A NEW START IN LIFE Lettie was , as I had said, before Leslie lost all the wistful traces of his illness. They had been gone away to France five days before we recovered anything like the normal tone in the house. Then, though the routine was the same, everywhere was a sense of loss, and of change. The long voyage in the quiet home was over; we had crossed the bright sea of our youth, and already Lettie had landed and was travelling to a strange destination in a foreign land. It was time for us all to go, to leave the valley of Nethermere whose waters and whose woods were in the essence of our . We were the children of the valley of Nethermere, a small nation with language and blood of our own, and to cast ourselves each one into separate exile was painful to us.
 
"I shall have to go now," said George. "It is my nature to linger an unconscionable time, yet I above all things this slow away from my foundations by which I free myself at last. I must myself away now——"
 
It was the slack time between the hay and the corn harvest, and we sat together in the grey, still morning of August pulling the stack. My hands were sore with the loose wisps from the lower part of the stack, so I waited for the touch of rain to send us indoors. It came at last, and we hurried into the barn. We climbed the ladder into the that was strewn with farming and with carpenters' tools. We sat together on the shavings that littered the bench before the high gable window, and looked out over the and the woods and the ponds. The tree-tops were very near to us, and we felt ourselves the centre of the waters and the woods that spread down the rainy valley.
 
"In a few years," I said, "we shall be almost strangers."
 
He looked at me with fond, dark eyes and smiled incredulously.
 
"It is as far," said I, "to the '' as it is for me to London—farther."
 
"Don't you want me to go there?" he asked, smiling quietly.
 
"It's all as one where you go, you will travel north, and I east, and Lettie south. Lettie has departed. In seven weeks I go.—And you?"
 
"I must be gone before you," he said decisively.
 
"Do you know——" and he smiled timidly in , "I feel alarmed at the idea of being left alone on a loose end. I must not be the last to leave——" he added almost appealingly.
 
"And you will go to Meg?" I asked.
 
He sat tearing the silken shavings into , and telling me in clumsy fragments all he could of his feelings:
 
"You see it's not so much what you call love. I don't know. You see I built on Lettie,"—he looked up at me shamefacedly, then continued tearing the shavings—"you must found your castles on something, and I founded mine on Lettie. You see, I'm like plenty of folks, I have nothing definite to shape my life to. I put brick upon brick, as they come, and if the whole topples down in the end, it does. But you see, you and Lettie have made me conscious, and now I'm at a dead loss. I have looked to marriage to set me busy on my house of life, something whole and complete, of which it will supply the design. I must marry or be in a lost lane. There are two people I could marry—and Lettie's gone. I love Meg just as well, as far as love goes. I'm not sure I don't feel better pleased at the idea of marrying her. You know I should always have been second to Lettie, and the best part of love is being made much of, being first and foremost in the whole world for somebody. And Meg's easy and lovely. I can have her without trembling, she's full of and comfort. I can stroke her hair and pet her, and she looks up at me, full of trust and lovingness, and there is no flaw, all restfulness in one another——"
 
Three weeks later, as I lay in the August sunshine in a deck-chair on the lawn, I heard the sound of wheels along the path. It was George calling for me to accompany him to his marriage. He pulled up the dog-cart near the door and came up the steps to me on the lawn. He was dressed as if for the cattle market, in jacket and breeches and gaiters.
 
"Well, are you ready?" he said smiling down on me. His eyes were dark with excitement, and had that vulnerable look which was so to the Saxtons in their emotional moments.
 
"You are in good time," said I, "it is but half past nine."
 
"It wouldn't do to be late on a day like this," he said , "see how the sun shines. Come, you don't look as brisk as a best man should. I thought you would have been on of excitement. Get up, get up! Look here, a bird has given me luck"—he showed me a white on his shoulder.
 
I drew myself up lazily.
 
"All right," I said, "but we must drink a whisky to establish it."
 
He followed me out of the sunshine into the dark house. The rooms were very still and empty, but the cool silence responded at once to the gaiety of our sunwarm entrance. The sweetness of the summer morning hung invisible like glad ghosts of romance through the shadowy room. We seemed to feel the sunlight dancing golden in our veins as we filled again the pale liqueur.
 
