Had Stephen been better acquainted with men and women, she would have been more satisfied with herself for being the first at the tryst.  The conventional idea, in the minds of most women and of all men, is that a woman should never be the first.  But real women, those in whom the heart beats strong, and whose blood can leap, know better.  These are the commanders of men.  In them sex calls to sex, all unconsciously at first; and men answer to their call, as they to men’s.  
Two opposite feelings strove for dominance as Stephen found herself on the hilltop, alone.  One a feeling natural enough to any one, and especially to a girl, of relief that a dreaded hour had been postponed; the other of chagrin that she was the first.
 
After a few moments, however, one of the two militant thoughts became dominant: the feeling of chagrin.  With a pang she thought if she had been a man and summoned for such a purpose, how she would have hurried to the trysting-place; how the flying of her feet would have vied with the quick rapturous beating of her heart!  With a little sigh and a blush, she remembered that Leonard did not know the purpose of the meeting; that he was a friend almost brought up with her since boy and girl times; that he had often been summoned in similar terms and for the most trivial of social purposes.
 
For nearly half an hour Stephen sat on the rustic seat under the shadow of the great oak, looking, half unconscious of its beauty and yet influenced by it, over the wide landscape stretched at her feet.
 
In spite of her disregard of conventions, she was no fool; the instinct of wisdom was strong within her, so strong that in many ways it ruled her conscious efforts.  Had any one told her that her preparations for this interview were made deliberately with some of the astuteness that dominated the Devil when he took Jesus to the top of a high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the earth at His feet, she would have, and with truth, denied it with indignation.  Nevertheless it was a fact that she had, in all unconsciousness, chosen for the meeting a spot which would evidence to a man, consciously or unconsciously, the desirability for his own sake of acquiescence in her views and wishes.  For all this spreading landscape was her possession, which her husband would share.  As far as the eye could reach was within the estate which she had inherited from her father and her uncle.
 
The half-hour passed in waiting had in one way its advantages to the girl: though she was still as high strung as ever, she acquired a larger measure of control over herself.  The nervous tension, however, was so complete physically that all her faculties were acutely awake; very early she became conscious of a distant footstep.
 
To Stephen’s straining ears the footsteps seemed wondrous slow, and more wondrous regular; she felt instinctively that she would have liked to have listened to a more hurried succession of less evenly-marked sounds.  But notwithstanding these thoughts, and the qualms which came in their turn, the sound of the coming feet brought great joy.  For, after all, they were coming; and coming just in time to prevent the sense of disappointment at their delay gaining firm foothold.  It was only when the coming was assured that she felt how strong had been the undercurrent of her apprehension lest they should not come at all.
 
Very sweet and tender and beautiful Stephen looked at this moment.  The strong lines of her face were softened by the dark fire in her eyes and the feeling which glowed in the deep blushes which mantled her cheeks.  The proudness of her bearing was no less marked than ever, but in the willowy sway of her body there was a yielding of mere sorry pride.  In all the many moods which the gods allow to good women there is none so dear or so alluring, consciously as well as instinctively, to true men as this self-surrender.  As Leonard drew near, Stephen sank softly into a seat, doing so with a guilty feeling of acting a part.  When he actually came into the grove he found her seemingly lost in a reverie as she gazed out over the wide expanse in front of her.  He was hot after his walk, and with something very like petulance threw himself into a cane armchair, exclaiming as he did so with the easy insolence of old familiarity:
 
‘What a girl you are, Stephen! dragging a fellow all the way up here.  Couldn’t you have fixed it down below somewhere if you wanted to see me?’
 
Strangely enough, as it seemed to her, Stephen did not dislike his tone of mastery.  There was something in it which satisfied her.  The unconscious recognition of his manhood, as opposed to her womanhood, soothed her in a peaceful way.  It was easy to yield to a dominant man.  She was never more womanly than when she answered him softly:
 
‘It was rather unfair; but I thought you would not mind coming so far.  It is so cool and delightful here; and we can talk without being disturbed.’  Leonard was lying back in his chair fanning himself with his wide-brimmed straw hat, with outstretched legs wide apart and resting on the back of his heels.  He replied with grudging condescension:
 
‘Yes, it’s cool enough after the hot tramp over the fields and through the wood.  It’s not so good as the house, though, in one way: a man can’t get a drink here.  I say, Stephen, it wouldn’t be half bad if there were a shanty put up here like those at the Grands Mulets or on the Matterhorn.  There could be a tap laid on where a fellow could quench his thirst on a day like this!’
 
Before Stephen’s eyes floated a momentary vision of a romantic chalet with wide verandah and big windows looking over the landscape; a great wide stone hearth; quaint furniture made from the gnarled branches of trees; skins on the floor; and the walls adorned with antlers, great horns, and various trophies of the chase.  And amongst them Leonard, in a picturesque suit, lolling back just as at present and smiling with a loving look in his eyes as she handed him a great blue-and-white Munich beer mug topped with cool foam.  There was a soft mystery in her voice as she answered:
 
‘Perhaps, Leonard, there will some day be such a place here!’  He seemed to grumble as he replied:
 
‘I wish it was here now.  Some day seems a long way off!’
 
This seemed a good opening for Stephen; for the fear of the situation was again beginning to assail her, and she felt that if she did not enter on her task at once, its difficulty might overwhelm her.  She felt angry with herself that there was a change in her voice as she said:
 
‘Some day may mean—can mean everything.  Things needn’t be a longer way off than we choose ourselves, sometimes!’
 
