“In still rest, in changeless simplicity, I bear,

uninterrupted, the consciousness of the whole of Humanity within me.”— SCHLEIERMACHERS, Monologen.

“ . . . such a sweetness, such a grace,

In all thy speech appear,

That what to th’eye a beauteous face,

That thy tongue is to the ear.”

— COWLEY.

The water was deep to the very edge; and I sprang from the little boat upon a soft grassy turf. The island seemed rich with a profusion of all grasses and low flowers. All delicate lowly things were most plentiful; but no trees rose skywards, not even a bush overtopped the tall grasses, except in one place near the cottage I am about to describe, where a few plants of the gum-cistus, which drops every night all the blossoms that the day brings forth, formed a kind of natural arbour. The whole island lay open to the sky and sea. It rose nowhere more than a few feet above the level of the waters, which flowed deep all around its border. Here there seemed to be neither tide nor storm. A sense of persistent calm and fulness arose in the mind at the sight of the slow, pulse-like rise and fall of the deep, clear, unrippled waters against the bank of the island, for shore it could hardly be called, being so much more like the edge of a full, solemn river. As I walked over the grass towards the cottage, which stood at a little distance from the bank, all the flowers of childhood looked at me with perfect child-eyes out of the grass. My heart, softened by the dreams through which it had passed, overflowed in a sad, tender love towards them. They looked to me like children impregnably fortified in a helpless confidence. The sun stood half-way down the western sky, shining very soft and golden; and there grew a second world of shadows amidst the world of grasses and wild flowers.

The cottage was square, with low walls, and a high pyramidal roof thatched with long reeds, of which the withered blossoms hung over all the eaves. It is noticeable that most of the buildings I saw in Fairy Land were cottages. There was no path to a door, nor, indeed, was there any track worn by footsteps in the island.

The cottage rose right out of the smooth turf. It had no windows that I could see; but there was a door in the centre of the side facing me, up to which I went. I knocked, and the sweetest voice I had ever heard said, “Come in.” I entered. A bright fire was burning on a hearth in the centre of the earthern floor, and the smoke found its way out at an opening in the centre of the pyramidal roof. Over the fire hung a little pot, and over the pot bent a woman-face, the most wonderful, I thought, that I had ever beheld. For it was older than any countenance I had ever looked upon. There was not a spot in which a wrinkle could lie, where a wrinkle lay not. And the skin was ancient and brown, like old parchment. The woman’s form was tall and spare: and when she stood up to welcome me, I saw that she was straight as an arrow. Could that voice of sweetness have issued from those lips of age? Mild as they were, could they be the portals whence flowed such melody? But the moment I saw her eyes, I no longer wondered at her voice: they were absolutely young — those of a woman of five-and-twenty, large, and of a clear gray. Wrinkles had beset them all about; the eyelids themselves were old, and heavy, and worn; but the eyes were very incarnations of soft light. She held out her hand to me, and the voice of sweetness again greeted me, with the single word, “Welcome.” She set an old wooden chair for me, near the fire, and went on with her cooking. A wondrous sense of refuge and repose came upon me. I felt like a boy who has got home from school, miles across the hills, through a heavy storm of wind and snow. Almost, as I gazed on her, I sprang from my seat to kiss those old lips. And when, having finished her cooking, she brought some of the dish she had prepared, and set it on a little table by me, covered with a snow-white cloth, I could not help laying my head on her bosom, and bursting into happy tears. She put her arms round me, saying, “Poor child; poor child!”

As I continued to weep, she gently disengaged herself, and, taking a spoon, put some of the food (I did not know what it was) to my lips, entreating me most endearingly to swallow it. To please her, I made an effort, and succeeded. She went on feeding me like a baby, with one arm round me, till I looked up in her face and smiled: then she gave me the spoon and told me to eat, for it would do me good. I obeyed her, and found myself wonderfully refreshed. Then she drew near the fire an old-fashioned couch that was in the cottage, and making me lie down upon it, sat at my feet, and began to sing. Amazing store of old ballads rippled from her lips, over the pebbles of ancient tunes; and the voice that sang was sweet as the voice of a tuneful maiden that singeth ever from very fulness of song. The songs were almost all sad, but with a sound of comfort. One I can faintly recall. It was something like this:

Sir Aglovaile through the churchyard rode;

    SING, ALL ALONE I LIE:

Little recked he where’er he yode,

    ALL ALONE, UP IN THE SKY.

Swerved his courser, and plunged with fear

    ALL ALONE I LIE:

His cry might have wakened the dead men near,

    ALL ALONE, UP IN THE SKY.

The very dead that lay at his feet,

Lapt in the mouldy winding-sheet.

