THE snow melted away from the fields; the wintry clouds in the sky passedaway; wet snow and rain fell upon the earth; the sun was slower and slowerin performing his daily journey; the air grew warmer; and it seemed that thejoyful spring had already arrived, sportively hiding herself behind the fields,and would soon burst upon the town itself. In the streets there was brownmud; streams ran along the gutters; in the thawed places of ArestantskiSquare the sparrows hopped joyfully. And in human creatures, also, wasapparent the same excitement as was shown by the sparrows. Above thesounds of spring, almost uninterruptedly from morning to night, rang outthe Lenten bells, stirring one’s heart with their muffled strokes. In thatsound, as in the speech of an old man, there was hidden something ofdispleasure, as if the bells had said with cold melancholy : “Has been, thishas been, has been — ” On my nameday the workmen gave me a small,beautifully painted image of Alexei, the man of God, and Jikharev made animpressive, long speech, which I remember very well.

　　“What are you?” said he, with much play of finger and raising ofeyebrows. “Nothing more than a small boy, an orphan, thirteen years old —and I, nearly four times your age, praise you and approve of you, because youalways stand with your face to people and not sideways! Stand like thatalways, and you will be all right!”

　　He spoke of the slaves of God, and of his people, but the differencebetween people and slaves I could never understand, and I don’t believe thathe understood it himself. His speech was long-winded, the workshop waslaughing at him, and I stood, with the image in my hand, very touched andvery confused, not knowing what I ought to do. At length Kapendiukhincalled out irritably :

　　“Oh, leave off singing his praises; his ears are already turning blue!”

　　Then clapping me on the shoulder, he began to praise me himself:

　　“What is good in you is what you have in common with all humancreatures, and not the fact that it is difficult to scold and beat you when youhave given cause for it!”

　　They all looked at me with kind eyes, making good-natured fun of myconfusion. A little more and I believe I should have burst out crying from theunexpected joy of finding myself valued by these people. And that verymorning the shopman had said to Petr Vassilich, nodding his head towardme :

　　“An unpleasant boy that, and good for nothing!”

　　As usual I had gone to the shop in the morning, but at noon the shopmanhad said to me :

　　“Go home and clear the snow off the roof of the warehouse, and clean outthe cellar.”

　　That it was my name-day he did not know, and I had thought that no oneknew it. When the ceremony of congratulations had finished in the work —shop, I changed my clothes and climbed up to the roof of the shed to throwoff the smooth, heavy snow which had accumulated during that winter. Butbeing excited, I forgot to close the door of the cellar, and threw all the snowinto it. When I jumped down to the ground, I saw my mistake, and set myselfat once to get the snow away from the door. Being wet, it lay heavily; thewooden spade moved it with difficulty; there was no iron one, and I brokethe spade at the very moment when the shopman appeared at the yard-gate.

　　The truth of the Russian proverb, “Sorrow follows on the heels of joy,” wasproved to me.

　　“So — o — o!” said the shopman derisively, “you are a fine workman, thedevil take you! If I get hold of your senseless blockhead — “ He flourished theblade of the shovel over me.

　　I move away, saying angrily :

　　“I wasn’t engaged as a yardman, anyhow.”

　　He hurled the stick against my legs. I took up a snowball and threw itright in his face. He ran away snorting, and I left off working, and went intothe workshop. In a few minutes his fiancee came running downstairs. Shewas an agile maiden, with pim — ples on her vacant face.

　　“Maximich, you are to go upstairs!”

　　“I am not going!” I said. Larionich asked in an amazed undertone: “Whatis this? You are not going “?” I told him about the affair. With an anxiousfrown he went upstairs, muttering to me: “Oh, you impudent youngster — ”

　　The workshop resounded with abuse .f the shop-man, and Kapendiukhinsaid:

　　“Well, they will kick you out this time!” This did not alarm me. Myrelations with the shopman had already become unbearable. His hatred ofme was undisguised and became more and more acute, while, for my part, Icould not endure him. But what I wanted to know was: why did he behave soabsurdly to me”? He would throw coins about the floor of the shop, andwhen I was sweeping, I found them, and laid them on the counter in the cupwhich contained the small money kept for beggars. When I guessed whatthese frequent finds meant I said to him:

　　“You throw money about in my way on purpose!” He flew out at me andcried incautiously: “Don’t you dare to teach me! I know what I am doing!”

