Sidwell took no one into her confidence. The case was not one for counsel; whatever her future action, it must result from the maturing of self-knowledge, from the effect of circumstance upon her mind and heart. For the present she could live in silence.
‘We hear,’ she wrote from London to Sylvia Moorhouse, ‘that Mr. Peak has left Exeter, and that he is not likely to carry out his intention of being ordained. You, I daresay, will feel no surprise.’ Nothing more than that; and Sylvia’s comments in reply were equally brief.
Martin Warricombe, after conversations with his wife and with Buckland, felt it impossible not to seek for an understanding of Sidwell’s share in the catastrophe. He was gravely perturbed, feeling that with himself lay the chief responsibility for what had happened. Buckland’s attitude was that of the man who can only keep repeating ‘I told you so’; Mrs. Warricombe could only lament and upbraid in the worse than profitless fashion natural to women of her stamp. But in his daughter Martin had every kind of faith, and he longed to speak to her without reserve. Two days after her return from Exeter, he took Sidwell apart, and, with a distressing sense of the delicacy of the situation, tried to persuade her to frank utterance.
‘I have been hearing strange reports,’ he began, gravely, but without show of displeasure. ‘Can you help me to understand the real facts of the case, Sidwell?—What is your view of Peak’s behaviour?’
‘He has deceived you, father,’ was the quiet reply.
‘You are convinced of that?—It allows of no——?’
‘It can’t be explained away. He pretended to believe what he did not and could not believe.’
‘With interested motives, then?’
‘Yes.—But not motives in themselves dishonourable.’
There was a pause. Sidwell had spoken in a steady voice, though with eyes cast down. Whether her father could understand a position such as Godwin’s, she felt uncertain. That he would honestly endeavour to do so, there could be no doubt, especially since he must suspect that her own desire was to distinguish between the man and his fault. But a revelation of all that had passed between her and Peak was not possible; she had the support neither of intellect nor of passion; it would be asking for guidance, the very thing she had determined not to do. Already she found it difficult to recover the impulses which had directed her in that scene of parting; to talk of it would be to see her action in such a doubtful light that she might be led to some premature and irretrievable resolve. The only trustworthy counsellor was time; on what time brought forth must depend her future.
‘Do you mean, Sidwell,’ resumed her father, ‘that you think it possible for us to overlook this deception?’
She delayed a moment, then said:
‘I don’t think it possible for you to regard him as a friend.’
Martin’s face expressed relief.
‘But will he remain in Exeter?’
‘I shouldn’t think he can.’
Again a pause. Martin was of course puzzled exceedingly, but he began to feel some assurance that Peak need not be regarded as a danger.
‘I am grieved beyond expression,’ he said at length. ‘So deliberate a fraud—it seems to me inconsistent with any of the qualities I thought I saw in him.’
‘Yes—it must.’
‘Not—perhaps—to you?’ Martin ventured, anxiously.
‘His nature is not base.’
‘Forgive me, dear.—I understand that you spoke with him after Buckland’s call at his lodgings——?’
‘Yes, I saw him.’
‘And—he strove to persuade you that he had some motive which justified his conduct?’
‘Excused, rather than justified.’
‘Not—it seems—to your satisfaction?’
‘I can’t answer that question, father. My experience of life is too slight. I can only say that untruthfulness in itself is abhorrent to me, and that I could never try to make it seem a light thing.’
‘That, surely, is a sound view, think as we may on speculative points. But allow me one more question, Sidwell. Does it seem to you that I have no choice but to break off all communication with Mr Peak?’
It was the course dictated by his own wish, she knew. And what could be gained by any middle way between hearty goodwill and complete repudiation? Time—time alone must work out the problem.
‘Yes, I think you have no choice,’ she answered.
‘Then I must make inquiries—see if he leaves the town.’
‘Mr. Lilywhite will know, probably.’
‘I will write before long.’
