There was so much to think about.

　　How was I going to find time alone to hunt down J. Jenks, and why did Alice want me to know abouthim?

　　If Alice's clue had nothing to do with Renesmee, what could I do to save my daughter?

　　How were Edward and I going to explain things to Tanya's family in the morning? What if they reactedlike Irina? What if it turned into a fight?

　　I didn't know how to fight. How was I going to learn in just a month? Was there any chance at all that Icould be taught fast enough that I might be a danger to any one member of the Volturi? Or was Idoomed to be totally useless? Just another easily dispatched newborn?

　　So many answers I needed, but I did not get the chance to ask my questions.

　　Wanting some normality for Renesmee, I'd insisted on taking her home to our cottage at bedtime. Jacobwas more comfortable in his wolf form at the moment; the stress was easier dealt with when he felt readyfor a fight. I wished that I could feel the same, could feel ready. He ran in the woods, on guard again.

　　After she was deeply under, I put Renesmee in her bed and then went to the front room to ask myquestions of Edward. The ones I was able to ask, at any rate; one of the most difficult of problems wasthe idea of trying to hide anything from him, even with the advantage of my silent thoughts.

　　He stood with his back to me, staring into the fire.

　　"Edward, I—"He spun and was across the room in what seemed like no time at all, not even the smallest part of asecond. I only had time to register the ferocious expression on his face before his lips were crushingagainst mine and his arms were locked around me like steel girders.

　　I didn't think of my questions again for the rest of that night. It didn't take long for me to grasp the reasonfor hismood, and even less time to feel exactly the same way.

　　I'd been planning on needing years just to somewhat organize the overwhelming passion I felt for himphysically. And then centuries after that to enjoy it. if we had only a month left together... Well, I didn'tsee how I could stand to have this end. For the moment I couldn't help but be selfish. All I wanted was tolove him as much as possible in the limited time given to me.

　　It was hard to pull myself away from him when the sun came up, but we had our job to do, a job thatmight be more difficult than all the rest of our family's searches put together. As soon as I let myself thinkof what was coming, i was all tension; it felt like my nerves were being stretched on a rack, thinner andthinner.

　　"I wish there was a way to get the information we need from Eleazar before we tell them about Nessie,"Edward muttered as we hurriedly dressed in the huge closet that was more reminder of Alice than Iwanted at the moment. "Just in case.""But he wouldn't understand the question to answer it," I agreed. "Do you think they'll let us explain?""I don't know."I pulled Renesmee, still sleeping, from her bed and held her close so that her curls were pressed againstmy face; her sweet scent, so close, overpowered every other smell.

　　I couldn't waste one second of time today. There were answers I needed, and wasn't sure how muchtime Edward and I would have alone today. If all went well with Tanya's family, hopefully we would havecompany for an extended period.

　　"Edward, will you teach me how to fight?" I asked him, tensed for his reaction, as he held the door forme.

　　It was what I expected. He froze, and then his eyes swept over me with a deep significance, like he waslooking at me for the first or last time. His eyes lingered on our daughter sleeping in my arms.

　　"If it comes to a fight, there won't be much any of us can do," he hedged.

　　I kept my voice even. "Would you leave me unable to defend myself?"He swallowed convulsively, and the door shuddered, hinges protesting, as his hand tightened. Then henodded. "When you put it that way... I suppose we should get to work as soon as we can."I nodded, too, and we started toward the big house. We didn't hurry.

　　I wondered what I could do that would have any hope of making a difference. I was a tiny bit special, inmy own way—if a having a supematurally thick skull could really be considered special. Was there anyuse that I could put that toward?

　　"What would you say their biggest advantage is? Do they even have a weakness?"Edward didn't have to ask to know I meant the Volturi.

　　"Alec and Jane are their greatest offense," he said emotionlessly, like we were talking of a basketballteam. "Their defensive players rarely see any real action.""Because Jane can burn you where you stand—mentally at least. What does Alec do? Didn't you oncesay he was even more dangerous than Jane?""Yes. In a way, he is the antidote to Jane. She makes you feel the worst pain imaginable. Alec, on theother hand, makes you feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. Sometimes, when the Volturi are feeling kind,they have Alec anesthetize someone before he is executed. If he has surrendered or pleased them insome other way.""Anesthetic? But how is that more dangerous than Jane?""Because he cuts off your senses altogether. No pain, but also no sight or sound or smell. Total sensorydeprivation. You are utterly alone in the blackness. You don't even feel it when they burn you."I shivered. Was this the best we could hope for? To not see or feel death when it came?