　　But he corrected himself immediately: “And what do you mean by mythrowing it about purposely? It falls about itself.”

　　He forbade me to read the books in the shop, saying:

　　“That is not for you to trouble your head about IWhat! Have you an idea of becoming a valuer, sluggard?’

　　He did not cease his attempts to catch me in the theft of small money,and I realised that if, when I was sweeping the floor, the coin should roll intoa crevice between the boards, he would declare that I had stolen it. Then Itold him again that he had better give up that game, but that same day, whenI re — turned from the tavern with the boiling water, I heard him suggestingto the newly engaged assistant in the neighboring shop:

　　“Egg him on to steal psalters. We shall soon be having three hampers ofthem.”

　　I knew that they were talking about me, for when I entered the shop theyboth looked confused; and besides these signs, I had grounds for suspectingthem of a foolish conspiracy against me.

　　This was not the first time that that assistant had been in the service ofthe man next door. He was accounted a clever salesman, but he sufferedfrom alco — holism; in one of his drinking bouts the master had dismissedhim, but had afterwards taken him back. He was an anaemic, feeble person,with cunning eyes. Apparently amiable and submissive to the slightestgesture of his master, he smiled a little, clever smile in his beard all the time,was fond of uttering sharp sayings, and exhaled the rotten smell whichcomes from people with bad teeth, although his own were white and strong.

　　One day he gave me a terrible surprise; he came towards me smilingpleasantly, but suddenly seized my cap off my head and took hold of my hair.

　　We began to struggle. He pushed me from the gallery into the shop, trying allthe time to throw me against the large images which stood about on thefloor. If he had succeeded in this, I should have broken the glass, or chippedthe carving, and no doubt scratched some of the costly icons. He was veryweak, and I soon overcame him; when to my great amazement the beardedman sat on the floor and cried bitterly, rubbing his bruised nose.

　　The next morning when our masters had both gone out somewhere andwe were alone, he said to me in a friendly manner, rubbing the lump on thebridge of his nose and under his eyes with his finger :

　　“Do you think that it was of my own will or desire that I attacked you? Iam not a fool, you know, and I knew that you would be more than a matchfor me. I am a man of little strength, a tippler. It was your master who toldme to do it. ‘Lead him on,’ he said, ‘and get him to break something in theshop while he is fighting you. Let him damage something, anyhow!’ I shouldnever have done it of my own accord; look how you have ornamented myphiz for me.”

　　I believed him, and I began to be sorry for him. I knew that he lived, half-starved, with a woman who knocked him about. However, I asked him:

　　“And if he told you to poison a person, I suppose you would do it?”

　　“He might do that,” said the shopman with a pitiful smile; “he is capableof it.”

　　Soon after this he asked me :

　　“Listen, I have not a farthing; there is nothing to eat at home ; my missusnags at me. Couldn’t you take an icon out of your stock and give it to me tosell, like a friend, eh? Will you”? Or a breviary?”

　　I remembered the boot-shop, and the beadle of the church, and Ithought: “Will this man give me away?” But it was hard to refuse him, and Igave him an icon. To steal a breviary worth several rubles, that I could notdo; it seemed, to me a great crime. What would you have? Arithrnetic alwayslies concealed in ethics; the holy ingenuousness of “Regula — tions for thePunishment of Criminals” clearly gives away this little secret, behind whichthe great lie of property hides itself.

　　When I heard my shopman suggesting that this miserable man shouldincite me to steal psalters I was afraid. It was clear that he knew howcharitable I had been on the other’s behalf, and that the man from next doorhad told him about the icon.

　　The abominableness of being charitable at another person’s expense, andthe realization of the rotten trap that had been set for me — both these thingsaroused in me a feeling of indignation and disgust with myself and every oneelse. For several days I tormented myself cruelly, waiting for the arrival ofthe hamper with the books. At length they came, and when I was puttingthem away in the store-room, the shopman from next door came to me andasked me to give him a breviary.

