But no brush was able to efface completely the expression of happiness,so that Mrs. Ambrose could not treat them when they came downstairs as ifthey had spent the morning in a way that could be discussed naturally.
This being so, she joined in the world's conspiracy to considerthem for the time incapacitated from the business of life,struck by their intensity of feeling into enmity against life,and almost succeeded in dismissing them from her thoughts.
She reflected that she had done all that it was necessary to do inpractical matters. She had written a great many letters, and had obtainedWilloughby's consent. She had dwelt so often upon Mr. Hewet's prospects,his profession, his birth, appearance, and temperament, that she hadalmost forgotten what he was really like. When she refreshed herselfby a look at him, she used to wonder again what he was like, and then,concluding that they were happy at any rate, thought no more about it.
She might more profitably consider what would happen in three years'
time, or what might have happened if Rachel had been leftto explore the world under her father's guidance. The result,she was honest enough to own, might have been better--who knows?
She did not disguise from herself that Terence had faults. She wasinclined to think him too easy and tolerant, just as he was inclinedto think her perhaps a trifle hard--no, it was rather that shewas uncompromising. In some ways she found St. John preferable;but then, of course, he would never have suited Rachel.
Her friendship with St. John was established, for although shefluctuated between irritation and interest in a way that did creditto the candour of her disposition, she liked his company on the whole.
He took her outside this little world of love and emotion.
He had a grasp of facts. Supposing, for instance, that England madea sudden move towards some unknown port on the coast of Morocco,St. John knew what was at the back of it, and to hear him engagedwith her husband in argument about finance and the balance of power,gave her an odd sense of stability. She respected their argumentswithout always listening to them, much as she respected a solidbrick wall, or one of those immense municipal buildings which,although they compose the greater part of our cities, have been builtday after day and year after year by unknown hands. She liked to sitand listen, and even felt a little elated when the engaged couple,after showing their profound lack of interest, slipped from the room,and were seen pulling flowers to pieces in the garden. It was notthat she was jealous of them, but she did undoubtedly envy themtheir great unknown future that lay before them. Slipping fromone such thought to another, she was at the dining-room with fruitin her hands. Sometimes she stopped to straighten a candle stoopingwith the heat, or disturbed some too rigid arrangement of the chairs.
She had reason to suspect that Chailey had been balancing herselfon the top of a ladder with a wet duster during their absence,and the room had never been quite like itself since. Returning fromthe dining-room for the third time, she perceived that one ofthe arm-chairs was now occupied by St. John. He lay back in it,with his eyes half shut, looking, as he always did, curiously buttonedup in a neat grey suit and fenced against the exuberance of a foreignclimate which might at any moment proceed to take liberties with him.
Her eyes rested on him gently and then passed on over his head.
Finally she took the chair opposite.
"I didn't want to come here," he said at last, "but I was positivelydriven to it. . . . Evelyn M.," he groaned.
He sat up, and began to explain with mock solemnity how the detestablewoman was set upon marrying him.
"She pursues me about the place. This morning she appearedin the smoking-room. All I could do was to seize my hat and fly.
I didn't want to come, but I couldn't stay and face another mealwith her.""Well, we must make the best of it," Helen replied philosophically.
It was very hot, and they were indifferent to any amount of silence,so that they lay back in their chairs waiting for something to happen.
The bell rang for luncheon, but there was no sound of movement inthe house. Was there any news? Helen asked; anything in the papers?
St. John shook his head. O yes, he had a letter from home, a letterfrom his mother, describing the suicide of the parlour-maid. Shewas called Susan Jane, and she came into the kitchen one afternoon,and said that she wanted cook to keep her money for her; she hadtwenty pounds in gold. Then she went out to buy herself a hat.
She came in at half-past five and said that she had taken poison.
They had only just time to get her into bed and call a doctor beforeshe died.
"Well?" Helen enquired.
"There'll have to be an inquest," said St. John.
