The sisters did not exchange a word until morning, but both of them lay long awake. Monica was the first to lose consciousness; she slept for about an hour, then the pains of a horrid dream disturbed her, and again she took up the burden of thought. Such waking after brief, broken sleep, when mind and body are beset by weariness, yet cannot rest, when night with its awful hush and its mysterious movements makes a strange, dread habitation for the spirit — such waking is a grim trial of human fortitude. The blood flows sluggishly, yet subject to sudden tremors that chill the veins and for an instant choke the heart. Purpose is idle, the will impure; over the past hangs a shadow of remorse, and life that must yet be lived shows lurid, a steep pathway to the hopeless grave. Of this cup Monica drank deeply.

A fear of death compassed her about. Night after night it had thus haunted her. In the daytime she could think of death with resignation, as a refuge from miseries of which she saw no other end; but this hour of silent darkness shook her with terrors. Reason availed nothing; its exercise seemed criminal. The old faiths, never abandoned, though modified by the breath of intellectual freedom that had just touched her, reasserted all their power. She saw herself as a wicked woman, in the eye of truth not less wicked than her husband declared her. A sinner stubborn in impenitence, defending herself by a paltry ambiguity that had all the evil of a direct lie. Her soul trembled in its nakedness.

What redemption could there be for her? What path of spiritual health was discoverable? She could not command herself to love the father of her child; the repugnance with which she regarded him seemed to her a sin against nature, yet how was she responsible for it? Would it profit her to make confession and be humbled before him? The confession must some day be made, if only for her child’s sake; but she foresaw in it no relief of mind. Of all human beings her husband was the one least fitted to console and strengthen her. She cared nothing for his pardon; from his love she shrank. But if there were some one to whom she could utter her thoughts with the certainty of being understood  —

Her sisters had not the sympathetic intelligence necessary for aiding her; Virginia was weaker than she herself, and Alice dealt only in sorrowful commonplaces, profitable perhaps to her own heart, but powerless over the trouble of another’s. Among the few people she had called her friends there was one strong woman — strong of brain, and capable, it might be, of speaking the words that go from soul to soul; this woman she had deeply offended, yet owing to mere mischance. Whether or no Rhoda Nunn had lent ear to Barfoot’s wooing she must be gravely offended; she had given proof of it in the interview reported by Virginia. The scandal spread abroad by Widdowson might even have been fatal to a happiness of which she had dreamt. To Rhoda Nunn some form of reparation was owing. And might not an avowal of the whole truth elicit from her counsel of gratitude — some solace, some guidance?

Amid the tremors of night Monica felt able to take this step, for the mere chance of comfort that it offered. But when day came the resolution had vanished; shame and pride again compelled her to silence.

And this morning she had new troubles to think about. Virginia was keeping her room; would admit no one; answered every whisper of appeal with brief, vague words that signified anything or nothing. The others breakfasted in gloom that harmonized only too well with the heavy, dripping sky visible from their windows. Only at midday did Alice succeed in obtaining speech with her remorseful sister. They were closeted together for more than an hour, and the elder woman came forth at last with red, tear-swollen eyes.

‘We must leave her alone today,’ she said to Monica. ‘She won’t take any meal. Oh, the wretched state she is in! If only I could have known of this before!’

‘Has it been going on for very long?’

‘It began soon after she went to live at Mrs. Conisbee’s. She has told me all about it — poor girl, poor thing! Whether she can ever break herself of it, who knows? She says that she will take the pledge of total abstinence, and I encouraged her to do so; it may be some use, don’t you think?’

‘Perhaps — I don’t know —’

‘But I have no faith in her reforming unless she goes away from London. She thinks herself that only a new life in a new place will give her the strength. My dear, at Mrs. Conisbee’s she starved herself to have money to buy spirits; she went without any food but dry bread day after day.’

‘Of course that made it worse. She must have craved for support.’

‘Of course. And your husband knows about it. He came once when she was in that state — when you were away —’

Monica nodded sullenly, her eyes averted.

‘Her life has been so dreadfully unhealthy. She seems to have become weak-minded. All her old interests have gone; she reads nothing but novels, day after day.’

‘I have noticed that.’