So the dialogue ended, and neither sought to renew it.
Martin enjoined upon his wife a discreet avoidance of the subject. The younger members of the family were to know nothing of what had happened, and, if possible, the secret must be kept from friends at Exeter. When a fortnight had elapsed, he wrote to Mr. Lilywhite, asking whether it was true that Peak had gone away. ‘It seems that private circumstances have obliged him to give up his project of taking Orders. Possibly he has had a talk with you?’ The clergyman replied that Peak had left Exeter. ‘I have had a letter from him, explaining in general terms his change of views. It hardly surprises me that he has reconsidered the matter. I don’t think he was cut out for clerical work. He is far more likely to distinguish himself in the world of science. I suspect that conscientious scruples may have something to do with it; if so, all honour to him!’
The Warricombes prolonged their stay in London until the end of June. On their return home, Martin was relieved to find that scarcely an inquiry was made of him concerning Peak. The young man’s disappearance excited no curiosity in the good people who had come in contact with him, and who were so far from suspecting what a notable figure had passed across their placid vision. One person only was urgent in his questioning. On an afternoon when Mrs Warricombe and her daughters were alone, the Rev. Bruno Chilvers made a call.
‘Oh!’ he exclaimed, after a few minutes’ conversation, ‘I am so anxious to ask you what has become of Mr. Peak. Soon after my arrival in Exeter, I went to see him, and we had a long talk—a most interesting talk. Then I heard all at once that he was gone, and that we should see no more of him. Where is he? What is he doing?’
There was a barely appreciable delay before Mrs. Warricombe made answer.
‘We have quite lost sight of him,’ she said, with an artificial smile. ‘We know only that he was called away on some urgent business—family affairs, I suppose.’
Chilvers, in the most natural way, glanced from the speaker to Sidwell, and instantly, without the slightest change of expression, brought his eyes back again.
‘I hope most earnestly,’ he went on, in his fluty tone, ‘that he will return. A most interesting man! A man of large intellectual scope, and really broad sympathies. I looked forward to many a chat with him. Has he, I wonder, been led to change his views? Possibly he would find a secular sphere more adapted to his special powers.’
Mrs. Warricombe had nothing to say. Sidwell, finding that Mr Chilvers’ smile now beamed in her direction, replied to him with steady utterance:
‘It isn’t uncommon, I think, nowadays, for doubts to interfere with the course of study for ordination?’
‘Far from uncommon!’ exclaimed the Rector of St. Margaret’s, with almost joyous admission of the fact. ‘Very far from uncommon. Such students have my profound sympathy. I know from experience exactly what it means to be overcome in a struggle with the modern spirit. Happily for myself, I was enabled to recover what for a time I lost. But charity forbid that I should judge those who think they must needs voyage for ever in sunless gulfs of doubt, or even absolutely deny that the human intellect can be enlightened from above.’
At a loss even to follow this rhetoric, Mrs. Warricombe, who was delighted to welcome the Rev. Bruno, and regarded him as a gleaming pillar of the Church, made haste to introduce a safer topic. After that, Mr. Chilvers was seen at the house with some frequency. Not that he paid more attention to the Warricombes than to his other acquaintances. Relieved by his curate from the uncongenial burden of mere parish affairs, he seemed to regard himself as an apostle at large, whose mission directed him to the households of well-to-do people throughout the city. His brother clergymen held him in slight esteem. In private talk with Martin Warricombe, Mr. Lilywhite did not hesitate to call him ‘a mountebank’, and to add other depreciatory remarks.
‘My wife tells me—and I can trust her judgment in such things—that his sole object just now is to make a good marriage. Rather disagreeable stories seem to have followed him from the other side of England. He makes love to all unmarried women—never going beyond what is thought permissible, but doing a good deal of mischief, I fancy. One lady in Exeter—I won’t mention names—has already pulled him up with a direct inquiry as to his intentions; at her house, I imagine, he will no more be seen.’