"Joy to you—I envy you to-day."
 
His teeth were white, and his eyes stirred like dark liquor as he smiled.
 
"Here is my wedding present!"
 
I stood the four large water-colours along the wall before him. They were drawings among the waters and the fields of the mill, grey rain and , morning with the sun pouring gold into the mist, and the of a midsummer noon upon the pond. All the of our yesterdays came over him like an intoxicant, and he quivered with the wonderful beauty of life that was weaving him into the large magic of the years. He realised the splendour of the of days which had him in train.
 
"It's been wonderful, Cyril, all the time," he said, with surprised joy.
 
We drove away through the freshness of the wood, and among the flowing of the sunshine along the road. The cottages of Greymede filled the shadows with colour of roses, and the sunlight with odour of pinks and the blue of corn flowers and larkspur. We drove briskly up the long, sleeping hill, and bowled down the hollow past the farms where the hens were walking with the red gold cocks in the , and the ducks like white cloudlets under the aspen trees on the pond.
 
"I told her to be ready any time," said George—"but she doesn't know it's to-day. I didn't want the public-house full of the business."
 
The walked up the sharp little rise on top of which stood the "Ram Inn." In the quiet, as the horse slowed to a standstill, we heard the crooning of a song in the garden. We sat still in the cart, and looked across the flagged yard to where the tall madonna lilies rose in clusters out of the alyssome. Beyond the border of flowers was Meg, bending over the gooseberry bushes. She saw us and came swinging down the path, with a bowl of gooseberries on her . She was dressed in a plain, fresh holland frock, with a white . Her black, heavy hair reflected the sunlight, and her ripe face was luxuriant with laughter.
 
"Well, I never!" she exclaimed, trying not to show that she guessed his errand. "Fancy you here at this time o' morning!"
 
Her eyes, black eyes like polished jet, untroubled and frank, looked at us as a might, with bright questioning. Her eyes were so different from the Saxton's: darker, but never still and full, never hesitating, a wound, never with hurt or with timid .
 
"Are you ready then?" he asked, smiling down on her.
 
"What?" she asked in confusion.
 
"To come to the with me—I've got the licence."
 
"But I'm just going to make the pudding," she cried, in full expostulation.
 
"Let them make it themselves—put your hat on."
 
"But look at me! I've just been getting the gooseberries. Look!" she showed us the berries, and the scratches on her arms and hands.
 
"What a shame!" he said, bending down to stroke her hand and her arm. She drew back smiling, flushing with joy. I could smell the white lilies where I sat.
 
"But you don't mean it, do you?" she said, lifting to him her face that was round and like a blackheart cherry. For answer, he unfolded the marriage licence. She read it, and turned aside her face in confusion, saying:
 
"Well, I've got to get ready. Shall you come an' tell Gran'ma?"
 
"Is there any need?" he answered reluctantly.
 
"Yes, you come an tell 'er," persuaded Meg.
 
He got down from the trap. I preferred to stay out of doors. Presently Meg ran out with a glass of beer for me.
 
"We shan't be many minutes," she apologised. "I've on'y to slip another frock on."
 
I heard George go heavily up the stairs and enter the room over the bar-parlour, where the grandmother lay bed-ridden.
 
"What, is it thaïgh, ma lad? What are thaïgh doin' 'ere this mornin'?" she asked.
 
"Well A'nt, how does ta feel by now?" he said.
 
"Eh, sadly, lad, sadly! It'll not be long afore they carry me downstairs head first——"
 
", dunna thee say so!—I'm just off to Nottingham—I want Meg ter come."
 
"What for?" cried the old woman sharply.
 
"I wanted 'er to get married," he replied.
 
"What! What does't say? An' what about th' licence, an' th' ring, an ivrything?"
 
"I've seen to that all right," he answered.
 
"Well, tha 'rt a nice'st un, I must say! What's want goin' in this pig-in-a-poke fashion for? This is a nice shabby trick to serve a body! What does ta mean by it?"
 
