"I guess I shall fetch it," said Newell Bond.
He was sitting on the doorstep, in the summer dusk, with Dorcas Lee. She knew just how his gaunt, large-featured face looked, with its hawk-like glance, and the color, as he spoke, mounting to his forehead. There were two kinds of Bonds, the red and the black. The red Bonds had the name of carrying out their will in all undertakings, and Newell was one. Dorcas was on the step above him, her splendid shoulders disdaining the support of the casing, and her head, with its heavy braids, poised with an unconscious pride, no more spirited by daylight than here in the dark where no one saw. She answered in her full, rich voice:—
"Of course you will, if you want to bad enough."
"If I want to?" repeated Newell. "Ain\'t I acted as if \'twas the one thing I did want?"
Over and over they had dwelt upon the great purpose of his life, sometimes to touch it here and there with delicate implication, and often to sit down, by an unspoken consent, for long, serious talks. To-night Newell spoke from a reminiscent [151]mood. There were times when, in an ingenuous egoism, he had to take down the book of his romance and read a page. But only to Dorcas. She was his one confidant; she understood.
"I don\'t know \'s Alida\'s to blame," he meditated. "She\'s made that way."
Immediately Dorcas, in her sympathetic mind, was regarding a picture of Alida Roe as she saw her without illusion of passion or prejudice—a delicate, pale girl with a sweet complexion, and slender hands that were ever trembling upon fine work for her own adornment. She had known Alida at school and at home, in dull times and bright, and she had a vision, when her name was mentioned, of something as frail as cobwebs, with all their beauty. Whenever Newell Bond had begun to sound the praises of his chosen maid, she had set her mind seriously to considering what he could see in Alida. But it was never of any use. Alida always remained to her impalpable and vain. Now she answered patiently, according to her wont:—
"Of course she\'s made that way."
It was like a touch to keep the machinery going, and he responded:—
"You see, I hadn\'t asked her to set the day. It was kind of understood between us. An\' then Clayton Rand come along an\' begun to shine up [152]to her, spendin\' money like water, an\' her mother was bewitched by it. So she orders Alida to throw me over an\' take up with t\'other man. I don\'t know \'s Alida\'s to blame."
"Do you s\'pose they\'re engaged?" asked Dorcas, for the hundredth time.
He was silent for a moment, brooding. Then he answered, as he always did:—
"That\'s more\'n I can make out. But if they are, I\'ll break it. Give me time enough, an\' I\'ll do it when they\'re walkin\' into the meetin\'-house, if I don\'t afore."
Dorcas felt old and tired. All her buoyant life seemed to settle to a level where she must foster the youth of others and starve her own.
"Well," she said gently, "you\'ve done pretty well this year, sellin\' house-lots an\' all."
"I\'ve done well this year an\' I\'m goin\' to keep on," said Newell, in that dogged way he had. Often it heartened her, but never when it touched upon his weary chase. Then it seemed to her like some rushing force that should be used to turn a mill, wandering away into poor meadows, to be dried and lost. But he was ending as he always did: "Clayton Rand won\'t marry so long \'s his mother\'s alive, no matter how much money he\'s got. An\' while Alida\'s waitin\' for him, I\'ll lay up what I can, an\' I bet you I get her yet."
[153]"You goin\' to pick peas in the mornin\'?" asked Dorcas.
She had heard the clock striking, and it counseled her to remember how early their days began.
Newell came out of his dream. "Yes," he said, "that patch down the river road. I guess we can get off ten bushels or more by the afternoon train."
"All right," said Dorcas. "I\'ll be there."
"You mustn\'t walk down. I\'m goin\' t\'other way myself, but I\'ll hitch up Jim, an\' you can leave him in the old barn till you come home."
"No," said Dorcas, rising. "I\'ll walk. I\'d rather by half than have the care of him. Maybe I\'ll catch a ride, too."
They said good-night, and Newell was walking down the path where clove-pinks were at their sweetest, when he turned to speak again. Dorcas, forgetful of him, had stretched her arms upward in a yawn that seemed to envelop the whole of her. As she stood there in the moonlight, her tall figure loomed like that of a priestess offering worship. She might have been chanting an invocation to the night. The man, regarding her, was startled, he did not know why. In that instant she seemed to him something mysterious and grand, something belonging to the night itself, and he went away with his question unasked. [154]Dorcas, her yawn finished, went in to think of him, as she always did, in the few luxurious moments before she slept. But her nights were always dreamless. She had the laborer\'s tired muscles and acquiescent nerves.
It was two years now since she and Newell had become, in a sense, partners. An affliction had fallen upon each of them at about the same time, and, through what seemed chance, they had stretched out a hand each to steady the other, and gone on together. It was then that Dorcas\'s mother had had her first paralytic stroke, and Dorcas had given up the district school to be at home. But she was poor, and when it became apparent that her mother might live in helpless misery, it was also evident that Dorcas must have something to do. At that time Newell, under the first cloud of disappointed love, had launched into market-gardening, and he gave Dorcas little tasks, here and there, picking fruit and vegetables, even weeding and hoeing, because that would leave her within call of home, where a little girl sat daily on guard. Newell lived alone, with old Kate to do his work, and soon it became an established custom for Dorcas to cook savory dishes for him, on the days when Kate\'s aching joints kept her smoking and grumbling by the fire. In a thousand ways she unconsciously slipped into his life, with his accounts, his house [155]purchases, and the work of his fields; and the small sums he paid her kept bread in her mother\'s mouth.
