HOW I STOLE THE HEAPS OF QUAP FROM MORDET ISLAND I
“We got to make a fight for it,” said my uncle. “We got to face the music!”
 
I remember that even at the sight of him I had a sense of impending¹ calamity². He sat under the electric light with the shadow of his hair making bars down his face. He looked shrunken, and as though his skin had suddenly got loose and yellow. The decorations of the room seemed to have lost freshness, and outside the blinds were up—there was not so much fog as a dun darkness. One saw the dingy⁴ outlines of the chimneys opposite quite distinctly, and then a sky of such brown as only London can display.
 
“I saw a placard,” I said: “‘More Ponderevity.’”
 
“That’s Boom,” he said. “Boom and his damned newspapers. He’s trying to fight me down. Ever since I offered to buy the Daily Decorator he’s been at me. And he thinks consolidating⁵ Do Ut cut down the ads. He wants everything, damn him! He’s got no sense of dealing⁶. I’d like to bash his face!”
 
“Well,” I said, “what’s to be done?”
 
“Keep going,” said my uncle.
 
“I’ll smash Boom yet,” he said, with sudden savagery⁷.
 
“Nothing else?” I asked.
 
“We got to keep going. There’s a scare on. Did you notice the rooms? Half the people out there this morning are reporters. And if I talk they touch it up!... They didn’t used to touch things up! Now they put in character touches—insulting you. Don’t know what journalism’s coming to. It’s all Boom’s doing.”
 
He cursed Lord Boom with considerable imaginative vigour⁸.
 
“Well,” said I, “what can he do?”
 
“Shove us up against time, George; make money tight for us. We been handling a lot of money—and he tightens⁹ us up.”
 
“We’re sound?”
 
“Oh, we’re sound, George. Trust me for that! But all the same—There’s such a lot of imagination in these things.... We’re sound enough. That’s not it.”
 
He blew. “Damn Boom!” he said, and his eyes over his glasses met mine defiantly¹⁰.
 
“We can’t, I suppose, run close hauled for a bitstop expenditure¹¹?”
 
“Where?”
 
“Well,—Crest¹² Hill”
 
“What!” he shouted. “Me stop Crest Hill for Boom!” He waved a fist as if to hit his inkpot, and controlled himself with difficulty. He spoke¹³ at last in a reasonable voice. “If I did,” he said, “he’d kick up a fuss. It’s no good, even if I wanted to. Everybody’s watching the place. If I was to stop building we’d be down in a week.”
 
He had an idea. “I wish I could do something to start a strike or something. No such luck. Treat those workmen a sight too well. No, sink or swim, Crest Hill goes on until we’re under water.”
 
I began to ask questions and irritated him instantly.
 
“Oh, dash these explanations, George!” he cried; “You only make things look rottener than they are. It’s your way. It isn’t a case of figures. We’re all right—there’s only one thing we got to do.”
 
“Yes?”
 
“Show value, George. That’s where this quap comes in; that’s why I fell in so readily with what you brought to me week before last. Here we are, we got our option on the perfect filament¹⁴, and all we want’s canadium. Nobody knows there’s more canadium in the world than will go on the edge of a sixpence except me and you. Nobody has an idee the perfect filament’s more than just a bit of theorising. Fifty tons of quap and we’d turn that bit of theorising into something. We’d make the lamp trade sit on its tail and howl. We’d put Ediswan and all of ’em into a parcel without last year’s trousers and a hat, and swap¹⁵ ’em off for a pot of geraniums. See? We’d do it through Business Organisations, and there you are! See? Capern’s Patent Filament!
 
“The Ideal and the Real! George, we’ll do it! We’ll bring it off! And then we’ll give such a facer to Boom, he’ll think for fifty years. He’s laying up for our London and African meeting. Let him. He can turn the whole paper on to us. He says the Business Organisations shares aren’t worth fifty-two and we quote ’em at eighty-four. Well, here we are gettin’ ready for him—loading our gun.”
 
