It was a summer’s evening; Joan had dropped in at the Greysons and had found Mary alone, Francis not having yet returned from a bachelor dinner at his uncle’s, who was some big pot in the Navy.  They sat in the twilight², facing the open French windows, through which one caught a glimpse of the park.  A great stillness seemed to be around them.  
The sale and purchase of the Evening Gazette had been completed a few days before.  Greyson had been offered the alternative of gradually and gracefully⁴ changing his opinions, or getting out; and had, of course, chosen dismissal.  He was taking a holiday, as Mary explained with a short laugh.
 
“He had some shares in it himself, hadn’t he?” Joan asked.
 
“Oh, just enough to be of no use,” Mary answered.  “Carleton was rather decent, so far as that part of it was concerned, and insisted on paying him a fair price.  The market value would have been much less; and he wanted to be out of it.”
 
Joan remained silent.  It made her mad, that a man could be suddenly robbed of fifteen years’ labour: the weapon that his heart and brain had made keen wrested⁵ from his hand by a legal process, and turned against the very principles for which all his life he had been fighting.
 
“I’m almost more sorry for myself than for him,” said Mary, making a whimsical grimace⁶.  “He will start something else, so soon as he’s got over his first soreness; but I’m too old to dream of another child.”
 
He came in a little later and, seating himself between them, filled and lighted his pipe.  Looking back, Joan remembered that curiously⁸ none of them had spoken.  Mary had turned at the sound of his key in the door.  She seemed to be watching him intently; but it was too dark to notice her expression.  He pulled at his pipe till it was well alight and then removed it.
 
“It’s war,” he said.
 
The words made no immediate¹¹ impression upon Joan.  There had been rumours¹², threatenings and alarms, newspaper talk.  But so there had been before.  It would come one day: the world war that one felt was gathering¹³ in the air; that would burst like a second deluge¹⁴ on the nations.  But it would not be in our time: it was too big.  A way out would be found.
 
“Is there no hope?” asked Mary.
 
“Yes,” he answered.  “The hope that a miracle may happen.  The Navy’s got its orders.”
 
And suddenly—as years before in a Paris music hall—there leapt to life within Joan’s brain a little impish creature that took possession of her.  She hoped the miracle would not happen.  The little impish creature within her brain was marching up and down beating a drum.  She wished he would stop a minute.  Someone was trying to talk to her, telling her she ought to be tremendously shocked and grieved.  He—or she, or whatever it was that was trying to talk to her, appeared concerned about Reason and Pity and Universal Brotherhood¹⁵ and Civilization’s clock—things like that.  But the little impish drummer was making such a din¹, she couldn’t properly hear.  Later on, perhaps, he would get tired; and then she would be able to listen to this humane¹⁶ and sensible person, whoever it might be.
 
Mary argued that England could and should keep out of it; but Greyson was convinced it would be impossible, not to say dishonourable: a sentiment that won the enthusiastic approval of the little drummer in Joan’s brain.  He played “Rule Britannia” and “God Save the King,” the “Marseillaise” and the Russian National hymn¹⁷, all at the same time.  He would have included “Deutschland über Alles,” if Joan hadn’t made a supreme¹⁸ effort and stopped him.  Evidently a sporting little devil.  He took himself off into a corner after a time, where he played quietly to himself; and Joan was able to join in the conversation.
 
Greyson spoke⁹ with an enthusiasm that was unusual to him.  So many of our wars had been mean wars—wars for the wrong; sordid¹⁹ wars for territory, for gold mines; wars against the weak at the bidding of our traders, our financiers.  “Shouldering the white man’s burden,” we called it.  Wars for the right of selling opium²⁰; wars to perpetuate²¹ the vile²² rule of the Turk because it happened to serve our commercial interests.  This time, we were out to play the knight²³; to save the smaller peoples; to rescue our once “sweet enemy,” fair France.  Russia was the disturbing thought.  It somewhat discounted the knight-errant idea, riding stirrup to stirrup beside that barbarian²⁴ horseman.  But there were possibilities about Russia.  Idealism lay hid within that sleeping brain.  It would be a holy war for the Kingdom of the Peoples.  With Germany freed from the monster of blood and iron that was crushing out her soul, with Russia awakened²⁵ to life, we would build the United States of Europe.  Even his voice was changed.  Joan could almost fancy it was some excited schoolboy that was talking.
 
Mary had been clasping and unclasping her hands, a habit of hers when troubled.  Could good ever come out of evil?  That was her doubt.  Did war ever do anything but sow the seeds of future violence; substitute one injustice²⁶ for another; change wrong for wrong.  Did it ever do anything but add to the world’s sum of evil, making God’s task the heavier?
 