　　"That would make him only equally as dangerous as Jane," Edward went on in the same detached voice,"in that they both can incapacitate you, make you into a helpless target. The difference between them islike the difference between Aro and me. Aro hears the mind of only one person at a time. Jane can onlyhurt the one object of her focus. I can hear everyone at the same time."I felt cold as I saw where he was going. "And Alec can incapacitate us all at the same time?" Iwhispered.

　　"Yes," he said. "If he uses his gift against us, we will all stand blind and deaf until they get around tokillingus—maybe they'll simply burn us without bothering to tear us apart first. Oh, we could try to fight,but we'll be more likely to hurt one another than we would be to hurt one of them."We walked in silence for a few seconds.

　　An idea was shaping itself in my head. Not very promising, but better than nothing.

　　"Do you think Alec is a very good fighter?" I asked. "Aside from what he can do, I mean. If he had tofight without his gift. I wonder if he's ever even tried___"Edward glanced at me sharply. "What are you thinking?"I looked straight ahead. "Well, he probably can't do that to me, can he? If what he does is like Aro andJane and you. Maybe... if he's never really had to defend himself... and I learned a few tricks—""He's been with the Volturi for centuries," Edward cut me off, his voice abruptly panicked. He wasprobably seeing the same image in his head that I was: the Cullens standing helpless, senseless pillars onthekillingfield—all but me. I'd be the only one who could fight. "Yes, you're surely immune to his power,but you are still a newborn, Bella. I can't make you that strong a fighter in a few weeks. I'm sure he's hadtraining.""Maybe, maybe not. It's the one thing I can do that no one else can. Even if I can just distract him for awhile—" Could I last long enough to give the others a chance?

　　"Please, Bella," Edward said through his teeth. "Let's not talk about this.""Be reasonable.""I will try to teach you what I can, but please don't make me think about you sacrificing yourself as adiversion—" He choked, and didn't finish.

　　I nodded. I would keep my plans to myself, then. First Alec and then, if I was miraculously lucky enoughto win, Jane. If I could only even things out—remove the Volturi's overwhelming offensive advantage.

　　Maybe then there was a chance.... My mind raced ahead. What if I was able to distract or even takethem out? Honestly, why would eitherJane or Alec ever have needed to learn battle skills? I couldn't imagine petulant little Jane surrenderingher advantage, even to learn.

　　If I was able to kill them, what a difference that would make.

　　"I have to learn everything. As much as you can possibly cram into my head in the next month," Imurmured.

　　He acted as if I hadn't spoken.

　　Who next, then? I might as well have my plans in order so that, if I did live past attacking Alec, therewould be no hesitation in my strike. I tried to think of another situation where my thick skull would giveme an advantage. I didn't know enough about what the others did. Obviously, fighters like the huge Felixwere beyond me. I could only try to give Emmett his fair fight there. I didn't know much about the rest ofthe Volturi guard, besides Demetri___My face was perfectly smooth as I considered Demetri. Without a doubt, he would be a fighter. Therewas no other way he could have survived so long, always at the spear point of any attack. And he mustalways lead, because he was their tracker—the best tracker in the world, no doubt. If there had beenone better, the Volturi would have traded up. Aro didn't surround himself with second best.

　　If Demetri didn't exist, then we could run. Whoever was left of us, in any case. My daughter, warm inmy arms... Someone could run with her. Jacob or Rosalie, whoever was left.

　　And... if Demetri didn't exist, then Alice and Jasper could be safe forever. Is that what Alice had seen?

　　That part of our family could continue? The two of them, at the very least.

　　Could I begrudge her that?

　　"Demetri...," I said.

　　"Demetri is mine," Edward said in a hard, tight voice. I looked at him quickly and saw that his expressionhad turned violent.

　　"Why?" I whispered.

　　He didn't answer at first. We were to the river when he finally murmured, "For Alice. It's the only thanksI can give her now for the last fifty years."So his thoughts were in line with mine.

　　I heard Jacob's heavy paws thudding against the frozen ground. In seconds, he was pacing beside me,his dark eyes focused on Renesmee.

　　I nodded to him once, then returned to my questions. There was so little time.

　　"Edward, why do you think Alice told us to ask Eleazar about the Volturi? Has he been in Italy recentlyor something? What could he know?""Eleazar knows everything when it comes to the Volturi. I forgot you didn't know. He used to be one ofthem."I hissed involuntarily. Jacob growled beside me.