But he curbed him and spurred him, until he stood

Still in his place, like a horse of wood,

With nostrils uplift, and eyes wide and wan;

But the sweat in streams from his fetlocks ran.

A ghost grew out of the shadowy air,

And sat in the midst of her moony hair.

In her gleamy hair she sat and wept;

In the dreamful moon they lay and slept;

The shadows above, and the bodies below,

Lay and slept in the moonbeams slow.

And she sang, like the moan of an autumn wind

Over the stubble left behind:

Alas, how easily things go wrong!

  A sigh too much, or a kiss too long,

And there follows a mist and a weeping rain,

  And life is never the same again.

Alas, how hardly things go right!

  ’Tis hard to watch on a summer night,

For the sigh will come and the kiss will stay,

  And the summer night is a winter day.

“Oh, lovely ghosts my heart is woes

To see thee weeping and wailing so.

Oh, lovely ghost,” said the fearless knight,

“Can the sword of a warrior set it right?

Or prayer of bedesman, praying mild,

As a cup of water a feverish child,

Sooth thee at last, in dreamless mood

To sleep the sleep a dead lady should?

Thine eyes they fill me with longing sore,

As if I had known thee for evermore.

Oh, lovely ghost, I could leave the day

To sit with thee in the moon away

If thou wouldst trust me, and lay thy head

To rest on a bosom that is not dead.”

The lady sprang up with a strange ghost-cry,

And she flung her white ghost-arms on high:

And she laughed a laugh that was not gay,

And it lengthened out till it died away;

And the dead beneath turned and moaned,

And the yew-trees above they shuddered and groaned.

“Will he love me twice with a love that is vain?

Will he kill the poor ghost yet again?

I thought thou wert good; but I said, and wept:

‘Can I have dreamed who have not slept?’

And I knew, alas! or ever I would,

Whether I dreamed, or thou wert good.

When my baby died, my brain grew wild.

I awoke, and found I was with my child.”

“If thou art the ghost of my Adelaide,

How is it? Thou wert but a village maid,

And thou seemest an angel lady white,

Though thin, and wan, and past delight.”

The lady smiled a flickering smile,

And she pressed her temples hard the while.

“Thou seest that Death for a woman can

Do more than knighthood for a man.”

“But show me the child thou callest mine,

Is she out to-night in the ghost’s sunshine?”

“In St. Peter’s Church she is playing on,

At hide-and-seek, with Apostle John.

When the moonbeams right through the window go,

Where the twelve are standing in glorious show,

She says the rest of them do not stir,

But one comes down to play with her.

Then I can go where I list, and weep,

For good St. John my child will keep.”

“Thy beauty filleth the very air,

Never saw I a woman so fair.”

“Come, if thou darest, and sit by my side;

But do not touch me, or woe will betide.

Alas, I am weak: I might well know

This gladness betokens some further woe.

Yet come. It will come. I will bear it. I can.

For thou lovest me yet — though but as a man.”

The knight dismounted in earnest speed;

Away through the tombstones thundered the steed,

And fell by the outer wall, and died.

But the knight he kneeled by the lady’s side;

Kneeled beside her in wondrous bliss,

Rapt in an everlasting kiss:

Though never his lips come the lady nigh,

And his eyes alone on her beauty lie.

All the night long, till the cock crew loud,

He kneeled by the lady, lapt in her shroud.

And what they said, I may not say:

Dead night was sweeter than living day.

How she made him so blissful glad

Who made her and found her so ghostly sad,

I may not tell; but it needs no touch

To make them blessed who love so much.

“Come every night, my ghost, to me;

And one night I will come to thee.

’Tis good to have a ghostly wife:

She will not tremble at clang of strife;

She will only hearken, amid the din,

Behind the door, if he cometh in.”

And this is how Sir Aglovaile

Often walked in the moonlight pale.

And oft when the crescent but thinned the gloom,

Full orbed moonlight filled his room;

And through beneath his chamber door,

Fell a ghostly gleam on the outer floor;

And they that passed, in fear averred

That murmured words they often heard.

’Twas then that the eastern crescent shone

Through the chancel window, and good St. John

Played with the ghost-child all the night,

And the mother was free till the morning light,

And sped through the dawning night, to stay

With Aglovaile till the break of day.

And their love was a rapture, lone and high,

And dumb as the moon in the topmost sky.

One night Sir Aglovaile, weary, slept

And dreamed a dream wherein he wept.

A warrior he was, not often wept he,

But this night he wept full bitterly.

He woke — beside him the ghost-girl shone

Out of the dark: ’twas the eve of St. John.