His pose was triumphant¹⁷.
 
“Yes,” I said, “that’s all right. But I can’t help thinking where should we be if we hadn’t just by accident got Capern’s Perfect Filament. Because, you know it was an accident—my buying up that.”
 
He crumpled¹⁸ up his nose into an expression of impatient distaste at my unreasonableness¹⁹.
 
“And after all, the meeting’s in June, and you haven’t begun to get the quap! After all, we’ve still got to load our gun.”
 
“They start on Toosday.”
 
“Have they got the brig?”
 
“They’ve got a brig.”
 
“Gordon-Nasmyth!” I doubted.
 
“Safe as a bank,” he said. “More I see of that man the more I like him. All I wish is we’d got a steamer instead of a sailing ship.”
 
“And,” I went on, “you seem to overlook what used to weigh with us a bit. This canadium side of the business and the Capern chance has rushed you off your legs. After all—it’s stealing, and in its way an international outrage²⁰. They’ve got two gunboats on the coast.”
 
I jumped up and went and stared out at the fog.
 
“And, by Jove, it’s about our only chance! I didn’t dream.”
 
I turned on him. “I’ve been up in the air,” I said.
 
“Heaven knows where I haven’t been. And here’s our only chance—and you give it to that adventurous²² lunatic to play in his own way—in a brig!”
 
“Well, you had a voice—”
 
“I wish I’d been in this before. We ought to have run out a steamer to Lagos or one of those West Coast places and done it from there. Fancy a brig in the channel at this time of year, if it blows southwest!”
 
“I dessay you’d have shoved it, George. Still you know, George.... I believe in him.”
 
“Yes,” I said. “Yes, I believe in him, too. In a way. Still—”
 
We took up a telegram that was lying on his desk and opened it. His face became a livid yellow. He put the flimsy paper down with a slow, reluctant movement and took off his glasses.
 
“George,” he said, “the luck’s against us.”
 
“What?”
 
He grimaced²³ with his mouth—in the queerest way at the telegram.
 
“That.”
 
I took it up and read:
 
“Motor smash compound fracture of the leg gordon nasmyth what price mordet now”
 
For a moment neither of us spoke.
 
“That’s all right,” I said at last.
 
“Eh?” said my uncle.
 
“I’m going. I’ll get that quap or bust²⁴.”
 
II
I had a ridiculous persuasion²⁵ that I was “saving the situation.”
 
“I’m going,” I said quite consciously and dramatically. I saw the whole affair—how shall I put it?—in American colours.
 
I sat down beside him. “Give me all the data you’ve got,” I said, “and I’ll pull this thing off.”
 
“But nobody knows exactly where—”
 
“Nasmyth does, and he’ll tell me.”
 
“He’s been very close,” said my uncle, and regarded me.
 
“He’ll tell me all right, now he’s smashed.”
 
He thought. “I believe he will.”
 
“George,” he said, “if you pull this thing off—Once or twice before you’ve stepped in—with that sort of Woosh of yours—”
 
He left the sentence unfinished.
 
“Give me that note-book,” I said, “and tell me all you know. Where’s the ship? Where’s Pollack? And where’s that telegram from? If that quap’s to be got, I’ll get it or bust. If you’ll hold on here until I get back with it.”...
 
And so it was I jumped into the wildest adventure of my life.
 
