BERTHA still felt on her hands Gerald’s kisses, like little patches of fire; and on her lips was still the touch of his boyish mouth. What magic current had passed from him to her that she should feel this sudden happiness? It was to think that Gerald loved her; she remembered how his eyes had sparkled, how his voice had grown so that he could hardly speak: ah, those were the signs of real love, of the love that is and . Bertha put her hands to her heart with a laugh of pure joy—for she was beloved. The kisses on her fingers so that she looked at them with surprise, she seemed almost to see a mark of burning. She was very grateful to him, she wanted to take his head in her hands and kiss his hair and his boyish eyes and again the soft lips. She told herself that she would be a mother to him.  
The day following he had come to her almost shyly, afraid that she would be angry, and the bashfulness contrasting with his usual happy , had charmed her. It flattered her extremely to think that he was her slave, to see the pleasure he took in doing as she bade; but she could hardly believe it true that he loved her, and she wished to herself. It gave her a queer thrill to see him turn white when she held his hand, to see him tremble when she leaned on his arm. She stroked his hair and was delighted with the in his eyes.
 
“Don’t do that,” he cried. “Please. You don’t know how it hurts.”
 
“I was hardly you,” she replied, laughing.
 
She saw in his eyes tears—they were tears of passion, and she could scarcely restrain a cry of triumph. At last she was loved as she wished, she gloried in her power: here at last was one who would not hesitate to lose his soul for her sake. She was intensely grateful. But her heart grew cold when she thought it was too late, that it was no good: he was only a boy, and she was married and—nearly thirty.
 
But even then, why should she attempt to stop him? If it was the love she dreamt of, nothing could destroy it. And there was no harm; Gerald said nothing to which she might not listen, and he was so much younger than she, he was going in less than a month and it would all be over. Why should she not enjoy the modest that the gods let fall from their table—it was little enough, in all conscience! How foolish is he who will not in the sun of St. Martin’s summer, because it the winter as surely as the east wind!
 
They spent the whole day together to Miss Ley’s amusement, who for once did not use her sharp eyes to much effect.
 
“I’m so thankful to you, Bertha, for looking after the lad. His mother ought to be eternally grateful to you for keeping him out of .”
 
“I’m very glad if I have,” said Bertha, “he’s such a nice boy, and I’m so fond of him. I should be very sorry if he got into trouble.... I’m rather anxious about him afterwards.”
 
“My dear, don’t be; because he’s certain to get into scrapes—it’s his nature—but it’s likewise his nature to get out of them. He’ll swear eternal devotion to half-a-dozen fair damsels, and ride away rejoicing, while they are left to weep upon one another’s . It’s some men’s nature to break women’s hearts.”
 
“I think he’s only a little wild: he means no harm.”
 
“These sort of people never do; that’s what makes their wrong-doing so much more fatal.”
 
“And he’s so affectionate.”
 
“My dear, I shall really believe that you’re in love with him.”
 
“I am,” said Bertha. “Madly!”
 
The plain truth is often the surest way to hoodwink people, more especially when it is told unconsciously. Women of fifty have an irritating habit of treating as contemporaries all persons of their own sex who are over twenty-five, and it never struck Miss Ley that Bertha might look upon Gerald as anything but a little boy.
 
But Edward could no longer be kept in the country. Bertha was astonished that he should wish to see her, and a little annoyed, for now of all times his presence would be . She did not wish to have her dream disturbed, she knew it was nothing else; it was a spring day of happiness in the long winter of life. She looked at Gerald now with a heavy heart and could not bear to think of the future. How empty would existence be without that smile; above all, without that passion! This love was wonderful; it surrounded her like a mystic fire and lifted her up so that she seemed to walk on air. But things always come too late or come by halves. Why should all her passion have been and flung to the winds, so that now when a beautiful youth offered her his heart, she had nothing to give in exchange? Bertha told herself that though she was extremely fond of Gerald, of course she did not love him; he was a mere boy!
 
She was a little nervous at the meeting between him and Edward; she wondered what they would think of one another, and she watched—Gerald! Edward came in like a country breeze, healthy, , large, and somewhat bald. Miss Ley trembled lest he should knock her china over as he went round the room. He kissed her on one cheek, and Bertha on the other.
 
“Well, how are you all?—And this is my young cousin, eh? How are you? Pleased to meet you.”
 
He Gerald’s hand, towering over him, beaming good-naturedly; then sat in a chair much too small for him, which creaked and at his weight. There are few sensations more amusing for a woman than to look at the husband she has once adored and think how very unnecessary he is; but it is apt to make conversation a little difficult. Miss Ley soon carried Gerald off, thinking that husband and wife should enjoy a little of that to which marriage had indissolubly them. Bertha had been awaiting, with great , the necessary . She had nothing to tell Edward, and was much afraid that he would be .
 
“Where are you staying?” she asked.
 
“Oh, I’m putting up at the Inns of Court—I always go there.”
 
“I thought you might care to go to the theatre to-night. I’ve got a box, so that Aunt Polly and Gerald can come too.”
 
“I’m game for anything you like.”
 
“You always were the best-tempered man,” said Bertha, smiling gently.
 
“You don’t seem to care very much for my society, all the same.”
 
Bertha looked up quickly. “What makes you think that?”
 
“Well, you’re a precious long time coming back to Court Leys,” he replied, laughing.
 
Bertha was relieved, for evidently he was not taking the matter seriously. She had not the courage to say that she meant never to return: the endless explanation, his wonder, the impossibility of making him understand, were more than she could bear.
 
“When are you coming back? We all miss you, like anything.”
 
“Do you?” she said. “I really don’t know. We’ll see after the season.”
 
“What? Aren’t you coming for another couple of months?”
 
“I don’t think Blackstable suits me very well. I’m always ill there.”
 
“Oh, nonsense. It’s the finest air in England. Deathrate practically .”
 
“D’you think our life was very happy, Edward?”
 
She looked at him anxiously to see how he would take the tentative remark: but he was only astonished.
 
“Happy? Yes, rather. Of course we had our little . All people do. But they were chiefly at first, the road was a bit rough and we hadn’t got our tyres properly blown out. I’m sure I’ve got nothing to complain about.”
 
“That of course is the chief thing,” said Bertha.
 
“You look as well as anything now. I don’t see why you shouldn’t co............