Suddenly, while speaking, she fell into a passionate²⁷ fit of weeping.  She went on through her tears:
 
“It will be terrible,” she said.  “It will last longer than you say.  Every nation will be drawn²⁸ into it.  There will be no voice left to speak for reason.  Every day we shall grow more brutalized, more pitiless.  It will degrade us, crush the soul out of us.  Blood and iron!  It will become our God too: the God of all the world.  You say we are going into it with clean hands, this time.  How long will they keep clean?  The people who only live for making money: how long do you think they will remain silent?  What has been all the talk of the last ten years but of capturing German trade.  We shall be told that we owe it to our dead to make a profit out of them; that otherwise they will have died in vain.  Who will care for the people but to use them for killing²⁹ one another—to hound them on like dogs.  In every country nothing but greed and hatred³⁰ will be preached.  Horrible men and women will write to the papers crying out for more blood, more cruelty.  Everything that can make for anger and revenge will be screamed from every newspaper.  Every plea for humanity will be jeered³¹ at as ‘sickly sentimentality.’  Every man and woman who remembers the ideals with which we started will be shrieked³² at as a traitor³³.  The people who are doing well out of it, they will get hold of the Press, appeal to the passions of the mob.  Nobody else will be allowed to speak.  It always has been so in war.  It always will be.  This will be no exception merely because it’s bigger.  Every country will be given over to savagery³⁵.  There will be no appeal against it.  The whole world will sink back into the beast.”
 
She ended by rising abruptly³⁷ and wishing them good-night.  Her outburst had silenced Joan’s impish drummer, for the time.  He appeared to be nervous and depressed³⁸, but bucked³⁹ up again on the way to the bus.  Greyson walked with her as usual.  They took the long way round by the outer circle.
 
“Poor Mary!” he said.  “I should not have talked before her if I had thought.  Her horror of war is almost physical.  She will not even read about them.  It has the same effect upon her as stories of cruelty.”
 
“But there’s truth in a good deal that she says,” he added.  “War can bring out all that is best in a people; but also it brings out the worst.  We shall have to take care that the ideals are not lost sight of.”
 
“I wish this wretched business of the paper hadn’t come just at this time,” said Joan: “just when your voice is most needed.
 
“Couldn’t you get enough money together to start something quickly,” she continued, the idea suddenly coming to her.  “I think I could help you.  It wouldn’t matter its being something small to begin with.  So long as it was entirely⁴⁰ your own, and couldn’t be taken away from you.  You’d soon work it up.”
 
“Thanks,” he answered.  “I may ask you to later on.  But just now—”  He paused.
 
Of course.  For war you wanted men, to fight.  She had been thinking of them in the lump: hurrying masses such as one sees on cinema screens, blurred⁴¹ but picturesque⁴².  Of course, when you came to think of it, they would have to be made up of individuals—gallant-hearted, boyish sort of men who would pass through doors, one at a time, into little rooms; give their name and address to a soldier man seated at a big deal table.  Later on, one would say good-bye to them on crowded platforms, wave a handkerchief.  Not all of them would come back.  “You can’t make omelettes without breaking eggs,” she told herself.
 
It annoyed her, that silly saying having come into her mind.  She could see them lying there, with their white faces to the night.  Surely she might have thought of some remark less idiotic⁴³ to make to herself, at such a time.
 
He was explaining to her things about the air service.  It seemed he had had experience in flying—some relation of his with whom he had spent a holiday last summer.
 
It would mean his getting out quickly.  He seemed quite eager to be gone.
 
“Isn’t it rather dangerous work?” she asked.  She felt it was a footling question even as she asked it.  Her brain had become stodgy⁴⁵.
 
“Nothing like as dangerous as being in the Infantry,” he answered.  “And that would be my only other alternative.  Besides I get out of the drilling.”  He laughed.  “I should hate being shouted at and ordered about by a husky old sergeant⁴⁶.”
 
They neither spoke again till they came to the bridge, from the other side of which the busses started.
 
“I may not see you again before I go,” he said.  “Look after Mary.  I shall try to persuade her to go down to her aunt in Hampshire.  It’s rather a bit of luck, as it turns out, the paper being finished with.  I shouldn’t have quite known what to do.”
 
He had stopped at the corner.  They were still beneath the shadow of the trees.  Quite unconsciously she put her face up; and as if it had always been the custom at their partings, he drew her to him and kissed her; though it really was for the first time.
 
She walked home instead of taking the bus.  She wanted to think.  A day or two would decide the question.  She determined⁴⁷ that if the miracle did not happen, she would go down to Liverpool.  Her father was on the committee of one of the great hospitals; and she knew one or two of the matrons.  She would want to be doing something—to get out to the front, if possible.  Maybe, her desire to serve was not altogether free from curiosity—from the craving⁴⁸ for adventure.  There’s a spice of the man even in the best of women.
 
