — he gave it up, and tried again. “I want to be alone,” he said; recovering, for the moment, some power of expressing himself.
Teresa’s first fear of him vanished. She took him by the hand like a child, and led him downstairs to his rooms. He stood silently watching her, while she lit the candles.
“When Carmina sleeps now,” he asked, “does it last long?”
“Often for hours together,” the nurse answered.
He said no more; he seemed to have forgotten that there was another person in the room.
She found courage in her pity for him. “Try to pray,” she said, and left him.
He fell on his knees; but still the words failed him. He tried to quiet his mind by holy thoughts. No! The dumb agony in him was powerless to find relief. Only the shadows of thoughts crossed his mind; his eyes ached with a burning heat. He began to be afraid of himself. The active habits of the life that he had left, drove him out, with the instincts of an animal, into space and air. Neither knowing nor caring in what direction he turned his steps, he walked on at the top of his speed. On and on, till the crowded houses began to grow more rare — till there were gaps of open ground, on either side of him — till the moon rose behind a plantation of trees, and bathed in its melancholy light a lonely high road. He followed the road till he was tired of it, and turned aside into a winding lane. The lights and shadows, alternating with each other, soothed and pleased him. He had got the relief in exercise that had been denied him while he was in repose. He could think again; he could feel the resolution stirring in him to save that dear one, or to die with her. Now at last, he was man enough to face the terrible necessity that confronted him, and fight the battle of Art and Love against Death. He stopped, and looked round; eager to return, and be ready for her waking. In that solitary place, there was no hope of finding a person to direct him. He turned, to go back to the high road.
At that same moment, he became conscious of the odour of tobacco wafted towards him on the calm night air. Some one was smoking in the lane.
He retraced his steps, until he reached a gate — with a barren field behind it. There was the man, whose tobacco smoke he had smelt, leaning on the gate, with his pipe in his mouth.
The moonlight fell full on Ovid’s face, as he approached to ask his way. The man suddenly stood up — stared at him — and said, “Hullo! is it you or your ghost?”
His face was in shadow, but his voice answered for him. The man was Benjulia.
“Have you come to see me?” he asked.
“No.”
“Won’t you shake hands?”
“No.”
“What’s wrong?”
Ovid waited to answer until he had steadied his temper.
“I have seen Carmina,” he said.
Benjulia went on with his smoking. “An interesting case, isn’t it?” he remarked.
“You were called into consultation by Mr. Null,” Ovid continued; “and you approved of his ignorant treatment — you, who knew better.”
“I should think I did!” Benjulia rejoined.
“You deliberately encouraged an incompetent man; you let that poor girl go on from bad to worse — for some vile end of your own.”
Benjulia good-naturedly corrected him. “No, no. For an excellent end — for knowledge.”
“If I fail to remedy the mischief, which is your doing, and yours alone —”
Benjulia took his pipe out of his mouth. “How do you mean to cure her?” he eagerly interposed. “Have you got a new idea?”
“If I fail,” Ovid repeated, “her death lies at your door. You merciless villain — as certainly as that moon is now shining over us, your life shall answer for hers.”
Astonishment — immeasurable astonishment — sealed Benjulia’s lips. He looked down the lane when Ovid left him, completely stupefied. The one imaginable way of accounting for such language as he had heard — spoken by a competent member of his own profession!— presented the old familiar alternative. “Drunk or mad?” he wondered while he lit his pipe again. Walking back to the house, his old distrust of Ovid troubled him once more. He decid............