"You knowed as I wor goin' ter marry 'er directly, so I can't see as it matters o' th' day. I non wanted a' th' pub talkin'——''
 
"Tha 'rt particklar, an' all, an' all! An' why shouldn't the pub talk? Tha 'rt non marryin' a nigger, as ta should be so frightened—I niver thought it on thee!—An' what's thy 'orry, all of a sudden?"
 
"No hurry as I know of."
 
"No 'orry——!" replied the old lady, with . "Tha wor niver in a 'orry a' thy life! She's non commin' wi' thee this day, though."
 
He laughed, also . The old lady was angry. She poured on him her abuse, declaring she would not have Meg in the house again, nor leave her a penny, if she married him that day.
 
"Tha can please thysen," answered George, also angry.
 
Meg came hurriedly into the room.
 
"Ta'e that 'at off—ta'e it off! Tha non goos wi' 'im this day, not if I know it! Does 'e think tha 'rt a cow, or a pig, to be fetched wheniver 'e thinks fit. Ta'e that 'at off, I say!"
 
The old woman was fierce and .
 
"But gran'ma!——" began Meg.
 
The bed creaked as the old lady tried to rise.
 
"Ta'e that 'at off, afore I pull it off!" she cried.
 
"Oh, be still Gran'ma—you'll be hurtin' yourself, you know you will——"
 
"Are you coming Meg?" said George suddenly.
 
"She is not!" cried the old woman.
 
"Are you coming Meg?" repeated George, in a passion.
 
Meg began to cry. I suppose she looked at him through her tears. The next thing I heard was a cry from the old woman, and the sound of staggering feet.
 
"Would ta drag 'er from me!—if tha goos, ma wench, tha enters this 'ouse no more, tha 'eers that! Tha does thysen my lady! Dunna venture anigh me after this, my gel!"—the old woman called louder and louder. George appeared in the , holding Meg by the arm. She was crying in a little . Her hat with its large silk roses, was over her eyes. She was dressed in white . They mounted the trap. I gave him the and up behind. The old woman heard us through the open window, and we listened to her calling as we drove away:
 
"Dunna let me clap eyes on thee again, tha ungrateful 'ussy, tha ungrateful 'ussy! Tha'll it, my wench, tha'll rue it, an' then dunna come ter me——"
 
We drove out of hearing. George sat with a shut mouth, . Meg wept awhile to herself woefully. We were swinging at a good pace under the of the churchyard which stood above the level of the road. Meg, having settled her hat, her head to the wind, too much occupied with her to weep. We swung round the hollow by the end, and a short distance up the steep hill to Watnall. Then the mare walked slowly. Meg, at leisure to collect herself, exclaimed :
 
"Oh, I've only got one glove!"
 
She looked at the odd silk glove that lay in her lap, then peered about among her skirts.
 
"I must 'a left it in th' bedroom," she said piteously.
 
He laughed, and his anger suddenly vanished.
 
"What does it matter? You'll do without all right."
 
At the sound of his voice, she , and her tears and her weeping returned.
 
"Nay," he said, "don't about the old woman. She'll come round to-morrow—an' if she doesn't, it's her . She's got Polly to attend to her."
 
"But she'll be that miserable——!" wept Meg.
 
"It's her own fault. At any rate, don't let it make you miserable"—he glanced to see if anyone were in sight, then he put his arm round her waist and kissed her, saying softly, : "She'll be all right to-morrow. We'll go an' see her then, an' she'll be glad enough to have us. We'll give in to her then, poor old Gran'ma. She can boss you about, an' me as well, tomorrow as much as she likes. She feels it hard, being tied to her bed. But to-day is ours, surely—isn't it? To-day is ours, an' you're not sorry, are you?"
 
"But I've got no gloves, an' I'm sure my hair's a sight. I never thought she could 'a reached up like that."
 
George laughed, .
 
"No," he said, "she was in a temper. But we can get you some gloves directly we get to Nottingham."
 
"I haven't a farthing of money," she said.
 
"I've plenty!" he laughed. "Oh, an' let's try this on."
 
They were merry together as he tried on her wedding ring, and they talked softly, he gentle and , she rather . The mare took her own way, and Meg's hat was disar............