I requisitioned my uncle’s best car forthwith. I went down that night to the place of despatch²⁷ named on Nasmyth’s telegram, Bampton S.O. Oxon, routed him out with a little trouble from that centre, made things right with him and got his explicit²⁸ directions; and I was inspecting the Maud Mary with young Pollack, his cousin and aide, the following afternoon. She was rather a shock to me and not at all in my style, a beast of a brig inured²⁹ to the potato trade, and she reeked³⁰ from end to end with the faint, subtle smell of raw potatoes so that it prevailed even over the temporary smell of new paint. She was a beast of a brig, all hold and dirty framework, and they had ballasted her with old iron and old rails and iron sleepers³¹, and got a miscellaneous lot of spades and iron wheelbarrows against the loading of the quap. I thought her over with Pollack, one of those tall blond young men who smoke pipes and don’t help much, and then by myself, and as a result I did my best to sweep Gravesend clean of wheeling planks³³, and got in as much cord and small rope as I could for lashing³⁴. I had an idea we might need to run up a jetty. In addition to much ballast she held, remotely hidden in a sort of inadvertent way a certain number of ambiguous cases which I didn’t examine, but which I gathered were a provision against the need of a trade.
 
The captain was a most extraordinary creature, under the impression we were after copper³⁵ ore; he was a Roumanian Jew, with twitching³⁶, excitable features, who had made his way to a certificate after some preliminary naval³⁷ experiences in the Black Sea. The mate was an Essex man of impenetrable reserve. The crew were astoundingly ill-clad and destitute³⁸ and dirty; most of them youths, unwashed, out of colliers. One, the cook was a mulatto; and one, the best-built fellow of them all, was a Breton. There was some subterfuge³⁹ about our position on board—I forget the particulars now—I was called the supercargo and Pollack was the steward⁴¹. This added to the piratical flavour that insufficient⁴² funds and Gordon-Nasmyth’s original genius had already given the enterprise.
 
Those two days of bustle⁴³ at Gravesend, under dingy skies, in narrow, dirty streets, were a new experience for me. It is like nothing else in my life. I realised that I was a modern and a civilised man. I found the food filthy⁴⁴ and the coffee horrible; the whole town stank⁴⁶ in my nostrils⁴⁷, the landlord of the Good Intent on the quay⁴⁸ had a stand-up quarrel with us before I could get even a hot bath, and the bedroom I slept in was infested⁴⁹ by a quantity of exotic but voracious⁵⁰ flat parasites⁵¹ called locally “bugs⁵²,” in the walls, in the woodwork, everywhere. I fought them with insect powder, and found them comatose⁵³ in the morning. I was dipping down into the dingy underworld of the contemporary state, and I liked it no better than I did my first dip into it when I stayed with my Uncle Nicodemus Frapp at the bakery at Chatham—where, by-the-by, we had to deal with cockroaches⁵⁴ of a smaller, darker variety, and also with bugs of sorts.
 
Let me confess that through all this time before we started I was immensely self-conscious, and that Beatrice played the part of audience in my imagination throughout. I was, as I say, “saving the situation,” and I was acutely aware of that. The evening before we sailed, instead of revising our medicine-chest as I had intended, I took the car and ran across country to Lady Grove⁵⁵ to tell my aunt of the journey I was making, dress, and astonish Lady Osprey by an after dinner call.
 
The two ladies were at home and alone beside a big fire that seemed wonderfully cheerful after the winter night. I remember the effect of the little parlour in which they sat as very bright and domestic. Lady Osprey, in a costume of mauve and lace, sat on a chintz sofa and played an elaborately spread-out patience by the light of a tall shaded lamp; Beatrice, in a whiteness that showed her throat, smoked a cigarette in an armchair and read with a lamp at her elbow. The room was white-panelled and chintz-curtained. About those two bright centres of light were warm dark shadow, in which a circular mirror shone like a pool of brown water. I carried off my raid by behaving like a slave of etiquette⁵⁶. There were moments when I think I really made Lady Osprey believe that my call was an unavoidable necessity, that it would have been negligent⁵⁷ of me not to call just how and when I did. But at the best those were transitory moments.
 
They received me with disciplined amazement⁵⁸. Lady Osprey was interested in my face and scrutinised the scar. Beatrice stood behind her solicitude⁵⁹. Our eyes met, and in hers I could see startled interrogations.
 
“I’m going,” I said, “to the west coast of Africa.”
 
They asked questions, but it suited my mood to be vague.
 
