“Never more shall we see Karolin.”
The words of Aioma were repeated by the sky, by the sun, and the sea. Never more would he see Katafa, hear her voice, feel her arms about him. The hard hot deck beneath him, the sun beating on his back, the sounds of the sea on the planking and the groaning1 of the timbers all were part of his misery2, of the awful hunger that fed on his heart.
He loved her as a man loves a woman, as a child loves a mother, as a mother loves a child. He who had killed men and dared death was, in fact, still a child; passionate3, loving, ignorant of the terrors that life holds for the heart of man, of the grief that kills and the separation that annihilates4. He had never met grief before.
Le Moan watched him as he lay. She knew. He was lying like that because of Katafa, she had lain like that on the coral because of him.
By declaring that vision had returned to her, by seizing the wheel and steering6 for Karolin, she could have brought him to his feet a well man—only to hand him over to Katafa.
She could not do that.
Her heart, pitiless to the world, was human only towards him; she had braved the unknown and she had braved death to save his life, but to save him from this suffering she could not speak three words.
Aioma watched him absolutely unmoved. If Dick had been wounded by a spear or club, it would have been different, but mental anguish7 was unknown to the canoe-builder and you cannot sympathize with the unknown.
Then as Dick struggled to his feet and stood with his hand on the rail, dazed and with his face turned again to the south, the old man recommenced his plaint with the insistency8 of a brute9, whilst the wind blew and Poni at the wheel kept the ship on her course south, ever towards the hopeless south.
“No,” said Aioma, “never more shall we see Karolin. Uta has us in his net. Never more shall I shape my logs (he had dropped that business before leaving Karolin) or spear the big fish by night whilst the boys hold the torches (upoli), and the great eels10 will go through the water with none to catch them. It is this ayat that has brought us where we now are to confusion and a sea without measure, and this wind, which is the breath of Le Juan, and may her breath be accursed. Well, Taori, and so it stands, and what now? Shall we go before the wind or counter it—seek the south e Haya where nothing is, or the east e Hola where nothing is?”
Dick turned his face to the canoe builder. “I do not know, Aioma, I do not know. It is all darkness.” His eyes turned to Le Moan and passed her, falling on Poni at the wheel, and the sea beyond.
Aioma had told him that he was taking Le Moan as a pathfinder, but Dick had troubled little about that, scarcely believing in it. He had trusted to the current and the light of Karolin as a guide. They were gone, but it was the words of Aioma that removed the last vestige11 of hope.
He trusted Aioma in all sea matters and when Aioma said that they were lost, they were lost indeed. Palm Tree vanished, Karolin gone, nothing but the sea, the trackless hopeless sea and the words of Aioma!
Urged by a blind instinct to get away from the sight of that sea, that sky, that pitiless sun, he left the deck and came down the steps to the saloon where he stood, a strange figure, almost nude12, against the commonplace surroundings; the table, the chairs, the bunks13 with their still disordered bedding, the mirror let into the forward bulkhead, a mirror so old and dim and spotted15 that it scarcely cast a reflection.
He looked about him for a moment, moved towards the bunk14 where Carlin had once slept, and, sitting down on the edge of it, leaned forward, his arms resting on his knees, his head bowed; just as his father had sat long, long years ago when Emmeline had vanished into the woods to return bearing a child in her arms—bearing him, Taori.
Just as his father had sat all astray, crushed, helpless and lost, so he sat now, and for the same reason.
Up on deck Poni at the wheel turned to the canoe-builder.
“And what now, Aioma,” said Poni, “since Le Moan knows not where to go, where go we?” As he spoke16 the mainsail trembled, rippled17, and flattened18 again.
The canoe-builder turned aft. The breezed-up blue, beyond a certain point, lay in meadows and a far glitter spoke of a great space where there was no wind.
“The wind is losing its feathers,” said Poni with a backward glance in the direction towards which the other was looking.
As he spoke the mainsai............