I began life unluckily by being the wag and bright fellow at school; and I had the farther misfortune of becoming the great genius of my native village. My father was a country attorney, and intended that I should succeed him in business; but I had too much genius to study, and he was too fond of my genius to force it into the traces. So I fell into bad company and took to bad habits. Do not mistake me. I mean that I fell into the company of village literati and village blues¹, and took to writing village poetry.  
It was quite the fashion in the village to be literary. We had a little knot of choice spirits who assembled frequently together, formed ourselves into a Literary, Scientific, and Philosophical² Society, and fancied ourselves the most learned philos in existence. Every one had a great character assigned him, suggested by some casual habit or affectation. One heavy fellow drank an enormous quantity of tea; rolled in his armchair, talked sententiously, pronounced dogmatically, and was considered a second Dr. Johnson; another, who happened to be a curate, uttered coarse jokes, wrote doggerel³ rhymes, and was the Swift of our association. Thus we had also our Popes and Goldsmiths and Addisons, and a blue-stocking lady, whose drawing-room we frequented, who corresponded about nothing with all the world, and wrote letters with the stiffness and formality of a printed book, was cried up as another Mrs. Montagu. I was, by common consent, the juvenile⁴ prodigy⁵, the poetical⁶ youth, the great genius, the pride and hope of the village, through whom it was to become one day as celebrated⁸ as Stratford-on-Avon.
 
My father died and left me his blessing⁹ and his business. His blessing brought no money into my pocket; and as to his business it soon deserted¹⁰ me: for I was busy writing poetry, and could not attend to law; and my clients, though they had great respect for my talents, had no faith in a poetical attorney.
 
I lost my business therefore, spent my money, and finished my poem. It was the Pleasures of Melancholy¹¹, and was cried up to the skies by the whole circle. The Pleasures of Imagination, the Pleasures of Hope, and the Pleasures of Memory, though each had placed its author in the first rank of poets, were blank prose in comparison. Our Mrs. Montagu would cry over it from beginning to end. It was pronounced by all the members of the Literary, Scientific, and Philosophical Society the greatest poem of the age, and all anticipated the noise it would make in the great world. There was not a doubt but the London booksellers would be mad after it, and the only fear of my friends was, that I would make a sacrifice by selling it too cheap.
 
Every time they talked the matter over they increased the price. They reckoned up the great sums given for the poems of certain popular writers, and determined¹³ that mine was worth more than all put together, and ought to be paid for accordingly. For my part, I was modest in my expectations, and determined that I would be satisfied with a thousand guineas. So I put my poem in my pocket and set off for London.
 
My journey was joyous¹⁴. My heart was light as my purse, and my head full of anticipations¹⁵ of fame and fortune. With what swelling¹⁶ pride did I cast my eyes upon old London from the heights of Highgate. I was like a general looking down upon a place he expects to conquer. The great metropolis¹⁷ lay stretched before me, buried under a home-made cloud of murky¹⁸ smoke, that wrapped it from the brightness of a sunny day, and formed for it a kind of artificial bad weather. At the outskirts¹⁹ of the city, away to the west, the smoke gradually decreased until all was clear and sunny, and the view stretched uninterrupted to the blue line of the Kentish Hills.
 
My eye turned fondly to where the mighty²⁰ cupola of St. Paul’s swelled²¹ Dimly through this misty²² chaos²³, and I pictured to myself the solemn realm of learning that lies about its base. How soon should the Pleasures of Melancholy throw this world of booksellers and printers into a bustle²⁴ of business and delight! How soon should I hear my name repeated by printers’ devils throughout Pater Noster Row, and Angel Court, and Ave Maria Lane, until Amen corner should echo back the sound!
 
Arrived in town, I repaired at once to the most fashionable publisher. Every new author patronizes him of course. In fact, it had been determined in the village circle that he should be the fortunate man. I cannot tell you how vaingloriously I walked the streets; my head was in the clouds. I felt the airs of heaven playing about it, and fancied it already encircled by a halo of literary glory.
 