“We’ve interests there. It is urgent I should go. I don’t know when I may return.”
 
After that I perceived Beatrice surveyed me steadily⁶⁰.
 
The conversation was rather difficult. I embarked⁶¹ upon lengthy⁶² thanks for their kindness to me after my accident. I tried to understand Lady Osprey’s game of patience, but it didn’t appear that Lady Osprey was anxious for me to understand her patience. I came to the verge⁶³ of taking my leave.
 
“You needn’t go yet,” said Beatrice, abruptly⁶⁴.
 
She walked across to the piano, took a pile of music from the cabinet near, surveyed Lady Osprey’s back, and with a gesture to me dropped it all deliberately⁶⁵ on to the floor.
 
“Must talk,” she said, kneeling close to me as I helped her to pick it up. “Turn my pages. At the piano.”
 
“I can’t read music.”
 
“Turn my pages.”
 
Presently we were at the piano, and Beatrice was playing with noisy inaccuracy. She glanced over her shoulder and Lady Osprey had resumed her patience. The old lady was very pink, and appeared to be absorbed in some attempt to cheat herself without our observing it.
 
“Isn’t West Africa a vile⁶⁶ climate?” “Are you going to live there?” “Why are you going?”
 
Beatrice asked these questions in a low voice and gave me no chance to answer. Then taking a rhythm from the music before her, she said—
 
“At the back of the house is a garden—a door in the wall—on the lane. Understand?”
 
I turned over the pages without any effect on her playing.
 
“When?” I asked.
 
She dealt in chords. “I wish I could play this!” she said. “Midnight.”
 
She gave her attention to the music for a time.
 
“You may have to wait.”
 
“I’ll wait.”
 
She brought her playing to an end by—as school boys say—“stashing it up.”
 
“I can’t play to-night,” she said, standing⁶⁷ up and meeting my eyes. “I wanted to give you a parting voluntary.”
 
“Was that Wagner, Beatrice?” asked Lady Osprey looking up from her cards. “It sounded very confused.”
 
I took my leave. I had a curious twinge of conscience as I parted from Lady Osprey. Either a first intimation of middle-age or my inexperience in romantic affairs was to blame, but I felt a very distinct objection to the prospect⁶⁸ of invading this good lady’s premises⁶⁹ from the garden door. I motored up to the pavilion, found Cothope reading in bed, told him for the first time of West Africa, spent an hour with him in settling all the outstanding details of Lord Roberts β, and left that in his hands to finish against my return. I sent the motor back to Lady Grove, and still wearing my fur coat—for the January night was damp and bitterly cold—walked to Bedley Corner. I found the lane to the back of the Dower House without any difficulty, and was at the door in the wall with ten minutes to spare. I lit a cigar and fell to walking up and down. This queer flavour of intrigue⁷⁰, this nocturnal garden-door business, had taken me by surprise and changed my mental altitudes. I was startled out of my egotistical pose and thinking intently of Beatrice, of that elfin quality in her that always pleased me, that always took me by surprise, that had made her for example so instantly conceive this meeting.
 
She came within a minute of midnight; the door opened softly and she appeared, a short, grey figure in a motor-coat of sheepskin, bareheaded to the cold drizzle⁷¹. She flitted up to me, and her eyes were shadows in her dusky face.
 
“Why are you going to West Africa?” she asked at once.
 
“Business crisis. I have to go.”
 
“You’re not going—? You’re coming back?”
 
“Three or four months,” I said, “at most.”
 
“Then, it’s nothing to do with me?”
 
“Nothing,” I said. “Why should it have?”
 
“Oh, that’s all right. One never knows what people think or what people fancy.” She took me by the arm, “Let’s go for a walk,” she said.
 
I looked about me at darkness and rain.
 
“That’s all right,” she laughed. “We can go along the lane and into the Old Woking Road. Do you mind? Of course you don’t. My head. It doesn’t matter. One never meets anybody.”
 