Her conscience plagued her when she thought of Mrs. Denton.  For some time now, they had been very close together; and the old lady had come to depend upon her.  She waited till all doubt was ended before calling to say good-bye.  Mrs. Denton was seated before an old bureau that had long stood locked in a corner of the library.  The drawers were open and books and papers were scattered⁴⁹ about.
 
Joan told her plans.  “You’ll be able to get along without me for a little while?” she asked doubtfully.
 
Mrs. Denton laughed.  “I haven’t much more to do,” she answered.  “Just tidying up, as you see; and two or three half-finished things I shall try to complete.  After that, I’ll perhaps take a rest.”
 
She took from among the litter a faded photograph and handed it to Joan.  “Odd,” she said.  “I’ve just turned it out.”
 
It represented a long, thin line of eminently⁵⁰ respectable ladies and gentlemen in early Victorian costume.  The men in peg-top trousers and silk stocks, the women in crinolines and poke¹⁰ bonnets⁵¹.  Among them, holding the hand of a benevolent-looking, stoutish⁵² gentleman, was a mere³⁴ girl.  The terminating frills of a white unmentionable garment showed beneath her skirts.  She wore a porkpie hat with a feather in it.
 
“My first public appearance,” explained Mrs. Denton.  “I teased my father into taking me with him.  We represented Great Britain and Ireland.  I suppose I’m the only one left.”
 
“I shouldn’t have recognized you,” laughed Joan.  “What was the occasion?”
 
“The great International Peace Congress at Paris,” explained Mrs. Denton; “just after the Crimean war.  It made quite a stir at the time.  The Emperor opened our proceedings⁵³ in person, and the Pope and the Archbishop of Canterbury both sent us their blessing⁵⁴.  We had a copy of the speeches presented to us on leaving, in every known language in Europe, bound in vellum.  I’m hoping to find it.  And the Press was enthusiastic.  There were to be Acts of Parliament, Courts of Arbitration⁵⁵, International Laws, Diplomatic Treaties.  A Sub-Committee was appointed to prepare a special set of prayers and a Palace of Peace was to be erected⁵⁶.  There was only one thing we forgot, and that was the foundation.”
 
“I may not be here,” she continued, “when the new plans are submitted.  Tell them not to forget the foundation this time.  Tell them to teach the children.”
 
Joan dined at a popular restaurant that evening.  She fancied it might cheer her up.  But the noisy patriotism⁵⁷ of the over-fed crowd only irritated her.  These elderly, flabby men, these fleshy women, who would form the spectators, who would loll on their cushioned seats protected from the sun, munching⁵⁸ contentedly⁵⁹ from their well-provided baskets while listening to the dying groans⁶⁰ rising upwards⁶¹ from the drenched⁶³ arena⁶⁴.  She glanced from one podgy thumb to another and a feeling of nausea⁶⁵ crept over her.
 
Suddenly the band struck up “God Save the King.”  Three commonplace enough young men, seated at a table near to her, laid down their napkins and stood up.  Yes, there was something to be said for war, she felt, as she looked at their boyish faces, transfigured.  Not for them Business as usual, the Capture of German Trade.  Other visions those young eyes were seeing.  The little imp³ within her brain had seized his drum again.  “Follow me”—so he seemed to beat—“I teach men courage, duty, the laying down of self.  I open the gates of honour.  I make heroes out of dust.  Isn’t it worth my price?”
 
A figure was loitering the other side of the street when she reached home.  She thought she somehow recognized it, and crossed over.  It was McKean, smoking his everlasting⁶⁶ pipe.  Success having demanded some such change, he had migrated to “The Albany,” and she had not seen him for some time.  He had come to have a last look at the house—in case it might happen to be the last.  He was off to Scotland the next morning, where he intended to “join up.”
 
“But are you sure it’s your particular duty?” suggested Joan.  “I’m told you’ve become a household word both in Germany and France.  If we really are out to end war and establish the brotherhood of nations, the work you are doing is of more importance than even the killing of Germans.  It isn’t as if there wouldn’t be enough without you.”
 
“To tell the truth,” he answered, “that’s exactly what I’ve been saying to myself.  I shan’t be any good.  I don’t see myself sticking a bayonet into even a German.  Unless he happened to be abnormally clumsy.  I tried to shoot a rabbit once.  I might have done it if the little beggar, instead of running away, hadn’t turned and looked at me.”
 
“I should keep out of it if I were you,” laughed Joan.
 