Why had she done it? He shrugged his shoulders. Why do peoplekill themselves? Why do the lower orders do any of the thingsthey do do? Nobody knows. They sat in silence.
"The bell's run fifteen minutes and they're not down," said Helenat length.
When they appeared, St. John explained why it had been necessaryfor him to come to luncheon. He imitated Evelyn's enthusiastictone as she confronted him in the smoking-room. "She thinks therecan be nothing _quite_ so thrilling as mathematics, so I've lenther a large work in two volumes. It'll be interesting to seewhat she makes of it."Rachel could now afford to laugh at him. She reminded him of Gibbon;she had the first volume somewhere still; if he were undertakingthe education of Evelyn, that surely was the test; or she had heardthat Burke, upon the American Rebellion--Evelyn ought to read themboth simultaneously. When St. John had disposed of her argumentand had satisfied his hunger, he proceeded to tell them that thehotel was seething with scandals, some of the most appalling kind,which had happened in their absence; he was indeed much givento the study of his kind.
"Evelyn M., for example--but that was told me in confidence.""Nonsense!" Terence interposed.
"You've heard about poor Sinclair, too?""Oh, yes, I've heard about Sinclair. He's retired to his minewith a revolver. He writes to Evelyn daily that he's thinking ofcommitting suicide. I've assured her that he's never been so happyin his life, and, on the whole, she's inclined to agree with me.""But then she's entangled herself with Perrott," St. John continued;"and I have reason to think, from something I saw in the passage,that everything isn't as it should be between Arthur and Susan.
There's a young female lately arrived from Manchester. A very goodthing if it were broken off, in my opinion. Their married life issomething too horrible to contemplate.
Oh, and I distinctly heard old Mrs. Paley rapping out the mostfearful oaths as I passed her bedroom door. It's supposed that shetortures her maid in private--it's practically certain she does.
One can tell it from the look in her eyes.""When you're eighty and the gout tweezes you, you'll be swearinglike a trooper," Terence remarked. "You'll be very fat, very testy,very disagreeable. Can't you imagine him--bald as a coot, with a pairof sponge-bag trousers, a little spotted tie, and a corporation?"After a pause Hirst remarked that the worst infamy had stillto be told. He addressed himself to Helen.
"They've hoofed out the prostitute. One night while we were away thatold numskull Thornbury was doddering about the passages very late.
(Nobody seems to have asked him what _he_ was up to.) He sawthe Signora Lola Mendoza, as she calls herself, cross the passagein her nightgown. He communicated his suspicions next morningto Elliot, with the result that Rodriguez went to the woman andgave her twenty-four hours in which to clear out of the place.
No one seems to have enquired into the truth of the story, or tohave asked Thornbury and Elliot what business it was of theirs;they had it entirely their own way. I propose that we should allsign a Round Robin, go to Rodriguez in a body, and insist upona full enquiry. Something's got to be done, don't you agree?"Hewet remarked that there could be no doubt as to the lady's profession.
"Still," he added, "it's a great shame, poor woman; only I don'tsee what's to be done--""I quite agree with you, St. John," Helen burst out. "It's monstrous.
The hypocritical smugness of the English makes my blood boil.
A man who's made a fortune in trade as Mr. Thornbury has is boundto be twice as bad as any prostitute."She respected St. John's morality, which she took far more seriouslythan any one else did, and now entered into a discussion with himas to the steps that were to be taken to enforce their peculiarview of what was right. The argument led to some profoundlygloomy statements of a general nature. Who were they, after all--what authority had they--what power against the mass of superstitionand ignorance? It was the English, of course; there must be somethingwrong in the English blood. Directly you met an English person,of the middle classes, you were conscious of an indefinable sensationof loathing; directly you saw the brown crescent of houses above Dover,the same thing came over you. But unfortunately St. John added,you couldn't trust these foreigners--They were interrupted by sou............