“How do you know?”
 
“I’ve wandered like this before.... Of course. Did you think”—she nodded her head back at her home—“that’s all?”
 
“No, by Jove!” I cried; “it’s manifest it isn’t.”
 
She took my arm and turned me down the lane. “Night’s my time,” she said by my side. “There’s a touch of the werewolf in my blood. One never knows in these old families.... I’ve wondered often.... Here we are, anyhow, alone in the world. Just darkness and cold and a sky of clouds and wet. And we—together.
 
“I like the wet on my face and hair, don’t you? When do you sail?”
 
I told her to-morrow.
 
“Oh, well, there’s no to-morrow now. You and I!” She stopped and confronted me.
 
“You don’t say a word except to answer!”
 
“No,” I said.
 
“Last time you did all the talking.”
 
“Like a fool. Now—”
 
We looked at each other’s two dim faces. “You’re glad to be here?”
 
“I’m glad—I’m beginning to be—it’s more than glad.”
 
She put her hands on my shoulders and drew me down to kiss her.
 
“Ah!” she said, and for a moment or so we just clung to one another.
 
“That’s all,” she said, releasing herself. “What bundles of clothes we are to-night. I felt we should kiss some day again. Always. The last time was ages ago.”
 
“Among the fern stalks.”
 
“Among the bracken. You remember. And your lips were cold. Were mine? The same lips—after so long—after so much!... And now let’s trudge⁷² through this blotted⁷³-out world together for a time. Yes, let me take your arm. Just trudge. See? Hold tight to me because I know the way—and don’t talk—don’t talk. Unless you want to talk.... Let me tell you things! You see, dear, the whole world is blotted out—it’s dead and gone, and we’re in this place. This dark wild place.... We’re dead. Or all the world is dead. No! We’re dead. No one can see us. We’re shadows. We’ve got out of our positions, out of our bodies—and together. That’s the good thing of it—together. But that’s why the world can’t see us and why we hardly see the world. Sssh! Is it all right?”
 
“It’s all right,” I said.
 
We stumbled along for a time in a close silence. We passed a dim-lit, rain-veiled window.
 
“The silly world,” she said, “the silly world! It eats and sleeps. If the wet didn’t patter so from the trees we’d hear it snoring. It’s dreaming such stupid things—stupid judgments⁷⁴. It doesn’t know we are passing, we two—free of it—clear of it. You and I!”
 
We pressed against each other reassuringly⁷⁵.
 
“I’m glad we’re dead,” she whispered. “I’m glad we’re dead. I was tired of it, dear. I was so tired of it, dear, and so entangled⁷⁶.”
 
She stopped abruptly.
 
We splashed through a string of puddles⁷⁸. I began to remember things I had meant to say.
 
“Look here!” I cried. “I want to help you beyond measure. You are entangled. What is the trouble? I asked you to marry me. You said you would. But there’s something.”
 
My thoughts sounded clumsy as I said them.
 
“Is it something about my position?... Or is it something—perhaps—about some other man?”
 
There was an immense assenting⁷⁹ silence.
 
“You’ve puzzled me so. At first—I mean quite early—I thought you meant to make me marry you.”
 
“I did.”
 
“And then?”
 
“To-night,” she said after a long pause, “I can’t explain. No! I can’t explain. I love you! But—explanations! To-night my dear, here we are in the world alone—and the world doesn’t matter. Nothing matters. Here I am in the cold with you and my bed away there deserted⁸⁰. I’d tell you—I will tell you when things enable me to tell you, and soon enough they will. But to-night—I won’t—I won’t.”
 
She left my side and went in front of me.
 
She turned upon me. “Look here,” she said, “I insist upon your being dead. Do you understand? I’m not joking. To-night you and I are out of life. It’s our time together. There may be other times, but this we won’t spoil. We’re—in Hades if you like. Where there’s nothing to hide and nothing to tell. No bodies even. No bothers. We loved each other—down there—and were kept apart, but now it doesn’t matter. It’s over.... If you won’t agree to that—I will go home.”
 