“I can’t,” he answered.  “I’m too great a coward.”
 
“An odd reason for enlisting⁶⁸,” thought Joan.
 
“I couldn’t face it,” he went on; “the way people would be looking at me in trains and omnibuses; the things people would say of me, the things I should imagine they were saying; what my valet would be thinking of me.  Oh, I’m ashamed enough of myself.  It’s the artistic⁶⁹ temperament⁷⁰, I suppose.  We must always be admired, praised.  We’re not the stuff that martyrs⁷¹ are made of.  We must for ever be kow-towing to the cackling geese around us.  We’re so terrified lest they should hiss⁷² us.”
 
The street was empty.  They were pacing it slowly, up and down.
 
“I’ve always been a coward,” he continued.  “I fell in love with you the first day I met you on the stairs.  But I dared not tell you.”
 
“You didn’t give me that impression,” answered Joan.
 
She had always found it difficult to know when to take him seriously and when not.
 
“I was so afraid you would find it out,” he explained.
 
“You thought I would take advantage of it,” she suggested.
 
“One can never be sure of a woman,” he answered.  “And it would have been so difficult.  There was a girl down in Scotland, one of the village girls.  It wasn’t anything really.  We had just been children together.  But they all thought I had gone away to make my fortune so as to come back and marry her—even my mother.  It would have looked so mean if after getting on I had married a fine London lady.  I could never have gone home again.”
 
“But you haven’t married her—or have you?” asked Joan.
 
“No,” he answered.  “She wrote me a beautiful letter that I shall always keep, begging me to forgive her, and hoping I might be happy.  She had married a young farmer, and was going out to Canada.  My mother will never allow her name to be mentioned in our house.”
 
They had reached the end of the street again.  Joan held out her hand with a laugh.
 
“Thanks for the compliment,” she said.  “Though I notice you wait till you’re going away before telling me.”
 
“But quite seriously,” she added, “give it a little more thought—the enlisting, I mean.  The world isn’t too rich in kind influences.  It needs men like you.  Come, pull yourself together and show a little pluck.”  She laughed.
 
“I’ll try,” he promised, “but it won’t be any use; I shall drift about the streets, seeking to put heart into myself, but all the while my footsteps will be bearing me nearer and nearer to the recruiting office; and outside the door some girl in the crowd will smile approval or some old fool will pat me on the shoulder and I shall sneak⁷³ in and it will close behind me.  It must be fine to have courage.”
 
He wrote her two days later from Ayr, giving her the name of his regiment⁷⁴, and again some six months later from Flanders.  But there would have been no sense in her replying to that last.
 
She lingered in the street by herself, a little time, after he had turned the corner.  It had been a house of sorrow and disappointment to her; but so also she had dreamed her dreams there, seen her visions.  She had never made much headway with her landlord and her landlady⁷⁵: a worthy⁷⁶ couple, who had proved most excellent servants, but who prided themselves, to use their own expression, on knowing their place and keeping themselves to themselves.  Joan had given them notice that morning, and had been surprised at the woman’s bursting into tears.
 
“I felt it just the same when young Mr. McKean left us,” she explained with apologies.  “He had been with us five years.  He was like you, miss, so unpracticable.  I’d got used to looking after him.”
 
Mary Greyson called on her in the morning, while she was still at breakfast.  She had come from seeing Francis off by an early train from Euston.  He had sent Joan a ring.
 
“He is so afraid you may not be able to wear it—that it will not fit you,” said Mary, “but I told him I was sure it would.”
 
Joan held our her hand for the letter.  “I was afraid he had forgotten it,” she answered, with a smile.
 
She placed the ring on her finger and held out her hand.  “I might have been measured for it,” she said.  “I wonder how he knew.”
 
“You left a glove behind you, the first day you ever came to our house,” Mary explained.  “And I kept it.”
 
She was following his wishes and going down into the country.  They did not meet again until after the war.
 
Madge dropped in on her during the week and brought Flossie with her.  Flossie’s husband, Sam, had departed for the Navy; and Niel Singleton, who had offered and been rejected for the Army, had joined a Red Cross unit.  Madge herself was taking up canteen work.  Joan rather expected Flossie to be in favour of the war, and Madge against it.  Instead of which, it turned out the other way round.  It seemed difficult to forecast opinion in this matter.
 
Madge thought that England, in particular, had been too much given up to luxury and pleasure.  There had been too much idleness and empty laughter: Hitchicoo dances and women undressing themselves upon the stage.  Even the working classes seemed to think of nothing else but cinemas and beer.  She dreamed of a United Kingdom purified by suffering, cleansed⁷⁸ by tears; its people drawn together by memory of common sacrifice; class antagonism⁷⁹............