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Chapter 56 Gobblegoose Wood again

The Monday was devoted to hunting. I am not at all sure that riding about the country with a pack of hounds is an amusement specially compatible with that assured love entertainment which was now within the reach of Ayala and her Angel. For the rudiments of love-making, for little endearing attentions, for a few sweet words to be whispered with shortened breath as one horse gallops beside another, perhaps for a lengthened half hour together, amidst the mazes of a large wood when opportunities are no doubt given for private conversation, hunting may be very well. But for two persons who are engaged, with the mutual consent of all their friends, a comfortable sofa is perhaps preferable. Ayala had heard as yet but very little of her lover’s intentions — was acquainted only with that one single intention which he had declared in asking her to be his wife. There were a thousand things to be told — the how, the where, and the when. She knew hitherto the why, and that was all. Nothing could be told her while she was galloping about a big wood on Croppy’s back. “I am delighted to see you again in these parts, Miss,” said Larry Twentyman, suddenly.

“Oh, Mr Twentyman; how is the baby?”

“The baby is quite well, Miss. His mamma has been out ever so many times.”

“I ought to have asked for her first. Does baby come out too?”

“Not quite. But when the hounds are near mamma comes for an hour or so. We have had a wonderful season — quite wonderful. You have heard, perhaps, of our great run from Dillsborough Wood. We found him there, close to my place, you know, and run him down in the Brake country after an hour and forty minutes. There were only five or six of them. You’d have been one, Miss, to a moral, if you’d have been here on the pony. I say we never changed our fox.”

Ayala was well disposed towards Larry Twentyman, and was quite aware that, according to the records and established usages of that hunt, he was a man with whom she might talk safely. But she did not care about the foxes so much as she had done before. There was nothing now for which she cared much, except Jonathan Stubbs. He was always riding near her throughout the day, so that he might be with her should there arise anything special to be done; but he was not always close to her — as she would have had him. He had gained his purpose, and he was satisfied. She had entered in upon the fruition of positive bliss, but enjoyed it in perfection only when she heard the sound of his voice, or could look into his eyes as she spoke to him. She did not care much about the great run from Dillsborough, or even for the compliment with which Mr Twentyman finished his narrative. They were riding about the big woods all day, not without killing a fox, but with none of the excitement of a real run. “After that Croppy will be quite fit to come again on Wednesday,” suggested the Colonel on their way home. To which Sir Harry assented.

“What do you folks mean to do today?” asked Lady Albury at breakfast on the following morning. Ayala had her own little plan in her head, but did not dare to propose it publicly. “Will you choose to be driven, or will you choose to walk?” said Lady Albury, addressing herself to Ayala. Ayala, in her present position, was considered to be entitled to special consideration. Ayala thought she would prefer to walk. At last there came a moment in which she could make her request to the person chiefly concerned. “Walk with me to the wood with that absurd name,” suggested Ayala.

“Gobblegoose Wood,” suggested the Colonel. Then that was arranged according to Ayala’s wishes.

A walk in a wood is perhaps almost as good as a comfortable seat in a drawing-room, and is, perhaps, less liable to intrusion. They started and walked the way which Ayala remembered so well when she had trudged along, pretending to listen to Sir Harry and Captain Glomax as they carried on their discussion about the hunted fox, but giving all her ears to the Colonel, and wondering whether he would say anything to her before the day was over. Then her mind had been in a perturbed state which she herself had failed to understand. She was sure that she would say “No” to him, should he speak, and yet she desired that it should be “Yes”. What a fool she had been, she told herself as she walked along now, and how little she had deserved all the good that had come to her!