“I wanted,” I began.
 
“I know. Oh! my dear, if you’d only understand I understand. If you’d only not care—and love me to-night.”
 
“I do love you,” I said.
 
“Then love me,” she answered, “and leave all the things that bother you. Love me! Here I am!”
 
“But!—”
 
“No!” she said.
 
“Well, have your way.”
 
So she carried her point, and we wandered into the night together and Beatrice talked to me of love....
 
I’d never heard a woman before in all my life who could talk of love, who could lay bare and develop and touch with imagination all that mass of fine emotion every woman, it may be, hides. She had read of love, she had thought of love, a thousand sweet lyrics⁸¹ had sounded through her brain and left fine fragments in her memory; she poured it out, all of it, shamelessly, skilfully⁸², for me. I cannot give any sense of that talk, I cannot even tell how much of the delight of it was the magic of her voice, the glow of her near presence. And always we walked swathed warmly through a chilly⁸³ air, along dim, interminable greasy⁸⁴ roads—with never a soul abroad it seemed to us, never a beast in the fields.
 
“Why do people love each other?” I said.
 
“Why not?”
 
“But why do I love you? Why is your voice better than any voice, your face sweeter than any face?”
 
“And why do I love you?” she asked; “not only what is fine in you, but what isn’t? Why do I love your dullness, your arrogance⁸⁵? For I do. To—night I love the very raindrops on the fur of your coat!”...
 
So we talked; and at last very wet, still glowing but a little tired, we parted at the garden door. We had been wandering for two hours in our strange irrational⁸⁶ community of happiness, and all the world about us, and particularly Lady Osprey and her household, had been asleep—and dreaming of anything rather than Beatrice in the night and rain.
 
She stood in the doorway⁸⁷, a muffled⁸⁸ figure with eyes that glowed.
 
“Come back,” she whispered. “I shall wait for you.”
 
She hesitated.
 
She touched the lapel of my coat. “I love you NOW,” she said, and lifted her face to mine.
 
I held her to me and was atremble from top to toe. “O God!” I cried. “And I must go!”
 
She slipped from my arms and paused, regarding me. For an instant the world seemed full of fantastic possibilities.
 
“Yes, Go!” she said, and vanished and slammed the door upon me, leaving me alone like a man new fallen from fairyland in the black darkness of the night.
 
III
That expedition to Mordet Island stands apart from all the rest of my life, detached, a piece by itself with an atmosphere of its own. It would, I suppose, make a book by itself—it has made a fairly voluminous official report—but so far as this novel of mine goes it is merely an episode, a contributory experience, and I mean to keep it at that.
 
Vile weather, an impatient fretting⁹⁰ against unbearable⁹¹ slowness and delay, sea—sickness, general discomfort⁹² and humiliating self—revelation are the master values of these memories.
 
I was sick all through the journey out. I don’t know why. It was the only time I was ever sea-sick, and I have seen some pretty bad weather since I became a boat-builder. But that phantom⁹³ smell of potatoes was peculiarly vile to me. Coming back on the brig we were all ill, every one of us, so soon as we got to sea, poisoned, I firmly believe, by quap. On the way out most of the others recovered in a few days, but the stuffiness⁹⁴ below, the coarse food, the cramped⁹⁶ dirty accommodation kept me, if not actually sea-sick, in a state of acute physical wretchedness the whole time. The ship abounded⁹⁷ in cockroaches and more intimate vermin. I was cold all the time until after we passed Cape¹⁶ Verde, then I became steamily hot; I had been too preoccupied⁹⁸ with Beatrice and my keen desire to get the Maud Mary under way at once, to consider a proper wardrobe for myself, and in particular I lacked a coat. Heavens! how I lacked that coat! And, moreover, I was cooped up with two of the worst bores in Christendom, Pollack and the captain. Pollack, after conducting his illness in a style better adapted to the capacity of an opera house than a small compartment⁹⁹, suddenly got insupportably well and breezy, and produced a manly¹⁰⁰ pipe in which he smoked a tobacco as blond as himself, and divided his time almost equally between smoking it and trying to clean it. “There’s only three things you can clean a pipe with,” he used to remark with a twist of paper in hand. “The best’s a feather, the second’s a straw, and the third’s a girl’s hairpin¹⁰¹. I never see such a ship. You can’t find any of ’em. Last time I came this way I did find hairpins¹⁰² anyway, and found ’em on the floor of the captain’s cabin. Regular deposit. Eh?... Feelin’ better?”
 