As I passed by the windows of bookshops, I anticipated the time when my work would be shining among the hotpressed wonders of the day; and my face, scratched on copper²⁵, or cut in wood, figuring in fellowship with those of Scott and Byron and Moore.
 
When I applied²⁶ at the publisher’s house there was something in the loftiness of my air, and the dinginess²⁷ of my dress, that struck the clerks with reverence²⁸. They doubtless took me for some person of consequence, probably a digger of Greek roots, or a penetrator of pyramids. A proud man in a dirty shirt is always an imposing²⁹ character in the world of letters; one must feel intellectually secure before he can venture to dress shabbily; none but a great scholar or a great genius dares to be dirty; so I was ushered³⁰ at once to the sanctum sanctorum of this high priest of Minerva.
 
The publishing of books is a very different affair now-a-days from what it was in the time of Bernard Lintot. I found the publisher a fashionably-dressed man, in an elegant drawing-room, furnished with sofas and portraits of celebrated authors, and cases of splendidly bound books. He was writing letters at an elegant table. This was transacting³¹ business in style. The place seemed suited to the magnificent publications that issued from it. I rejoiced at the choice I had made of a publisher, for I always liked to encourage men of taste and spirit.
 
I stepped up to the table with the lofty poetical port that I had Been accustomed to maintain in our village circle; though I threw in it something of a patronizing air, such as one feels when about to make a man’s fortune. The publisher paused with his pen in his hand, and seemed waiting in mute suspense³² to know what was to be announced by so singular an apparition³³.
 
I put him at his ease in a moment, for I felt that I had but to come, see, and conquer. I made known my name, and the name of my poem; produced my precious roll of blotted³⁴ manuscript, laid it on the table with an emphasis, and told him at once, to save time and come directly to the point, the price was one thousand guineas.
 
I had given him no time to speak, nor did he seem so inclined. He Continued looking at me for a moment with an air of whimsical perplexity; scanned me from head to foot; looked down at the manuscript, then up again at me, then pointed³⁵ to a chair; and whistling softly to himself, went on writing his letter.
 
I sat for some time waiting his reply, supposing he was making up his mind; but he only paused occasionally to take a fresh dip of ink; to stroke his chin or the tip of his nose, and then resumed his writing. It was evident his mind was intently occupied upon some other subject; but I had no idea that any other subject should be attended to and my poem lie unnoticed on the table. I had supposed that every thing would make way for the Pleasures of Melancholy.
 
My gorge³⁷ at length rose within me. I took up my manuscript; thrust it into my pocket, and walked out of the room: making some noise as I went, to let my departure be heard. The publisher, however, was too much busied in minor³⁸ concerns to notice it. I was suffered to walk down-stairs without being called back. I sallied forth³⁹ into the street, but no clerk was sent after me, nor did the publisher call after me from the drawing-room window. I have been told since, that he considered me either a madman or a fool. I leave you to judge how much he was in the wrong in his opinion.
 
When I turned the corner my crest⁴⁰ fell. I cooled down in my pride and my expectations, and reduced my terms with the next bookseller to whom I applied. I had no better success: nor with a third: nor with a fourth. I then desired the booksellers to make an offer themselves; but the deuce an offer would they make. They told me poetry was a mere⁴¹ drug; everybody wrote poetry; the market was overstocked with it. And then, they said, the title of my poem was not taking: that pleasures of all kinds were worn threadbare; nothing but horrors did now-a-days, and even these were almost worn out. Tales of pirates, robbers, and bloody⁴² Turks might answer tolerably well; but then they must come from some established well-known name, or the public would not look at them.
 
At last I offered to leave my poem with a bookseller to read it and judge for himself. “Why, really, my dear Mr.—a—a—I forget your name,” said he, cutting an eye at my rusty⁴³ coat and shabby gaiters, “really, sir, we are so pressed with business just now, and have so many manuscripts on hand to read, that we have not time to look at any new production, but if you can call again in a week or two, or say the middle of next month, we may be able to look over your writings and give you an answer. Don’t forget, the month after next—good morning, sir—happy to see you any time you are passing this way”—so saying he bowed me out in the civilest way imaginable. In short, sir, instead of an eager competition to secure my poem I could not even get it read! In the mean time I was harassed⁴⁴ by letters from my friends, wanting to know when the work was to appear; who was to be my publisher; but above all things warning me not to let it go too cheap.
 