‘How can we help her, Monica? Won’t you make a sacrifice for the poor girl’s sake? Cannot I persuade you, dear? Your position has a bad influence on her; I can see it has. She worries so about you, and then tries to forget the trouble — you know how.’

Not that day, nor the next, could Monica listen to these entreaties. But her sister at length prevailed. It was late in the evening; Virginia had gone to bed, and the others sat silently, without occupation. Miss Madden, after several vain efforts to speak, bent forward and said in a low, grave voice  —

‘Monica — you are deceiving us all. You are guilty.’

‘Why do you say that?’

‘I know it. I have watched you. You betray yourself when you are thinking.’

The other sat with brows knitted, with hard, defiant lips.

‘All your natural affection is dead, and only guilt could have caused that. You don’t care what becomes of your sister. Only the fear, or the evil pride, that comes of guilt could make you refuse what we ask of you. You are afraid to let your husband know of your condition.’

Alice could not have spoken thus had she not believed what she said. The conviction had become irresistible to her mind. Her voice quivered with intensity of painful emotion.

‘That last is true,’ said her sister, when there had been silence for a minute.

‘You confess it? O Monica —’

‘I don’t confess what you think,’ went on the younger, with more calmness than she had yet commanded in these discussions.

‘Of that I am not guilty. I am afraid of his knowing, because he will never believe me. I have a proof which would convince anyone else; but, even if I produced it, it would be no use. I don’t think it is possible to persuade him-when once he knows —’

‘If you were innocent you would disregard that.’

‘Listen to me, Alice. If I were guilty I should not be living here at his expense. I only consented to do that when I knew what my condition was. But for this thing I should have refused to accept another penny from him. I should have drawn upon my own money until I was able to earn my own living again. If you won’t believe this it shows you know nothing of me. Your reading of my face is all foolishness.’

‘I would to God I were sure of what you say!’ moaned Miss Madden, with vehemence which seemed extraordinary in such a feeble, flabby person.

‘You know that I told my husband lies,’ exclaimed Monica, ‘so you think I am never to be trusted. I did tell him lies; I can’t deny it, and I am ashamed of it. But I am not a deceitful woman — I can say that boldly. I love the truth better than falsehood. If it weren’t for that I should never have left home. A deceitful woman, in my circumstances — you don’t understand them — would have cheated her husband into forgiving her — such a husband as mine. She would have calculated the most profitable course. I left my husband because it was hateful to me to be with a man for whom I had lost every trace of affection. In keeping away from him I am acting honestly. But I have told you that I am also afraid of his making a discovery. I want him to believe — when the time comes —’

She broke off.

‘Then, Monica, you ought to make known to him what you have been concealing. If you are telling the truth, that confession can’t be anything very dreadful.’

‘Alice, I am willing to make an agreement. If my husband will promise never to come near Clevedon until I send for him I will go and live there with you and Virgie.’

‘He has promised that, darling,’ cried Miss Madden delightedly.

‘Not to me. He has only said that he will make his home in London for a time: that means he would come whenever he wished, if it were only to speak to you and Virgie. But he must undertake never to come near until I give him permission. If he will promise this, and keep his word, I pledge myself to let him know the whole truth in less than a year. Whether I live or die, he shall be told the truth in less than a year.’

Before going to bed Alice wrote and dispatched a few lines to Widdowson, requesting an interview with him as soon as possible. She would come to his house at any hour he liked to appoint. The next afternoon brought a reply, and that same evening Miss Madden went to Herne Hill. As a result of what passed there, a day or two saw the beginning of the long-contemplated removal to Clevedon. Widdowson found a lodging in the neighbourhood of his old home; he had engaged never to cross the bounds of Somerset until he received his wife’s permission.

As soon as this compact was established Monica wrote to Miss Nunn. A short submissive letter. ‘I am about to leave London, and before I go I very much wish to see you. Will you allow me to call at some hour when I could speak to you in private? There is something I must make known to you, and I cannot write it.’ After a day’s interval came the reply, which was still briefer. Miss Nunn would be at home at half-past eight this or the next evening.

Monica’s announcement that she must go out alone after nightfall alarmed her sisters. When told that her visit was to Rhoda Nunn they were somewhat relieved, but Alice begged to be permitted to accompany her.