At which I usually swore.
 
“Oh, you’ll be all right soon. Don’t mind my puffin’ a bit? Eh?”
 
He never tired of asking me to “have a hand at Nap. Good game. Makes you forget it, and that’s half the battle.”
 
He would sit swaying with the rolling of the ship and suck at his pipe of blond tobacco and look with an inexpressibly sage¹⁰³ but somnolent¹⁰⁴ blue eye at the captain by the hour together. “Captain’s a Card,” he would say over and over again as the outcome of these meditations¹⁰⁵. “He’d like to know what we’re up to. He’d like to know—no end.”
 
That did seem to be the captain’s ruling idea. But he also wanted to impress me with the notion that he was a gentleman of good family and to air a number of views adverse¹⁰⁶ to the English, to English literature, to the English constitution, and the like.
 
He had learnt the sea in the Roumanian navy, and English out of a book; he would still at times pronounce the e’s at the end of “there” and “here”; he was a naturalised Englishman, and he drove me into a reluctant and uncongenial patriotism¹⁰⁷ by his everlasting¹⁰⁸ carping at things English. Pollack would set himself to “draw him out.” Heaven alone can tell how near I came to murder.
 
Fifty-three days I had outward, cooped up with these two and a shy and profoundly depressed¹⁰⁹ mate who read the Bible on Sundays and spent the rest of his leisure in lethargy, three and fifty days of life cooped up in a perpetual smell, in a persistent¹¹⁰ sick hunger that turned from the sight of food, in darkness, cold and wet, in a lightly ballasted ship that rolled and pitched and swayed. And all the time the sands in the hour-glass of my uncle’s fortunes were streaming out. Misery¹¹¹! Amidst it all I remember only one thing brightly, one morning of sunshine in the Bay of Biscay and a vision of frothing waves, sapphire¹¹² green, a bird following our wake and our masts rolling about the sky. Then wind and rain close in on us again.
 
You must not imagine they were ordinary days, days, I mean, of an average length; they were not so much days as long damp slabs¹¹³ of time that stretched each one to the horizon, and much of that length was night. One paraded the staggering deck in a borrowed sou’-wester hour after hour in the chilly, windy, splashing and spitting darkness, or sat in the cabin, bored and ill, and looked at the faces of those inseparable companions by the help of a lamp that gave smell rather than light. Then one would see going up, up, up, and then sinking down, down, down, Pollack, extinct pipe in mouth, humorously observant, bringing his mind slowly to the seventy-seventh decision that the captain was a Card, while the words flowed from the latter in a nimble incessant¹¹⁴ good. “Dis England eet is not a country aristocratic, no! Eet is a glorified¹¹⁵ bourgeoisie! Eet is plutocratic¹¹⁶. In England dere is no aristocracy since de Wars of Roses. In the rest of Europe east of the Latins, yes; in England, no.
 
“Eet is all middle-class, youra England. Everything you look at, middle-class. Respectable! Everything good—eet is, you say, shocking. Madame Grundy! Eet is all limited and computing¹¹⁷ and self-seeking. Dat is why your art is so limited, youra fiction, your philosophin, why you are all so inartistic. You want nothing but profit! What will pay! What would you?”...
 