The genial parson chuckled over his narrative, and Martin, by no means predisposed in the Rev. Bruno’s favour, took care to report these matters to his wife.
‘I don’t believe a word of it!’ exclaimed Mrs. Warricombe. ‘All the clergy are jealous of Mr. Chilvers.’
‘What? Of his success with ladies?’
‘Martin! It is something new for you to be profane!—They are jealous of his high reputation.’
‘Rather a serious charge against our respectable friends.’
‘And the stories are all nonsense,’ pursued Mrs. Warricombe. ‘It’s very wrong of Mr. Lilywhite to report such things. I don’t believe any other clergyman would have done so.’
Martin smiled—as he had been accustomed to do all through his married life—and let the discussion rest there. On the next occasion of Mr. Chilvers being at the house, he observed the reverend man’s behaviour with Sidwell, and was not at all pleased. Bruno had a way of addressing women which certainly went beyond the ordinary limits of courtesy. At a little distance, anyone would have concluded that he was doing his best to excite Sidwell’s affectionate interest. The matter of his discourse might be unobjectionable, but the manner of it was not in good taste.
Mrs. Warricombe was likewise observant, but with other emotions. To her it seemed a subject for pleasurable reflection, that Mr. Chilvers should show interest in Sidwell. The Rev. Bruno had bright prospects. With the colour of his orthodoxy she did not concern herself. He was ticketed ‘broad’, a term which carried with it no disparagement; and Sidwell’s sympathies were altogether with the men of ‘breadth’. The time drew near when Sidwell must marry, if she ever meant to do so, and in comparison with such candidates as Mr Walsh and Godwin Peak, the Rector of St. Margaret’s would be an ideal husband for her. Sidwell’s attitude towards Mr. Chilvers was not encouraging, but Mrs. Warricombe suspected that a lingering regard for the impostor, so lately unmasked, still troubled her daughter’s mind: a new suitor, even if rejected, would help the poor girl to dismiss that shocking infatuation.
Sidwell and her father nowadays spent much time together, and in the autumn days it became usual for them to have an afternoon ramble about the lanes. Their talk was of science and literature, occasionally skirting very close upon those questions which both feared to discuss plainly—for a twofold reason. Sidwell read much more than had been her wont, and her choice of authors would alone have indicated a change in her ways of thinking, even if she had not allowed it to appear in the tenor of her talk. The questions she put with reference to Martin’s favourite studies were sometimes embarrassing.
One day they happened to meet Mr. Chilvers, who was driving with his eldest child, a boy of four. The narrowness of the road made it impossible—as Martin would have wished—to greet and pass on. Chilvers stopped the carriage and jumped out. Sidwell could not but pay some attention to the youthful Chilvers.
‘Till he is ten years old,’ cried Bruno, ‘I shall think much more of his body than of his mind. In fact, at this age the body is the mind. Books, books—oh, we attach far too much importance to them. Over-study is one of the morbific tendencies of our time. Some one or other has been trying to frown down what he calls the excessive athleticism of our public schools. No, no! Let us rejoice that our lads have such an opportunity of vigorous physical development. The culture of the body is a great part of religion.’ He always uttered remarks of this kind as if suggesting that his hearers should note them in a collection of aphorisms. ‘If to labour is to pray, so also is the practice of open-air recreation.
When they had succeeded in getting away, father and daughter walked for some minutes without speaking. At length Sidwell asked, with a smile:
‘How does this form of Christianity strike you?’
‘Why, very much like a box on the ear with a perfumed glove,’ replied Martin.
‘That describes it very well.’
They walked a little further, and Sidwell spoke in a more serious tone.
‘If Mr. Chilvers were brought before the ecclesiastical authorities and compelled to make a clear statement of his faith, what sect, in all the history of heresies, would he really seem to belong to?’
‘I know too little of him, and too little of heresies.’
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