The conversation was chiefly with him as they went. He told her much now of the how, and the when, and the where. He hoped there might be no long delay. He would live, he said, for the next year or two at Aldershot, and would be able to get a house fit for her on condition that they should be married at once. He did not explain why the house could not be taken even though their marriage were delayed two or three months — but as to this she asked no questions. Of course they must be married in London if Mrs Dosett wished it; but if not it might be arranged that the wedding should take place at Stalham. Upon all this and many other things he had much to propose, and all that he said Ayala accepted as gospel. As the Angel of Light had appeared — as the knight who was lord of the castle had come forth — of course he must be obeyed in everything. He could hardly have made a suggestion to which she would not have acceded. When they had entered the wood Ayala in her own quiet way led him to the very spot in which on that former day he had asked her his question. “Do you remember this path?” she asked.

“I remember that you and I were walking here together,” he said.

“Ay, but this very turn? Do you remember this branch?”

“Well, no; not the branch.”

“You put your hand on it when you said that “never — never,” to me.”

“Did I say “never — never”?”

“Yes, you did — when I was so untrue to you.”

“Were you untrue?” he asked.

“Jonathan, you remember nothing about it. It has all passed away from you just as though you were talking to Captain Glomax about the fox.”

“Has it, dear?”

“I remember every word of it. I remember how you stood and how you looked, even to the hat you wore and the little switch you held in your hand — when you asked for one little word, one glance, one slightest touch. There, now — you shall have all my weight to bear.” Then she leant upon him with both her hands, turned round her arm, glanced up into his face, and opened her lips as though speaking that little word. “Do you remember that I said I thought you had given it all up?”

“I remember that, certainly.”

“And was not that untrue? Oh, Jonathan, that was such a story. Had I thought so I should have been miserable.”

“Then why did you swear to me so often that you could not love me?”

“I never said so,” replied Ayala; never.

“Did you not?” he asked.

“I never said so. I never told you such a story as that. I did love you then, almost as well as I do now. Oh, I had loved you for so long a time!”

“Then why did you refuse me?”

“Ah; that is what I would explain to you now — here on this very spot — if I could. Does it not seem odd that a girl should have all that she wants offered to her, and yet not be able to take it?”

“Was it all that you wanted!”

“Indeed it was. When I was in church that morning I told myself that I never, never could be happy unless you came to me again.”

“But when I did come you would not have me.”

“I knew how to love you,” she said, but I did not know how to tell you that I loved you. I can tell you now; cannot I?” and then she looked up at him and smiled. “Yes, I think I shall never be tired of telling you now. It is sweet to hear you say that you love me, but it is sweeter still to be always telling you. And yet I could not tell you then. Suppose you had taken me at my word?”

“I told you that I should never give you up.”

“It was only that that kept me from being altogether wretched. I think that I was ashamed to tell you the truth when I had once refused to do as you would have me. I had given you so much trouble all for nothing. I think that if you had asked me on that first day at the ball in London I should have said yes, if I had told the truth.”

“That would have been very sudden. I had never seen you before that.”

“Nevertheless it was so. I don’t mind owning it to you now, though I never, never, would own it to anyone else. When you came to us at the theatre I was sure that no one else could ever have been so good: I certainly did love you then.”

“Hardly that, Ayala.”

“I did,” she said. Now I have told you everything, and if you choose to think I have been bad — why you must think so, and I must put up with it.”

“Bad, my darling?”

“I suppose it was bad to fall in love with a man like that; and very bad to give him the trouble of coming so often. But now I have made a clean breast of it, and if you want to scold me you must scold me now. You may do it now, but you must never scold me afterwards — because of that.” It may be left to the reader to imagine the nature of the scolding which she received.

Then on their way home she thanked him for all the good that he had done to all those belonging to her. “I have heard it all from Lucy — how generous you have been to Isadore.”

“That has all come to nothing,” he said.

“How come to nothing? I know that you sent him the money.”

“I did offer to lend him something, and, indeed, I sent him a cheque; but two days afterwards he returned it. That tremendous uncle of yours — ”

“Uncle Tom?”

“Yes, your Uncle Tom; the man of millions! He came forward and cut me out altogether. I don&............

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