There was but one alternative left. I determined to publish the poem myself; and to have my triumph over the booksellers, when it should become the fashion of the day. I accordingly published the Pleasures of Melancholy and ruined myself. Excepting the copies sent to the reviews, and to my friends in the country, not one, I believe, ever left the bookseller’s warehouse⁴⁵. The printer’s bill drained my purse, and the only notice that was taken of my work was contained in the advertisements paid for by myself.
 
I could have borne all this, and have attributed it as usual to the mismanagement of the publisher, or the want of taste in the public: and could have made the usual appeal to posterity⁴⁶, but my village friends would not let me rest in quiet. They were picturing me to themselves feasting with the great, communing with the literary, and in the high course of fortune and renown⁴⁷. Every little while, some one came to me with a letter of introduction from the village circle, recommending him to my attentions, and requesting that I would make him known in society; with a hint that an introduction to the house of a celebrated literary nobleman would be extremely agreeable.
 
I determined, therefore, to change my lodgings⁴⁸, drop my correspondence, and disappear altogether from the view of my village admirers. Besides, I was anxious to make one more poetic⁷ attempt. I was by no means disheartened by the failure of my first. My poem was evidently too didactic. The public was wise enough. It no longer read for instruction. “They want horrors, do they?” said I, “I’faith, then they shall have enough of them.” So I looked out for some quiet retired⁴⁹ place, where I might be out of reach of my friends, and have leisure to cook up some delectable⁵⁰ dish of poetical “hell-broth.”
 
I had some difficulty in finding a place to my mind, when chance threw me in the way Of Canonbury Castle. It is an ancient brick tower, hard by “merry Islington;” the remains⁵¹ of a hunting-seat of Queen Elizabeth, where she took the pleasures of the country, when the neighborhood was all woodland. What gave it particular interest in my eyes, was the circumstance that it had been the residence of a poet. It was here Goldsmith resided when he wrote his Deserted Village. I was shown the very apartment. It was a relique of the original style of the castle, with pannelled wainscots and gothic windows. I was pleased with its air of antiquity⁵³, and with its having been the residence of poor Goldy.
 
“Goldsmith was a pretty poet,” said I to myself, “a very pretty poet; though rather of the old school. He did not think and feel so strongly as is the fashion now-a-days; but had he lived in these times of hot hearts and hot heads, he would have written quite differently.”
 
In a few days I was quietly established in my new quarters; my books all arranged, my writing desk placed by a window looking out into the field; and I felt as snug⁵⁴ as Robinson Crusoe, when he had finished his bower⁵⁶. For several days I enjoyed all the novelty of change and the charms which grace a new lodgings before one has found out their defects. I rambled⁵⁷ about the fields where I fancied Goldsmith had rambled. I explored merry Islington; ate my solitary⁵⁸ dinner at the Black Bull, which according to tradition was a country seat of Sir Walter Raleigh, and would sit and sip⁵⁹ my wine and muse⁶⁰ on old times in a quaint⁶¹ old room, where many a council had been held.
 
All this did very well for a few days: I was stimulated⁶² by novelty; inspired by the associations awakened⁶³ in my mind by these curious haunts, and began to think I felt the spirit of composition stirring within me; but Sunday came, and with it the whole city world, swarming⁶⁴ about Canonbury Castle. I could not open my window but I was stunned⁶⁵ with shouts and noises from the cricket ground. The late quiet road beneath my window was alive with the tread of feet and clack of tongues; and to complete my misery⁶⁶, I found that my quiet retreat was absolutely a “show house!” the tower and its contents being shown to strangers at sixpence a head.
 
There was a perpetual tramping up-stairs of citizens and their families, to look about the country from the top of the tower, and to take a peep at the city through the telescope, to try if they could discern their own chimneys. And then, in the midst of a vein⁶⁷ of thought, or a moment of inspiration, I was interrupted, and all my ideas put to flight, by my intolerable landlady⁶⁸’s tapping at the door, and asking me, if I would “jist please to let a lady and gentleman come in to take a look at Mr. Goldsmith’s room.”
 