‘It will be lost trouble,’ Monica declared. ‘More likely than not there is a spy waiting to follow me wherever I go. Your assurance that I really went to Miss Barfoot’s won’t be needed.’

When the others still opposed her purpose she passed from irony into anger.

‘Have you undertaken to save him the expense of private detectives? Have you promised never to let me go out of your sight?’

‘Certainly I have not,’ said Alice.

‘Nor I, dear,’ protested Virginia. ‘He has never asked anything of the kind.’

‘Then you may be sure that the spies are still watching me. Let them have something to do, poor creatures. I shall go alone, so you needn’t say any more.’

She took train to York Road Station, and thence, as the night was fine, walked to Chelsea. This semblance of freedom, together with the sense of having taken a courageous resolve, raised her spirits. She hoped that a detective might be tracking her; the futility of such measures afforded her a contemptuous satisfaction. Not to arrive before the appointed hour she loitered on Chelsea Embankment, and it gave her pleasure to reflect that in doing this she was outraging the proprieties. Her mind was in a strange tumult of rebellious and distrustful thought. She had determined on making a confession to Rhoda; but would she benefit by it? Was Rhoda generous enough to appreciate her motives? It did not matter much. She would have discharged a duty at the expense of such shame, and this fact alone might strengthen her to face the miseries beyond.

As she stood at Miss Barfoot’s door he heart quailed. To the servant who opened she could only speak Miss Nunn’s name; fortunately instructions had been given, and she was straightway led to the library. Here she waited for nearly five minutes. Was Rhoda doing this on purpose? Her face, when at length she entered, made it seem probable’, a cold dignity, only not offensive haughtiness, appeared in her bearing. She did not offer to shake hands, and used no form of civility beyond requesting her visitor to be seated.

‘I am going away,’ Monica began, when silence compelled her to speak.

‘Yes, so you told me.’

‘I can see that you can’t understand why I have come.’

‘Your note only said that you wished to see me.’

Their eyes met, and Monica knew in the moment that succeeded that she was being examined from head to foot. It seemed to her that she had undertaken something beyond her strength; her impulse was to invent a subject of brief conversation and escape into the darkness. But Miss Nunn spoke again.

‘Is it possible that I can be of any service to you?’

‘Yes. You might be. But — I find it is very difficult to say what I—’

Rhoda waited, offering no help whatever, not even that of a look expressing interest.

‘Will you tell me, Miss Nunn, why you behave so coldly to me?’

‘Surely that doesn’t need any explanation, Mrs. Widdowson?’

‘You mean that you believe everything Mr. Widdowson has said?’

‘Mr. Widdowson has said nothing to me. But I have seen your sister, and there seemed no reason to doubt what she told me.’

‘She couldn’t tell you the truth, because she doesn’t know it.’

‘I presume she at least told no untruth.’

‘What did Virginia say? I think I have a right to ask that.’

Rhoda appeared to doubt it. She turned her eyes to the nearest bookcase, and for a moment reflected.

‘Your affairs don’t really concern me, Mrs. Widdowson,’ she said at length. ‘They have been forced upon my attention, and perhaps I regard them from a wrong point of view. Unless you have come to defend yourself against a false accusation, is there any profit in our talking of these things?’

‘I have come for that.’

‘Then I am not so unjust as to refuse to hear you.’

‘My name has been spoken of together with Mr. Barfoot’s. This is wrong. It began from a mistake.’

Monica could not shape her phrases. Hastening to utter the statement that would relieve her from Miss Nunn’s personal displeasure, she used the first simple words that rose to her lips.

‘When I went to Bayswater that day I had no thought of seeing Mr. Barfoot. I wished to see someone else.’

The listener manifested more attention. She could not mistake the signs of sincerity in Monica’s look and speech.

‘Some one,’ she asked coldly, ‘who was living with Mr. Barfoot?’

‘No. Some one in the same building; in another flat. When I knocked at Mr. Barfoot’s door, I knew — or I felt sure — no one would answer. I knew Mr. Barfoot was going away that day — going into Cumberland.’

Rhoda’s look was fixed on the speaker’s countenance.

‘You knew he was going to Cumberland?’ she asked in a slow, careful voice.

‘He told me so. I met him, qu............