　　"What?" I demanded, in my head picturing the beautiful dark-haired man at our wedding wrapped in along, ashy cloak.

　　Edward's face was softer now—he smiled a little. "Eleazar is a very gentle person. He wasn't entirelyhappy withthe Volturi, but he respected the law and its need to be upheld. He felt he was working toward thegreater good. He doesn't regret his time with them. But when he found Carmen, he found his place in thisworld. They are very similar people, both very compassionate for vampires." He smiled again. "They metTanya and her sisters, and they never looked back. They are well suited to this lifestyle. If they'd neverfound Tanya, I imagine they would have eventually discovered a way to live without human blood on theirown."The pictures in my head were jarring. I couldn't make them match up. A compassionate Volturi soldier?

　　Edward glanced at Jacob and answered a silent question. "No, he wasn't one of their warriors, so tospeak. He had a gift they found convenient."Jacob must have asked the obvious follow-up question.

　　"He has an instinctive feel for the gifts of others—the extra abilities that some vampires have," Edwardtold him. "He could give Aro a general idea of what any given vampire was capable of just by being inproximity with him or her. This was helpful when the Volturi went into battle. He could warn them ifsomeone in the opposing coven had a skill that might give them some trouble. That was rare; it takesquite a skill to even inconvenience the Volturi for a moment. More often, the warning would give Aro thechance to save someone who might be useful to him. Eleazar's gift works even with humans, to an extent.

　　He has to really concentrate with humans, though, because the latent ability is so nebulous. Aro wouldhave him test the people who wanted to join, to see if they had any potential. Aro was sorry to see himgo.""They let him go?" I asked. "Just like that?"His smile was darker now, a little twisted. 'The Volturi aren't supposed to be the villains, the way theyseem to you. They are the foundation of our peace and civilization. Each member of the guard chooses toserve them. It's quite prestigious; they all are proud to be there, not forced to be there."I scowled at the ground.

　　"They're only alleged to be heinous and evil by the criminals, Bella.""We're not criminals."Jacob huffed in agreement.

　　"They don't know that.""Do you really think we can make them stop and listen?"Edward hesitated just the tiniest moment and then shrugged. "If we find enough friends to stand besideus. Maybe."If. I suddenly felt the urgency of what we had before us today. Edward and I both started to movefaster, breaking into a run. Jacob caught up quickly.

　　"Tanya shouldn't be too much longer," Edward said. "We need to be ready."How to be ready, though? We arranged and rearranged, thought and rethought. Renesmee in full view?

　　Or hidden at first? Jacob in the room? Or outside? He'd told his pack to stay close but invisible. Shouldhe do the same?

　　In the end, Renesmee, Jacob—in his human form again—and I waited around the corner from the frontdoor in the dining room, sitting at the big polished table. Jacob let me hold Renesmee; he wanted space incase he had to phase quickly.

　　Though I was glad to have her in my arms, it made me feel useless. It reminded me that in a fight withmature vampires, I was no more than an easy target; I didn't need my hands free.

　　I tried to remember Tanya, Kate, Carmen, and Eleazar from the wedding. Their faces were murky in myill-lit memories. I only knew they were beautiful, two blondes and two brunettes. I couldn't remember ifthere was any kindness in their eyes.

　　Edward leaned motionlessly against the back window wall, staring toward the front door. It didn't looklike he was seeing the room in front of him.

　　We listened to the cars zooming past out on the freeway, none of them slowing.

　　Renesmee nestled into my neck, her hand against my cheek but no images in my head. She didn't havepictures for her feelings now.

　　"What if they don't like me?" she whispered, and all our eyes flashed to her face.

　　"Of course they'll—," Jacob started to say, but I silenced him with a look.

　　'They don't understand you, Renesmee, because they've never met anyone like you," I told her, notwanting to lie to her with promises that might not come true. "Getting them to understand is the problem."She sighed, and in my head flashed pictures of all of us in one quick burst. Vampire, human, werewolf.

　　She fit nowhere.

　　"You're special, that's not a bad thing."She shook her head in disagreement. She thought of our strained faces and said, "This is my fault.""No," Jacob, Edward, and I all said at exactly the same time, but before we could argue further, weheard the sound we'd been waiting for: the slowing of an engine on the freeway, the tires moving frompavement to soft dirt.

　　Edward darted around the corner to stand waiting by the door. Renesmee hid in my hair. Jacob and Istared at each other across the table, desperation on our faces.

　　The car moved quickly through the woods, faster than Charlie or Sue dro............