If you know anything what an author’s study is, and what an author is himself, you must know that there was no standing⁶⁹ this. I put a positive interdict⁷⁰ on my room’s being exhibited; but then it was shown when I was absent, and my papers put in confusion; and on returning home one day, I absolutely found a cursed tradesman and his daughters gaping⁷¹ over my manuscripts; and my landlady in a panic at my appearance. I tried to make out a little longer by taking the key in my pocket, but it would not do. I overheard mine hostess one day telling some of her customers on the stairs that the room was occupied by an author, who was always in a tantrum if interrupted; and I immediately perceived, by a slight noise at the door, that they were peeping at me through the key-hole. By the head of Apollo, but this was quite too much! with all my eagerness for fame, and my ambition of the stare of the million, I had no idea of being exhibited by retail⁷², at sixpence a head, and that through a key-hole. So I bade adieu to Canonbury Castle, merry Islington, and the haunts of poor Goldsmith, without having advanced a single line in my labors⁷³.
 
My next quarters were at a small white-washed cottage, which stands not far from Hempstead, just on the brow of a hill, looking over Chalk farm, and Camden town, remarkable⁷⁵ for the rival houses of Mother Red Cap and Mother Black Cap; and so across Cruckskull common to the distant city.
 
The cottage is in no wise remarkable in itself; but I regarded it with reverence, for it had been the asylum⁷⁶ of a persecuted⁷⁷ author. Hither poor Steele had retreated and lain perdue when persecuted by creditors⁷⁸ and bailiffs; those immemorial plagues of authors and free-spirited gentlemen; and here he had written many numbers of the Spectator. It was from hence, too, that he had despatched those little notes to his lady, so full of affection and whimsicality; in which the fond husband, the careless gentleman, and the shifting spendthrift, were so oddly blended. I thought, as I first eyed the window, of his apartment, that I could sit within it and write volumes.
 
No such thing! It was haymaking season, and, as ill luck would have it, immediately opposite the cottage was a little alehouse with the sign of the load of hay. Whether it was there in Steele’s time or not I cannot say; but it set all attempt at conception or inspiration at defiance⁷⁹. It was the resort of all the Irish haymakers who mow⁸⁰ the broad fields in the neighborhood; and of drovers and teamsters who travel that road. Here would they gather in the endless summer twilight⁸¹, or by the light of the harvest moon, and sit round a table at the door; and tipple⁸², and laugh, and quarrel, and fight, and sing drowsy⁸³ songs, and dawdle⁸⁴ away the hours until the deep solemn notes of St. Paul’s clock would warn the varlets home.
 
In the day-time I was still less able to write. It was broad summer. The haymakers were at work in the fields, and the perfume of the new-mown hay brought with it the recollection of my native fields. So instead of remaining in my room to write, I went wandering about Primrose⁸⁵ Hill and Hempstead Heights and Shepherd’s Field, and all those Arcadian scenes so celebrated by London bards⁸⁶. I cannot tell you how many delicious hours I have passed lying on the cocks of new-mown hay, on the pleasant slopes of some of those hills, inhaling⁸⁷ the fragrance⁸⁸ of the fields, while the summer fly buzzed above me, or the grasshopper⁸⁹ leaped into my bosom⁹⁰, and how I have gazed with half-shut eye upon the smoky mass of London, and listened to the distant sound of its population, and pitied the poor sons of earth toiling⁹¹ in its bowels⁹², like Gnomes⁹³ in “the dark gold mine.”
 
People may say what they please about Cockney pastorals; but after all, there is a vast deal of rural beauty about the western vicinity of London; and any one that has looked down upon the valley of Westend, with its soft bosom of green pasturage, lying open to the south, and dotted with cattle; the steeple of Hempstead rising among rich groves⁹⁴ on the brow of the hill, and the learned height of Harrow in the distance; will confess that never has he seen a more absolutely rural landscape in the vicinity of a great metropolis.
 
Still, however, I found myself no............