‘I say, that’s a good one!  Do you mean to say that because I am some day to own Brindehow I can do as I like with it at once, whilst the governor’s all there, and a better life than I am any day?  Unless you want me to shoot the old man by accident when we go out on the First.’  He laughed a short, unmeaning masculine laugh which jarred somewhat on her.  She did not, however, mean to be diverted from her main purpose, so she went on quickly:
 
‘You know quite well, Leonard, that I don’t mean anything of the kind.  But there was something I wanted to say to you, and I wished that we should be alone.  Can you not guess what it is?’
 
‘No, I’ll be hanged if I can!’ was his response, lazily given.
 
Despite her resolution she turned her head; she could not meet his eyes.  It cut her with a sharp pain to notice when she turned again that he was not looking at her.  He continued fanning himself with his hat as he gazed out at the view.  She felt that the critical moment of her life had come, that it was now or never as to her fulfilling her settled intention.  So with a rush she went on her way:
 
‘Leonard, you and I have been friends a long time.  You know my views on some points, and that I think a woman should be as free to act as a man!’  She paused; words and ideas did not seem to flow with the readiness she expected.  Leonard’s arrogant assurance completed the dragging her back to earth which her own self-consciousness began:
 
‘Drive on, old girl!  I know you’re a crank from Crankville on some subjects.  Let us have it for all you’re worth.  I’m on the grass and listening.’
 
Stephen paused.  ‘A crank from Crankville!’—this after her nights of sleepless anxiety; after the making of the resolution which had cost her so much, and which was now actually in process of realisation.  Was it all worth so much? why not abandon it now? . . . Abandon it!  Abandon a resolution!  All the obstinacy of her nature—she classed it herself as firmness—rose in revolt.  She shook her head angrily, pulled herself together, and went on:
 
‘That may be! though it’s not what I call myself, or what I am usually called, so far as I know.  At any rate my convictions are honest, and I am sure you will respect them as such, even if you do not share them.’  She did not see the ready response in his face which she expected, and so hurried on:
 
‘It has always seemed to me that a—when a woman has to speak to a man she should do so as frankly as she would like him to speak to her, and as freely.  Leonard, I—I,’ as she halted, a sudden idea, winged with possibilities of rescuing procrastination came to her.  She went on more easily:
 
‘I know you are in trouble about money matters.  Why not let me help you?’  He sat up and looked at her and said genially:
 
‘Well, Stephen, you are a good old sort!  No mistake about it.  Do you mean to say you would help me to pay my debts, when the governor has refused to do so any more?’
 
‘It would be a great pleasure to me, Leonard, to do anything for your good or your pleasure.’
 
There was a long pause; they both sat looking down at the ground.  The woman’s heart beat loud; she feared that the man must hear it.  She was consumed with anxiety, and with a desolating wish to be relieved from the strain of saying more.  Surely, surely Leonard could not be so blind as not to see the state of things! . . . He would surely seize the occasion; throw aside his diffidence and relieve her! . . . His words made a momentary music in her ears as he spoke:
 
‘And is this what you asked me to come here for?’
 
The words filled her with a great shame.  She felt herself a dilemma.  It had been no part of her purpose to allude his debts.  Viewed in the light of what was to follow, it would seem to him that she was trying to foreclose his affection.   That could not be allowed to pass; the error must be rectified.  And yet! . . . And yet this very error must be cleared up before she could make her full wish apparent.  She seemed to find herself compelled by inexorable circumstances into an unlooked-for bluntness.  In any case she must face the situation.  Her pluck did not fail her; it was with a very noble and graceful simplicity that she turned to her companion and said:
 
‘Leonard, I did not quite mean that.  It would be a pleasure to me to be of that or any other service to you, if I might be so happy!  But I never meant to allude to your debts.   Oh! Leonard, can’t you understand!  If you were my husband—or—or going to be, all such little troubles would fall away from you.  But I would not for the world have you think . . . ’
 
Her very voice failed her.  She could not speak what was in her mind; she turned away, hiding in her hands her face which fairly seemed to burn.  This, she thought, was the time for a true lover’s opportunity!  Oh, if she had been a man, and a woman had so appealed, how he would have sprung to her side and taken her in his arms, and in a wild rapture of declared affection have swept away all the pain of her shame!
 
But she remained alone.  There was no springing to her side; no rapture of declared affection; no obliteration of her shame.  She had to bear it all alone.  There, in the open; under the eyes that she would fain have seen any other phase of her distress.  Her heart beat loud and fast; she waited to gain her self-control.
 
Leonard Everard had his faults, plenty of them, and he was in truth composed of an amalgam of far baser metals than Stephen thought; but he had been born of gentle blood and reared amongst gentlefolk.  He did not quite understand the cause or the amount of his companion’s concern; but he could not but recognise her distress.  He realised that it had followed hard upon her most generous intention towards himself.  He could not, therefore, do less than try to comfort her, and he began his task in a conventional way, but with a blundering awkwardness which was all manlike.  He took her hand and held it in his; this much at any rate he had learned in sitting on stairs or in conservatories after extra dances.  He said as tenderly as he could, but with an impatient gesture unseen by her:
 
‘Forgive me, Stephen!  I suppose I have said or done something which I shouldn’t.  But I don’t know what it is; upon my honour I don’t.  Anyhow, I am truly sorry for it.  Cheer up, old girl!  I’m not your husband, you know; so you needn’t be distressed.’
 
Stephen took her courage à deux mains.  If Leonard would not speak she must.  It was manifestly impossible that the matter could be left in its pre............