“I experience an ineffable1 delight in remaining the average man and in professing2 emptiness. I felt a great peace descend3 within me on the day when I resigned myself to the common lot, in other words, to ignorance and death. I have found life by renouncing4 it and, now that I am no longer anything, I feel rich indeed. Do not tempt5 me in the direction of that subtle spiritual vanity which constitutes one of the most formidable obstacles to the final liberation from self. Proud I certainly was and I am still only too much so; but we cannot extract virtues6 otherwise than[192] from our vices7. More ardently8 than when I embraced the phantom9 of individual superiority, I stretch my arms towards homogeneous equality, towards the fullness of vacancy10....”
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He is right; but he is thinking, here, with the eastern lobe11 of his brain, the Asiatic lobe; and the philosophy of this lobe counsels only inaction and renunciation, the “enchantment of the disenchanted,” as Renan used to say, or rather the satisfaction of despair. Certainly all we that see, all that we feel and all that we know pledges us to this despair, which our meditations—above all, those of this same Asiatic lobe—may, for that matter, render very spacious12 and as beautiful, almost as habitable, as hope. But what do we know, as compared with what we do not know? We are ignorant of all that goes before and of all that comes after us, in a word, of the whole universe. Our despair, which appears at first the last word[193] and the last effort of wisdom, is therefore based upon what we know, which is nothing, whereas the hope of those whom we believe to be less wise can be based upon what we do not know, which is everything.
Moreover, if we would be quite just, there is more than one reason for hoping which we will not recall here; let us confess therefore that in this nothing which we know there exists naught13 but despair and that hope can lie only in that everything which we do not know. But, instead of listening only to our eastern lobe, which counsels us to accept this inactive ignorance and to bury our lives therein, is it not more reasonable at the same time to set our western lobe to work, the lobe which seeks to discover that everything? It is possible that here too, when all is said, it will find despair; but it is unlikely, for we cannot imagine a world which would be merely an act of despair. Now, if the world is not an act of despair, nothing that exists in it has reason to despair. In any case and in the meanwhile, this[194] search will doubtless permit us to hope as long as the world exists.
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One of the most dangerous temptations that assail14 him who scrutinizes15 nature and who sees, as he advances in his enquiries, that her mysteries become more and more numerous, reaching
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