The result of all this on Clyde was to cause him to think more specifically on the problem of the sexes than heever had before, and by no means in any orthodox way. For while he condemned his sister's lover for thusruthlessly deserting her, still he was not willing to hold her entirely blameless by any means. She had gone offwith him. As he now learned from her, he had been in the city for a week the year before she ran away with him,and it was then that he had introduced himself to her. The following year when he returned for two weeks, it wasshe who looked him up, or so Clyde suspected, at any rate. And in view of his own interest in and moodregarding Hortense Briggs, it was not for him to say that there was anything wrong with the sex relation in itself.
Rather, as he saw it now, the difficulty lay, not in the deed itself, but in the consequences which followed uponnot thinking or not knowing. For had Esta known more of the man in whom she was interested, more of whatsuch a relationship with him meant, she would not be in her present pathetic plight. Certainly such girls asHortense Briggs, Greta and Louise, would never have allowed themselves to be put in any such position as Esta.
Or would they? They were too shrewd. And by contrast with them in his mind, at least at this time, she suffered.
She ought, as he saw it, to have been able to manage better. And so, by degrees, his attitude toward her hardenedin some measure, though his feeling was not one of indifference either.
But the one influence that was affecting and troubling and changing him now was his infatuation for HortenseBriggs--than which no more agitating influence could have come to a youth of his years and temperament. Sheseemed, after his few contacts with her, to be really the perfect realization of all that he had previously wishedfor in a girl. She was so bright, vain, engaging, and so truly pretty. Her eyes, as they seemed to him, had a kindof dancing fire in them. She had a most entrancing way of pursing and parting her lips and at the same timelooking straightly and indifferently before her, as though she were not thinking of him, which to him was bothflame and fever. It caused him, actually, to feel weak and dizzy, at times, cruelly seared in his veins with minuteand wriggling threads of fire, and this could only be described as conscious lust, a torturesome and yetunescapable thing which yet in her case he was unable to prosecute beyond embracing and kissing, a form ofreserve and respect in regard to her which she really resented in the very youths in whom she sought to inspire it.
The type of boy for whom she really cared and was always seeking was one who could sweep away all suchpsuedo-ingenuousness and superiorities in her and force her, even against herself, to yield to him.
In fact she was constantly wavering between actual like and dislike of him. And in consequence, he was inconstant doubt as to where he stood, a state which was very much relished by her and yet which was neverpermitted to become so fixed in his mind as to cause him to give her up entirely. After some party or dinner ortheater to which she had permitted him to take her, and throughout which he had been particularly tactful--nottoo assertive--she could be as yielding and enticing in her mood as the most ambitious lover would have liked.
And this might last until the evening was nearly over, when suddenly, and at her own door or the room or houseof some girl with whom she was spending the night, she would turn, and without rhyme or reason, endeavor to dismiss him with a mere handclasp or a thinly flavored embrace or kiss. At such times, if Clyde was foolishenough to endeavor to force her to yield the favors he craved, she would turn on him with the fury of a spitefulcat, would tear herself away, developing for the moment, seemingly, an intense mood of opposition which shecould scarcely have explained to herself. Its chief mental content appeared to be one of opposition to beingcompelled by him to do anything. And, because of his infatuation and his weak overtures due to his inordinatefear of losing her, he would be forced to depart, usually in a dark and despondent mood.
But so keen was her attraction for him that he could not long remain away, but must be going about to wheremost likely he would encounter her. Indeed, for the most part these days, and in spite of the peculiar climaxwhich had eventuated in connection with Esta, he lived in a keen, sweet and sensual dream in regard to her. Ifonly she would really come to care for him. At night, in his bed at home, he would lie and think of her--herface--the expressions of her mouth and eyes, the lines of her figure, the motions of her body in walking ordancing--and she would flicker before him as upon a screen. In his dreams, he found her deliciously near him,pressing against him--her delightful body all his--and then in the moment of crisis, when seemingly she wasabout to yield herself to him completely, he would awake to find her vanished--an illusion only.
Yet there were several things in connection with her which seemed to bode success for him. In the first place,like himself, she was part of a poor family--the daughter of a machinist and his wife, who up to this very timehad achieved little more than a bare living. From her childhood she had had nothing, only such gew-gaws andfripperies as she could secure for herself by her wits. And so low had been her social state until very recently thatshe had not been able to come in contact with anything better than butcher and baker boys--the rathercommonplace urchins and small job aspirants of her vicinity. Yet even here she had early realized that she couldand should capitalize her looks and charm--and had. Not a few of these had even gone so far as to steal in orderto get money to entertain her.
After reaching the age where she was old enough to go to work, and thus coming in contact with the type of boyand man in whom she was now interested, she was beginning to see that without yielding herself too much, butin acting discreetly, she could win a more interesting equipment than she had before. Only, so truly sensual andpleasure-loving was she that she was by no means always willing to divorce her self-advantages from herpleasures. On the contrary, she was often troubled by a desire to like those whom she sought to use, and percontra, not to obligate herself to those whom she could not like.
In Clyde's case, liking him but a little, she still could not resist the desire to use him. She liked his willingness tobuy her any little thing in which she appeared interested--a bag, a scarf, a purse, a pair of gloves--anything thatshe could reasonably ask or take without obligating herself too much. And yet from the first, in her smart, trickyway, she realized that unless she could bring herself to yield to him--at some time or other offer him the definitereward which she knew he craved--she could not hold him indefinitely.
One thought that stirred her more than anything else was that the way Clyde appeared to be willing to spend hismoney on her she might easily get some quite expensive things from him--a pretty and rather expensive dress,perhaps, or a hat, or even a fur coat such as was then being shown and worn in the city, to say nothing of goldearrings, or a wrist watch, all of which she was constantly and enviously eyeing in the different shop windows.
One day not so long after Clyde's discovery of his sister Esta, Hortense, walking along Baltimore Street near its junction with Fifteenth--the smartest portion of the shopping section of the city--at the noon hour--with DorisTrine, another shop girl in her department store, saw in the window of one of the smaller and less exclusive furstores of the city, a fur jacket of beaver that to her, viewed from the eye-point of her own particular build,coloring and temperament, was exactly what she needed to strengthen mightily her very limited personalwardrobe. It was not such an expensive coat, worth possibly a hundred dollars--but fashioned in such anindividual way as to cause her to imagine that, once invested with it, her own physical charm would registermore than it ever had.
Moved by this thought, she paused and exclaimed: "Oh, isn't that just the classiest, darlingest little coat you eversaw! Oh, do look at those sleeves, Doris." She clutched her companion violently by the arm. "Lookit the collar.
And the lining! And those pockets! Oh, dear!" She fairly vibrated with the intensity of her approval and delight.
"Oh, isn't that just too sweet for words? And the very kind of coat I've been thinking of since I don't know when.
Oh, you pity sing!" she exclaimed, affectedly, thinking all at once as much of her own pose before the windowand its effect on the passer-by as of the coat before her. "Oh, if I could only have 'oo."She clapped her hands admiringly, while Isadore Rubenstein, the elderly son of the proprietor, who was standingsomewhat out of the range of her............