He had dreamed a dream of a still, dark wood,

Where the maiden of old beside him stood;

But a mist came down, and caught her away,

And he sought her in vain through the pathless day,

Till he wept with the grief that can do no more,

And thought he had dreamt the dream before.

From bursting heart the weeping flowed on;

And lo! beside him the ghost-girl shone;

Shone like the light on a harbour’s breast,

Over the sea of his dream’s unrest;

Shone like the wondrous, nameless boon,

That the heart seeks ever, night or noon:

Warnings forgotten, when needed most,

He clasped to his bosom the radiant ghost.

She wailed aloud, and faded, and sank.

With upturn’d white face, cold and blank,

In his arms lay the corpse of the maiden pale,

And she came no more to Sir Aglovaile.

Only a voice, when winds were wild,

Sobbed and wailed like a chidden child.

Alas, how easily things go wrong!

A sigh too much, or a kiss too long,

And there follows a mist and a weeping rain,

And life is never the same again.

Show me the child thou callest mine

This was one of the simplest of her songs, which, perhaps, is the cause of my being able to remember it better than most of the others. While she sung, I was in Elysium, with the sense of a rich soul upholding, embracing, and overhanging mine, full of all plenty and bounty. I felt as if she could give me everything I wanted; as if I should never wish to leave her, but would be content to be sung to and fed by her, day after day, as years rolled by. At last I fell asleep while she sang.

When I awoke, I knew not whether it was night or day. The fire had sunk to a few red embers, which just gave light enough to show me the woman standing a few feet from me, with her back towards me, facing the door by which I had entered. She was weeping, but very gently and plentifully. The tears seemed to come freely from her heart. Thus she stood for a few minutes; then, slowly turning at right angles to her former position, she faced another of the four sides of the cottage. I now observed, for the first time, that here was a door likewise; and that, indeed, there was one in the centre of every side of the cottage.

When she looked towards the second door, her tears ceased to flow, but sighs took their place. She often closed her eyes as she stood; and every time she closed her eyes, a gentle sigh seemed to be born in her heart, and to escape at her lips. But when her eyes were open, her sighs were deep and very sad, and shook her whole frame. Then she turned towards the third door, and a cry as of fear or suppressed pain broke from her; but she seemed to hearten herself against the dismay, and to front it steadily; for, although I often heard a slight cry, and sometimes a moan, yet she never moved or bent her head, and I felt sure that her eyes never closed. Then she turned to the fourth door, and I saw her shudder, and then stand still as a statue; till at last she turned towards me and approached the fire. I saw that her face was white as death. But she gave one look upwards, and smiled the sweetest, most child-innocent smile; then heaped fresh wood on the fire, and, sitting down by the blaze, drew her wheel near her, and began to spin. While she spun, she murmured a low strange song, to which the hum of the wheel made a kind of infinite symphony. At length she paused in her spinning and singing, and glanced towards me, like a mother who looks whether or not her child gives signs of waking. She smiled when she saw that my eyes were open. I asked her whether it was day yet. She answered, “It is always day here, so long as I keep my fire burning.”

I felt wonderfully refreshed; and a great desire to see more of the island awoke within me. I rose, and saying that I wished to look about me, went towards the door by which I had entered.

“Stay a moment,” said my hostess, with some trepidation in her voice. “Listen to me. You will not see what you expect when you go out of that door. Only remember this: whenever you wish to come back to me, enter wherever you see this mark.”
Show me the child thou callest mine

She held up her left hand between me and the fire. Upon the palm, which appeared almost transparent, I saw, in dark red, a mark like this which I took care to fix in my mind.

She then kissed me, and bade me good-bye with a solemnity that awed me; and bewildered me too, seeing I was only going out for a little ramble in an island, which I did not believe larger than could easily be compassed in a few hours’ walk at most. As I went she resumed her spinning.

I opened the door, and stepped out. The moment my foot touched the smooth sward, I seemed to issue from the door of an old barn on my father’s estate, where, in the hot afternoons, I used to go and lie amongst the straw, and read. It seemed to me now that I had been asleep there. At a little distance in the field, I saw two of my brothers at play. The moment they caught sight of me, they called out to me to come and join them, which I did; and we played together as we had done years ago, till the red sun went down in the west, and the gray fog began to rise from the river. Then we went home together with a strange happiness. As we went, we heard the continually renewed larum of a landrail in the long grass. One of my brothers and I separated to a little distance, and each commenced running towards the part whence the sound appeared to come, in the hope of approaching the spot where the bird was, and so getting at least a sight of it, if we should not be able to capture the little creature. My father’s voice recalled us from trampling down the rich long gra............