Lady Harman had been married when she was just eighteen.  
Mrs. Sawbridge was the widow of a solicitor¹ who had been killed in a railway collision while his affairs, as she put it, were unsettled; and she had brought up her two daughters in a villa² at Penge upon very little money, in a state of genteel protest. Ellen was the younger. She had been a sturdy dark-eyed doll-dragging little thing and had then shot up very rapidly. She had gone to a boarding-school at Wimbledon because Mrs. Sawbridge thought the Penge day-school had made Georgina opiniated and unladylike, besides developing her muscular system to an unrefined degree. The Wimbledon school was on less progressive lines, and anyhow Ellen grew taller and more feminine than her sister and by seventeen was already womanly, dignified³ and intensely admired by a number of schoolmates and a large circle of their cousins and brothers. She was generally very good and only now and then broke out with a venturesome enterprise that hurt nobody. She got out of a skylight, for example, and perambulated the roof in the moonshine to see how it felt and did one or two other little things of a similar kind. Otherwise her conduct was admirable and her temper in those days was always contagiously⁴ good. That attractiveness which Mr. Brumley felt, was already very manifest, and a little hindered her in the attainment⁵ of other distinctions. Most of her lessons were done for her by willing slaves, and they were happy slaves because she abounded⁶ in rewarding kindnesses; but on the other hand the study of English literature and music was almost forced upon her by the zeal⁷ of the two visiting Professors of these subjects.
 
And at seventeen, which is the age when girls most despise the boyishness of young men, she met Sir Isaac and filled him with an invincible⁸ covetousness⁹....
 
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The school at Wimbledon was a large, hushed, faded place presided over by a lady of hidden motives¹⁰ and great exterior¹¹ calm named Miss Beeton Clavier. She was handsome without any improper¹² attractiveness, an Associate in Arts of St. Andrew's University and a cousin of Mr. Blenker of the Old Country Gazette. She was assisted by several resident mistresses and two very carefully married visiting masters for music and Shakespear, and playground and shrubbery and tennis-lawn were all quite effectively hidden from the high-road. The curriculum included Latin Grammar—nobody ever got to the reading of books in that formidable tongue—French by an English lady who had been in France, Hanoverian German by an irascible native, the more seemly aspects of English history and literature, arithmetic, algebra¹³, political economy and drawing. There was no hockey played within the precincts, science was taught without the clumsy apparatus¹⁴ or objectionable diagrams that are now so common, and stress was laid upon the carriage of the young ladies and the iniquity¹⁵ of speaking in raised voices. Miss Beeton Clavier deprecated the modern "craze for examinations," and released from such pressure her staff did not so much give courses of lessons as circle in a thorough-looking and patient manner about their subjects. This turn-spit quality was reflected in the school idiom; one did not learn algebra or Latin or so-forth, one did algebra, one was put into Latin....
 
The girls went through this system of exercises and occupations, evasively and as it were sotto voce, making friends, making enemies, making love to one another, following instincts that urged them to find out something about life—in spite of the most earnest discouragement.... None of them believed for a moment that the school was preparing them for life. Most of them regarded it as a long inexplicable¹⁶ passage of blank, grey occupations through which they had to pass. Beyond was the sunshine.
 
Ellen gathered what came to her. She realized a certain beauty in music in spite of the biographies of great musicians, the technical enthusiasms and the general professionalism of her teacher; the literature master directed her attention to memoirs¹⁷ and through these she caught gleams of understanding when the characters of history did for brief intervals¹⁸ cease to be rigidly¹⁹ dignified and institutional like Miss Beeton Clavier and became human—like schoolfellows. And one little spectacled mistress, who wore art dresses and adorned²⁰ her class-room with flowers, took a great fancy to her, talked to her with much vagueness and emotion of High Aims, and lent her with an impressive furtiveness²¹ the works of Emerson and Shelley and a pamphlet by Bernard Shaw. It was a little difficult to understand what these writers were driving at, they were so dreadfully clever, but it was clear they reflected criticism upon the silences of her mother and the rigidities of Miss Beeton Clavier.
 
In that suppressed and evasive life beneath the outer forms and procedures of school and home, there came glimmerings of something that seemed charged with the promise of holding everything together, the key, religion. She was attracted to religion, much more attracted than she would confess even to herself, but every circumstance in her training dissuaded²² her from a free approach. Her mother treated religion with a reverence²³ that was almost indistinguishable from huffiness. She never named the deity²⁴ and she did not like the mention of His name: she threw a spell of indelicacy over religious topics that Ellen never thoroughly²⁵ cast off. She put God among objectionable topics—albeit a sublime²⁶ one. Miss Beeton Clavier sustained this remarkable²⁷ suggestion. When she read prayers in school she did so with the balanced impartiality²⁸ of one who offers no comment. She seemed pained as she read and finished with a sigh. Whatever she intended to convey, she conveyed that even if the divinity was not all He should be, if, indeed, He was a person almost primitive²⁹, having neither the restraint nor the self-obliteration of a refined gentlewoman, no word of it should ever pass her lips. And so Ellen as a girl never let her mind go quite easily into this reconciling core of life, and talked of it only very rarely and shyly with a few chosen coevals. It wasn't very profitable talk. They had a guilty feeling, they laughed a little uneasily, they displayed a fatal proclivity³⁰ to stab the swelling³¹ gravity of their souls with ............