　　Then I asked him :

　　“Did you tell my master about the icon?”

　　“1 did,” he answered in a melancholy voice; “I can keep nothing back,brother.”

　　This utterly confounded me, and I sat on the floor staring at himstupidly, while he muttered hurriedly, confusedly, desperately miserable:

　　“You see your man guessed — or rather, mine guessed and told yours — ”

　　I thought I was lost. These people had been conspiring against me, andnow there was a place ready for me in the colony for youthful criminals! Ifthat were so, nothing mattered! If one must drown, it is better to drown in adeep spot. I put a breviary into the hands of the shopman; he hid it in thesleeves of his greatcoat and went away. But he returned suddenly, thebreviary fell at my feet, and the man strode away, saying:

　　“I won’t take it! It would be all over with you.”

　　I did not understand these words. Why should it be all over with me? ButI was very glad that he had not taken the book. After this my little shop-manbegan to regard me with more disfavor and sus — picion than ever.

　　I remembered all this when Larionich went upstairs. He did not staythere long, and came back more depressed and quiet than usual, but beforesupper he said to me privately :

　　“I tried to arrange for you to be set free from the shop, and given over tothe workshop, but it was no good. Kouzma would not have it. You are verymuch out of favor with him.”

　　I had an enemy in the house, too — the shopman’s fiancee, animmoderately sportive damsel. All the young fellows in the workshop playedabout with her; they used to wait for her in the vestibule and embrace her.

　　This did not offend her; she only squeaked like a little dog. She was chewingsomething from morning to night; her pockets were always full of ginger —bread or buns; her jaws moved ceaselessly. To look at her vacant face with itsrestless gray eyes was unpleasant. She used to ask Pavl and me riddles whichalways concealed some coarse obscenity, and repeated catchwords which,being said very quickly, became improper words.

　　One day one of the elderly workmen said to her:

　　“You are a shameless hussy, my girl!”

　　To which she answered swiftly, in the words of a ribald song:

　　“If a maiden is too modest, She’ll never be a woman worth having.”

　　It was the first time I had ever seen such a girl. She disgusted andfrightened me with her coarse playfulness, and seeing that her antics werenot agreeable to me, she became more and more spiteful toward me.

　　Once when Pavl and I were in the cellar helping her to steam out thecasks of kvass and cucumbers she suggested :

　　“Would you like me to teach you how to kiss, boys?”

　　“I know how to kiss better than you do” Pavl answered, and I told her togo and kiss her future hus — band. I did not say it very politely, either.

　　She was angry.

　　“Oh, you coarse creature! A young lady makes herself agreeable to himand he turns up his nose. Well, I never! What a ninny!”

　　And she added, shaking a threatening finger at me :

　　“You just wait. I will remember that of you!”

　　But Pavl said to her, taking my part :

　　“Your young man would give you something if he knew about yourbehavior!”

　　She screwed up her pimply face contemptuously.

　　“I am not afraid of him! I have a dowry. I am much better than he is! Agirl only has the time till she is married to amuse herself.”

　　She began to play about with Pavl, and from that time I found in her anunwearying calumniator.

　　My life in the shop became harder and harder. I read church books allthe time. The disputes and conversations of the valuers had ceased to amuseme, for they were always talking over the same things in the same old way.

　　Petr Vassilich alone still interested me, with his knowledge of the dark sideof hu — man life, and his power of speaking interestingly andenthusiastically. Sometimes I thought he must be the prophet Elias walkingthe earth, solitary and vindictive. But each time that I spoke to the old manfrankly about people, or about my own thoughts, he repeated all that I hadsaid to the shopman, who either ridiculed me offensively, or abused meangrily.

　　One day I told the old man that I sometimes wrote his sayings in thenote-book in which I had copied various poems taken out of books. Thisgreatly alarmed the valuer, who limped towards me swiftly, askinganxiously :

　　“What did you do that for? It is not worth while, my lad. So that you mayremember? No; you just give it up. What a boy you are! Now you will give mewhat you have written, won’t you?”

　　He tried............