And now her mother had died, but Dorcas still kept on. She had no school yet, she told herself excusingly; but a self she would not hear knew how intently she was fighting Newell\'s own particular battle with him, how she watched here and there lest a penny be spilled and his road be made the longer to the goal he fixed. She was quite willing to consider breaking up Alida\'s intimacy with the other man, because, to her dispassionate mind, Alida was of no account in the world of feeling. She might have her mild preferences, but if Newell could give her muslin dresses and plated pins, he would suit her excellently. And Newell wanted her. As for Clayton Rand, he would be none the poorer, lacking her. She had thought it all out, and she was sure she knew.
The next morning, dressed in brown, the color of the earth she worked in, Dorcas stepped out into the dewy world and closed her door behind her. It was a long walk to the field. For some unguessed reason she had been heavy-hearted at rising; but now the pure look of the early day refreshed her and she went on cheerfully. Since her mother\'s death life had seemed to her all a maze where she could find few certainties. She [156]had no ties, no duties, save the general ones to neighborhood and church, and her loneliness now and then rose before her like something inexorable and vast, and would be looked at. Perhaps that was why she had thrown herself whole-souled into Newell\'s willful quest, though at moments she longed to strangle it with passion fiercer than its own; and why she wondered just what she could do after the desire of his heart had flowered and Alida was his wife.
As she walked along, she held her head very high, and carried her hat in her hand, leaving the sun to strike upon her shining braids and light them to a gloss. For the moment she was unreasonably happy, forgetful of the past, and aware only of the sunlight on green fields. Then suddenly she found that a light wagon had drawn up and Clayton Rand was asking her to ride. She looked at him one quick instant before she answered. She had known him when they were both children and he came to spend the summer a mile away, and sometimes, for fun, went to the district school. Since then they had kept up a recognized acquaintance, but this was the first time in years that they had spoken together. He was a heavy-faced young man, with rough-looking clothes of a correct cut, and a suggested taste in dogs and horses.
"Ride?" he asked again, and Dorcas smiled [157]at him out of many thoughts. She could not have whispered them to herself perhaps; but they all concerned Newell and his daily lack. Clayton saw the pretty lifting of her red lip above her small white teeth, and, being a young man ready to leap at desired conclusions, instantly thought of kissing.
"I can\'t be mistaken," he said elaborately. "This is Miss Dorcas Lee."
Dorcas put her foot on the step and seated herself beside him. Then, surprised at his success, because she had looked to him like a proud person, though in a working-gown, he began a wandering apology for having failed to help her in. Meantime he touched up the beautiful sorrel, and when they began to fly along the road, and the sorrel\'s golden mane was tossing, Dorcas had a brief smiling concurrence with Alida. To speed like that was perhaps worth the company of Clayton Rand. He was talking to her, and she answered him demurely, with a dignity not reassuring from one of her large type and regal air. But presently he began, by some inner cleverness (for he had a way with him), to tell her stories about horses, and Dorcas listened, wide-eyed with pleasure. The way to the knoll was very short, and there she had to stop in the midst of a racing story that had the movement of the race itself, and [158]bid him leave her. This time he remembered his manners, and leaped out to help her gallantly.
"Miss Dorcas," he called her back after her pretty thanks, "I suppose—I don\'t half dare to ask you—but you like horses. Just let me take you over to the Country Club to-morrow, and we can see the racing."
For the space of a second, Dorcas gazed at the toe of her patched working-boots. She was thinking, in a confused tangle, of Alida and Newell, and wondering if she had any clothes to wear. Then she lifted her head quickly in a resolution that looked like triumph.
"Thank you," she said, with a shyness very charming in one of her large type; "I should be happy to."
"Thank you," said Clayton, jumping into the wagon. "I\'ll be along about half-past one."
All that day Dorcas bent over the pea-vines and listened to her thoughts. There were other pickers, but she had no words for them, even when they sat down together for their luncheon, nor for Newell himself, coming at night to take her home.
"You\'re real tired, I guess," he said, as he left her at the gate.
Dorcas flashed a sudden smile at him. It was all mirth and mischief.
[159]"No," she said soberly, "I don\'t believe I\'m tired."
"I\'m goin\' to Fairfax to see about sellin\' the colt to-morrow," said Newell, from the wagon.
Dorcas nodded.
"Maybe I\'ll take a day off myself," she said. "I\'ll be on hand next-day mornin\', if you want anything picked. Good-night."
That evening at ten Newell was driving home from the village, and he marked her light in the kitchen. He stopped, vaguely uneasy, and walked up the path to the side door, and as he came he saw the shades go down.
"Dorcas!" he called, at the door, "it\'s me, Newell."
Then he heard her hurrying steps. But instead of opening the door to him she pushed the bolt softly, and he heard her voice in an inexplicable mixture of laughter and confusion.
"I\'m real sorry, Newell, but I can\'t let you in. I\'m awful sorry."
"All right," he said bluffly, turning away, yet conscious of a tiny hurt of pained surprise. "Nothin\' wrong, is there?"
"No," came the laughing voice again, "there\'s nothin\' wrong."
"That\'s all I wanted to know," he explained, as he went down the path. "Seein\' the light so late—"
[160]And again the voice followed him.
"Yes, Newell, I\'m all right."
Dorcas, an hour after, at her table ironing the dotted muslin she had washed and dried before the fire, laughed out again. She had a new sense of triumph, like a bloom upon the purpose of her life. At last she saw before her a path quite distinct from the dull duties of every day.
When Clayton Rand drove up with his pair of sleek horses and the shining rig that was admired by all the town, she went out and down the path very shyly, and with a blushing sedateness becoming to her. Clayton saw it, and his heart leaped with the vanity of knowing she was moved because of him. But the cause was otherwise. Dorcas knew her hair was beautiful, and that her skin, in spite of its tan, was sweetly pink; but she also knew that the fashi............