The next day was Saturday, and Mr Whittlestaff came out of his room early, intending to speak to Mrs Baggett. He had declared to himself that it was his purpose to give her some sound advice respecting her own affairs,—as far as her affairs and his were connected together. But low down in his mind, below the stratum in which his declared resolution was apparent to himself, there was a hope that he might get from her some comfort and strength as to his present purpose. Not but that he would ultimately do as he himself had determined; but, to tell the truth, he had not quite determined, and thought that a word from Mrs Baggett might assist him.
As he came out from his room, he encountered Mary, intent upon her household duties. It was something before her usual time, and he was surprised. She had looked ill overnight and worn, and he had expected that she would keep her bed. "What makes you so early, Mary?" He spoke to her with his softest and most affectionate tone.
"I couldn\'t sleep, and I thought I might as well be up." She had followed him into the library, and when there he put his arm round her waist and kissed her forehead. It was a strange thing for him to do. She felt that it was so—very, very strange; but it never occurred to her that it behoved her to be angry at his caress. He had kissed her once before, and only once, and it had seemed to her that he had intended that their love-making should go on without kisses. But was she not his property, to do as he pleased with her? And there could be no ground for displeasure on her part.
"Dear Mary," he said, "if you could only know how constant my thoughts are to you." She did not doubt that it was so; but just so constant were her thoughts to John Gordon. But from her to him there could be no show of affection—nothing but the absolute coldness of perfect silence. She had passed the whole evening with him last night, and had not been allowed to speak a single word to him beyond the ordinary greetings of society. She had felt that she had not been allowed to speak a single word to any one, because he had been present. Mr Whittlestaff had thrown over her the deadly mantle of his ownership, and she had consequently felt herself to be debarred from all right over her own words and actions. She had become his slave; she felt herself in very truth to be a poor creature whose only duty it was in the world to obey his volition. She had told herself during the night that, with all her motives for loving him, she was learning to regard him with absolute hatred. And she hated herself because it was so. Oh, what a tedious affair was this of living! How tedious, how sad and miserable, must her future days be, as long as days should be left to her! Could it be made possible to her that she should ever be able to do her duty by this husband of hers,—for her, in whose heart of hearts would be seated continually the image of this other man?
"By-the-by," said he, "I want to see Mrs Baggett. I suppose she is about somewhere."
"Oh dear, yes. Since the trouble of her husband has become nearer, she is earlier and earlier every day. Shall I send her?" Then she departed, and in a few minutes Mrs Baggett entered the room.
"Come in, Mrs Baggett."
"Yes, sir."
"I have just a few words which I want to say to you. Your husband has gone back to Portsmouth?"
"Yes sir; he have." This she said in a very decided tone, as though her master need trouble himself no further about her husband.
"I am very glad that it should be so. It\'s the best place for him,—unless he could be sent to Australia."
"He ain\'t a-done nothing to fit himself for Botany Bay, Mr Whittlestaff," said the old woman, bobbing her head at him.
"I don\'t care what place he has fitted himself for, so long as he doesn\'t come here. He is a disreputable old man."
"You needn\'t be so hard upon him, Mr Whittlestaff. He ain\'t a-done nothing much to you, barring sleeping in the stable one night when he had had a drop o\' drink too much." And the old woman pulled out a great handkerchief, and began to wipe her eyes piteously.
"What a fool you are, Mrs Baggett."
"Yes; I am a fool. I knows that."
"Here\'s this disreputable old man eating and drinking your hard-earned wages."
"But they are my wages. And who\'s a right to them, only he?"
"I don\'t say anything about that, only he comes here and disturbs you."
"Well, yes; he is disturbing; if it\'s only because of his wooden leg and red nose. I don\'t mean to say as he\'s the sort of a man as does a credit to a gentleman\'s house to see about the place. But he was my lot in matrimony, and I\'ve got to put up with him. I ain\'t a-going to refuse to bear the burden which came to be my lot. I don\'t suppose he\'s earned a single shilling since he left the regiment, and that is hard upon a poor woman who\'s got nothing but her wages."
"Now, look here, Mrs Baggett."
"Yes, sir."
"Send him your wages."
"And have to go in rags myself,—in your service."
"You won\'t go in rags. Don\'t be a fool."
"I am a fool, Mr Whittlestaff; you can\'t tell me that too often."
"You won\'t go in rags. You ought to know us well enough—"
"Who is us, Mr Whittlestaff? They ain\'t no us;—just yet."
"Well;—me."
"Yes, I know you, Mr Whittlestaff."
"Send him your wages. You may be quite sure that you\'ll find yourself provided with shoes and stockings, and the rest of it."
"And be a woluntary burden beyond what I earns! Never;—not as long as Miss Mary is coming to live here as missus of your house. I should do summat as I should have to repent of. But, Mr Whittlestaff, I\'ve got to look the world in the face, and bear my own crosses. I never can do it no younger."
"You\'re an old woman now, and you talk of throwing yourself upon the world without the means of earning a shilling."
"I think I\'d earn some, at something, old as I am, till I fell down flat dead," she said. "I have that sperit in me, that I\'d still be doing something. But it don\'t signify; I\'m not going to remain here when Miss Mary is to be put over me. That\'s the long and the short of it all."
Now had come the moment in which, if ever, Mr Whittlestaff must get the strength which he required. He was quite sure of the old woman,—that her opinion would not be in the least influenced by any desire on her own part to retain her position as his housekeeper. "I don\'t know about putting Miss Mary over you," he said.
"Don\'t know about it!" she shouted.
"My mind is not absolutely fixed."
"\'As she said anything?"
"Not a word."
"Or he? Has he been and dared to speak up about Miss Mary. And he,—who, as far as I can understand, has never done a ha\'porth for her since the beginning. What\'s Mr Gordon? I should like to know. Diamonds! What\'s diamonds in the way of a steady income? They\'re all a flash in the pan, and moonshine and dirtiness. I hates to hear of diamonds. There\'s all the ill in the world comes from them; and you\'d give her up to be taken off by such a one as he among the diamonds! I make bold to tell you, Mr Whittlestaff, that you ought to have more strength of mind than what that comes to. You\'re telling me every day as I\'m an old fool."
"So you are."
"I didn\'t never contradict you; nor I don\'t mean, if you tells me so as often again. And I don\'t mean to be that impident as to tell my master as I ain\'t the only fool about the place. It wouldn\'t be no wise becoming."
"But you think it would be true."
"I says nothing about that. That\'s not the sort of language anybody has heard to come out of my mouth, either before your face or behind your back. But I do say as a man ought to behave like a man. What! Give up to a chap as spends his time in digging for diamonds! Neve............