For a girl who has been a belle5, it is harder to live through these bad times than it is for one who has never known anything better. Like a figure of painted and brightly varnished6 wood, Ella Dowling sat against the wall through dance after dance with glassy imperturbability7; it was easier to be wooden, Alice thought, if you had your mother with you, as Ella had. You were left with at least the shred8 of a pretense9 that you came to sit with your mother as a spectator, and not to offer yourself to be danced with by men who looked you over and rejected you—not for the first time. “Not for the first time”: there lay a sting! Why had you thought this time might be different from the other times? Why had you broken your back picking those hundreds of violets?
Hating the fatuous10 young men in the doorways more bitterly for every instant that she had to maintain her tableau11, the smiling Alice knew fierce impulses to spring to her feet and shout at them, “You IDIOTS!” Hands in pockets, they lounged against the pilasters, or faced one another, laughing vaguely12, each one of them seeming to Alice no more than so much mean beef in clothes. She wanted to tell them they were no better than that; and it seemed a cruel thing of heaven to let them go on believing themselves young lords. They were doing nothing, killing13 time. Wasn't she at her lowest value at least a means of killing time? Evidently the mean beeves thought not. And when one of them finally lounged across the corridor and spoke14 to her, he was the very one to whom she preferred her loneliness.
“Waiting for somebody, Lady Alicia?” he asked, negligently15; and his easy burlesque16 of her name was like the familiarity of the rest of him. He was one of those full-bodied, grossly handsome men who are powerful and active, but never submit themselves to the rigour of becoming athletes, though they shoot and fish from expensive camps. Gloss17 is the most shining outward mark of the type. Nowadays these men no longer use brilliantine on their moustaches, but they have gloss bought from manicure-girls, from masseurs, and from automobile-makers; and their eyes, usually large, are glossy18. None of this is allowed to interfere19 with business; these are “good business men,” and often make large fortunes. They are men of imagination about two things—women and money, and, combining their imaginings about both, usually make a wise first marriage. Later, however, they are apt to imagine too much about some little woman without whom life seems duller than need be. They run away, leaving the first wife well enough dowered. They are never intentionally20 unkind to women, and in the end they usually make the mistake of thinking they have had their money's worth of life. Here was Mr. Harvey Malone, a young specimen21 in an earlier stage of development, trying to marry Henrietta Lamb, and now sauntering over to speak to Alice, as a time-killer before his next dance with Henrietta.
Alice made no response to his question, and he dropped lazily into the vacant chair, from which she sharply withdrew her hand. “I might as well use his chair till he comes, don't you think? You don't MIND, do you, old girl?”
“Oh, no,” Alice said. “It doesn't matter one way or the other. Please don't call me that.”
“So that's how you feel?” Mr. Malone laughed indulgently, without much interest. “I've been meaning to come to see you for a long time honestly I have—because I wanted to have a good talk with you about old times. I know you think it was funny, after the way I used to come to your house two or three times a week, and sometimes oftener—well, I don't blame you for being hurt, the way I stopped without explaining or anything. The truth is there wasn't any reason: I just happened to have a lot of important things to do and couldn't find the time. But I AM going to call on you some evening—honestly I am. I don't wonder you think——”
“You're mistaken,” Alice said. “I've never thought anything about it at all.”
“Well, well!” he said, and looked at her languidly. “What's the use of being cross with this old man? He always means well.” And, extending his arm, he would have given her a friendly pat upon the shoulder but she evaded22 it. “Well, well!” he said. “Seems to me you're getting awful tetchy! Don't you like your old friends any more?”
“Not all of them.”
“Who's the new one?” he asked, teasingly. “Come on and tell us, Alice. Who is it you were holding this chair for?”
“Never mind.”
“Well, all I've got to do is to sit here till he comes back; then I'll see who it is.”
“He may not come back before you have to go.”
“Guess you got me THAT time,” Malone admitted, laughing as he rose. “They're tuning23 up, and I've got this dance. I AM coming around to see you some evening.” He moved away, calling back over his shoulder, “Honestly, I am!”
Alice did not look at him.
She had held her tableau as long as she could; it was time for her to abandon the box-trees; and she stepped forth24 frowning, as if a little annoyed with the absentee for being such a time upon her errand; whereupon the two chairs were instantly seized by a coquetting pair who intended to “sit out” the dance. She walked quickly down the broad corridor, turned into the broader hall, and hurriedly entered the dressing-room where she had left her wraps.
She stayed here as long as she could, pretending to arrange her hair at a mirror, then fidgeting with one of her slipper-buckles; but the intelligent elderly woman in charge of the room made an indefinite sojourn26 impracticable. “Perhaps I could help you with that buckle25, Miss,” she suggested, approaching. “Has it come loose?” Alice wrenched27 desperately28; then it was loose. The competent woman, producing needle and thread, deftly29 made the buckle fast; and there was nothing for Alice to do but to express her gratitude30 and go.
She went to the door of the cloak-room opposite, where a coloured man stood watchfully31 in the doorway3. “I wonder if you know which of the gentlemen is my brother, Mr. Walter Adams,” she said.
“Yes'm; I know him.”
“Could you tell me where he is?”
“No'm; I couldn't say.”
“Well, if you see him, would you please tell him that his sister, Miss Adams, is looking for him and very anxious to speak to him?”
“Yes'm. Sho'ly, sho'ly!”
As she went away he stared after her and seemed to swell32 with some bursting emotion. In fact, it was too much for him, and he suddenly retired33 within the room, releasing strangulated laughter.
Walter remonstrated34. Behind an excellent screen of coats and hats, in a remote part of the room, he was kneeling on the floor, engaged in a game of chance with a second coloured attendant; and the laughter became so vehement35 that it not only interfered36 with the pastime in hand, but threatened to attract frozen-face attention.
“I cain' he'p it, man,” the laughter explained. “I cain' he'p it! You sut'n'y the beatin'es' white boy 'n 'is city!”
The dancers were swinging into an “encore” as Alice halted for an
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