He went downstairs, and out on to the quay, turning southward along the river towards the F?vámház.  
For a foreigner he knew Pest well, but his knowledge only led him now by its loneliest avenue. He stood for a long while, his back to the empty market-place—which glowed by day with the red and orange of autumn ripeness—his elbows on the broad stone embankment, gazing out across the swirling river on which the starlight slid and shivered in darting streaks of gold.
 
He hated himself for what had taken place that evening, as he had often with equal reason hated himself before.
 
Somehow he seemed to lack the personal seriousness which saved men from treating their own affairs with the humorous tolerance which they extended to their neighbours! Life appeared to him the same comic spectacle from whatever point one saw it. Fate was often just as funny when it killed as when it crowned you, and however intimately they might annoy him, he never could keep back a laugh at its queer ways.
 
It was Fate's whim at present to make him look like a scoundrel by a deed that was probably as decent as any he would ever do, and the irony of his ill-luck so tickled him that, in laughing at it, he had become really abominable.
 
A sentimentalist with a sense of humour cut, as he could see, a very poor figure; it were better, so far as appearances went, to be a pompous fool.
 
Self-esteem is so widespread a virtue that the world, whatever it may say, is always impressed even by ridiculous dignity, and its one universally unconvincing spectacle is the man laughing at himself. Besides, when a man finds himself absurd, what is he likely to think imposing?
 
Yet, for all his humour, Caragh sighed. For the moment, as on many previous moments, he craved the solemn personal point of view to make life seem for once of some importance and give him a taste of undiluted tears.
 
His reflections were interrupted by something rubbing against his leg.
 
It proved to be a little white dog, and he addressed some whimsical advice to it about the time of night before looking out again upon the river. But as the animal made no sign of movement, but merely shivered against his ankle, he lifted it up and set it on the parapet before him.
 
From an inspection there he found it to be all but starved, with just strength enough to stand.
 
He was indifferent to dogs, and felt that the wisest course, as he explained to it, would be to drop the trembling creature into the water and out of a world that had used it so ill.
 
But he was very far from indifferent to the waif-like loneliness that gazed at him from its eyes, and, tucking it resignedly under his wrap, he turned back to the hotel.
 
He spent an hour there, feeding it with some biscuits that remained from his raft journey, soaked in whisky and water, and then, since the little thing refused to rest but on the bed, he made the best of its odorous presence beside him, and only cursed his own soft-heartedness when waked occasionally by its tongue.
 
On the morrow he began to show Ethel Vernon the city, and for two days she was too interested and fatigued to find fault with him. She had discovered the terrier, and enthusiastically adopted it, to Caragh's relief, being as devoted to dogs as he was apathetic.
 
But on the third evening, when they were sitting again together upon the balcony after a quiet afternoon, she spoke her disappointment.
 
The night was as splendidly blue as it had been when they sat there before; and she, dressed in black, with blue-black sequins woven over her bodice and scattered upon her skirt, looked to be robed in some dark cluster of starlight in her corner of the balcony.
 
They had been talking of matters in which neither took much interest; then after a long pause she said quietly, "Why are you so different?"
 
"I?" he exclaimed.
 
"Oh, please don't pretend," she sighed. "What is it?"
 
"I told you," he said doggedly, "the other night."
 
"The other night?" she repeated. "What, when we were here?"
 
"Yes," he said.
 
She reflected for a moment. "About that girl, the one in Ireland? Do you mean that?"
 
"I do," he said.
 
"Do you mean it was true?" she asked with increasing tenseness.
 
"Quite true," he said.
 
"But you were laughing," she protested incredulously. "I took it for a joke."
 
"I'm always laughing," he said grimly; "but I wish I hadn't been then. It was so serious that I couldn't be. But it's no good explaining that; you can't understand."
 
Her mind was set on something different—on something to her of more moment than a man's absurd reasons for being trivial. It was some time before she spoke.
 
"You asked her to marry you?" she pondered slowly, only half in question, as though scarcely able to realize what he had done.
 
"I did," he said; "how else should we be engaged?"
 
"Oh, dozens of ways," she answered: "she might have asked you."
 
"Well, she didn't," he said stoutly.
 
"I wonder if you know," she mused; "men don't. And did you want to marry her?"
 
"Would I have asked her otherwise?" he demanded.
 
"Oh, yes," she sighed; "very possibly. Men often propose because they can think of nothing else to say. And have you wanted to be married long?"
 
"What do you mean?" he said.
 
"Three months?" she queried.
 
The light little head was tilted sideways in old fascinating way. It was not so dark but he might have seen it had he not been staring at the stars. He might even have noticed, had he looked closer, how wide her eyes were, and how unsteady the small mouth.
 
"Why three months?" he said.
 
"Wasn't it three months ago we were at Bramley Park?" she went on reflectively. "Can you still remember what you told me there?"
 
"Was it different from what I'd told you everywhere?" he parried.
 
"No—o!" she murmured, with a long wavering breath; "not until to-night. You said you could never, while I lived, think of marrying another woman."
 
"Yes," he assented; "I remember. We were looking down at the moonlight on the lake."
 
"We were," she said. "And you had your hand on mine. You put it there; you put it there as you spoke. Were you thinking how wonderfully easy it was to fool a woman?"
 
"I've never fooled you, nor tried to fool you," he answered quietly. "I've cared for you too much for that. No, not in the common way; but because you've always been such an honest and good friend to me. Some women insist on being fooled; they make any sort of truth to them impossible. You made a lie."
 
"So it seems now," she said wistfully.
 
"No," he replied, "it seems now just the opposite. But I can't help that............