I BOLTED UP, confused but also afraid. It didn't make sense. "She said she had a trial, Claire. I'm sure of it."

"She did have a trial, Lindsay. She just didn't show. They've been looking for her all day."

I pressed my back against the headboard. When I thought about the possibility of Jill bagging work, not calling in, it didn't fly.

"That's not Jill," I said.

"No," Claire answered, "that's not Jill at all."

Suddenly I was worried. "Claire, do you know what's going on? What happened with Steve?"

Claire answered, "No. What are you saying?"

"Stay where you are," I said.

I hung up the phone and sat there for a second. "I'm sorry, Joe, I gotta go."

A few minutes later I was driving at full speed down Twenty-third over to Castro. I ran through the possibilities: Jill was depressed. She needed some space. She'd gone to her parents'. Any of them could be true. But Jill would never - never - not show up for court.

I finally pulled up in front of her town house on Buena Vista Park. The first thing I noticed was Jill's sapphire blue 535 still in the driveway.

Claire was waiting on the landing and we hugged. "She doesn't answer," she said. "I rang the bell, banged on the door."

I looked around, didn't see anyone. "I hate to do this." Then I broke a pane in the front door and reached inside. I was thinking that Steve could have gotten inside, too - easily.

Immediately, the alarm sounded. I knew the code, 63442, Jill's state employee number. I punched it in, trying to make up my mind if the alarm being armed was a good sign.

I flicked on a light. I called, "Jill?"

Then I ............