He had all those violent adjuncts to speech we Western Europeans have abandoned, shruggings of the shoulders, waving of the arms, thrusting out of the face, wonderful grimaces¹¹⁹ and twiddlings of the hands under your nose until you wanted to hit them away. Day after day it went on, and I had to keep any anger to myself, to reserve myself for the time ahead when it would be necessary to see the quap was got aboard and stowed—knee deep in this man’s astonishment¹²⁰. I knew he would make a thousand objections to all we had before us. He talked like a drugged man. It ran glibly¹²¹ over his tongue. And all the time one could see his seamanship fretting him, he was gnawed¹²² by responsibility, perpetually uneasy about the ship’s position, perpetually imagining dangers. If a sea hit us exceptionally hard he’d be out of the cabin in an instant making an outcry of inquiries¹²³, and he was pursued by a dread¹²⁴ of the hold, of ballast shifting, of insidious¹²⁵ wicked leaks. As we drew near the African coast his fear of rocks and shoals became infectious.
 
“I do not know dis coast,” he used to say. “I cama hera because Gordon-Nasmyth was coming too. Den³ he does not come!”
 
“Fortunes of war,” I said, and tried to think in vain if any motive¹²⁶ but sheer haphazard¹²⁷ could have guided Gordon-Nasmyth in the choice of these two men. I think perhaps Gordon-Nasmyth had the artistic¹¹⁸ temperament¹²⁸ and wanted contrasts, and also that the captain helped him to express his own malignant¹²⁹ Anti-Britishism.
 
He was indeed an exceptionally inefficient¹³⁰ captain. On the whole I was glad I had come even at the eleventh hour to see to things.
 
(The captain, by-the-by, did at last, out of sheer nervousness, get aground at the end of Mordet’s Island, but we got off in an hour or so with a swell¹³¹ and a little hard work in the boat.)
 
I suspected the mate of his opinion of the captain long before he expressed it. He was, I say, a taciturn man, but one day speech broke through him. He had been sitting at the table with his arms folded on it, musing¹³² drearily¹³³, pipe in mouth, and the voice of the captain drifted down from above.
 
The mate lifted his heavy eyes to me and regarded me for a moment. Then he began to heave with the beginnings of speech. He disembarrassed himself of his pipe. I cowered¹³⁴ with expectation. Speech was coming at last. Before he spoke he nodded reassuringly once or twice.
 
“E—”
 
He moved his head strangely and mysteriously, but a child might have known he spoke of the captain.
 
“E’s a foreigner.”
 
He regarded me doubtfully for a time, and at last decided¹³⁵ for the sake of lucidity¹³⁶ to clench¹³⁷ the matter.
 
“That’s what E is—a Dago!”
 
He nodded like a man who gives a last tap to a nail, and I could see he considered his remark well and truly laid. His face, though still resolute¹³⁸, became as tranquil¹³⁹ and uneventful as a huge hall after a public meeting has dispersed¹⁴⁰ out of it, and finally he closed and locked it with his pipe.
 
“Roumanian Jew, isn’t he?” I said.
 
He nodded darkly and almost forbiddingly.
 
More would have been too much. The thing was said. But from that time forth²⁶ I knew I could depend upon him and that he and I were friends. It happens I never did have to depend upon him, but that does not affect our relationship.
 
Forward the crew lived lives very much after the fashion of ours, more crowded, more cramped and dirty, wetter, steamier, more verminous. The coarse food they had was still not so coarse but that they did not think they were living “like fighting cocks.” So far as I could make out they were all nearly destitute men; hardly any of them had a proper sea outfit¹⁴¹, and what small possessions they had were a source of mutual¹⁴² distrust. And as we pitched and floundered southward they gambled and fought, were brutal¹⁴³ to one another, argued and wrangled¹⁴⁴ loudly, until we protested at the uproar¹⁴⁵.
 
There’s no romance about the sea in a small sailing ship as I saw it. The romance is in the mind of the landsman dreamer. These brigs and <............