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CHAPTER XXV. MINNA BETTERS HERSELF.
Away over in London, the winter had passed far less happily for poor little Minna than it had passed at Rome for Colin Churchill. While he had been writing home enthusiastically of the blue skies and invigorating air of that delicious Italy, the fogs in London had been settling down with even more than their customary persistency over the great grey gloomy winter city. While he had been filled with the large-hearted generosity of that noble fellow Maragliano—\'May I not be proud, Minna,\' he wrote, \'to have known such a man, to have heard his soft Genoese accents, to have watched his wonderful chisel at its work, to have listened to his glorious sentiments on art?\'—she, poor girl, had found prim, precise, old-maidish Miss Woollacott harder to endure and more pernicketty to live with than ever. Now that Colin was gone, she had nobody to sympathise with her; nobody to whose ear she might confide those thousand petty daily personal annoyances which are to women (with all sympathetic reverence be it written) far more serious hindrances to the pursuit of happiness than the greatest misfortunes that can possibly overtake them. Worst of all, Colin, she was afraid, didn\'t even seem to miss her. She was so miserable in London without him; so full of grief and loneliness at his absence; while he was apparently enjoying himself in Rome quite as much without her as if she had been all the time within ten minutes\' walk of his attic lodging. How perfectly happy he seemed to be in his intercourse with this Signor Maragliano that he wrote to her about! How he revelled in the nymphs, and the Apollos, and the Niobes! How his letters positively overflowed with life and enthusiasm! She was glad of it, of course, very glad of it. It was so nice to think that dear Colin should at last be mingling in the free artistic life for which she knew he was so well fitted: should be moving about among those splendid Greek and Roman things he was so very fond of. But still... well, Minna did wish that there was just a little more trace in his letters of his being sorry to be so very, very far away from her.

Besides, what dreadful note of warning was this that sounded so ominously on Sunday mornings, when she had half an hour later to lie in bed and read over all Colin\'s back letters—for she kept them religiously? What dreadful note of warning was this that recurred so often?—\'Miss Howard-Russell, a niece of the old vicar\'s, and a cousin of Lord Beaminster\'s, who, I told you, came with me from Paris to Rome in the same carriage\'... And then again, \'Miss Howard-Russell, whose name I daresay you remember\'—oh, didn\'t she?—\'came into the studio this morning and was full of praise of my figure in the clay from the living model.\' And now here once more, in to-day\'s letter, \'Miss Howard-Russell was at the picnic, looking very pretty,\' (oh, Colin, Colin, how could you!) \'and I took her round through a beautiful gallery of oaks\' (Italianisai for avenue, already, but uncritical little Minna never spotted it) \'to an old Roman archway where Winthrop was painting a clever water-colour. I believe Winthrop admires her very much\' (Minna fervently hoped his admiration would take a practical form:) \'but she doesn\'t seem at all to notice him.\' Why, how closely Colin must have watched her! Minna wasn\'t by any means satisfied with the habits and manners of this Miss Howard-Russell. And the insolence of the woman too! to go and be a cousin to the Earl of Beaminster! Unless you happen to have lived in the western half of Dorsetshire yourself, you can have no idea how exalted a personage a cousin of the Earl of Beaminster appeared in the eyes of the Wootton Mande-ville fisherman\'s daughter.

\'Minna Wroe,\' Miss Woollacott observed in her tart voice, as the little pupil-teacher came down to breakfast on the Sunday morning after the picnic, \'you\'re nearly seven minutes late—six minutes and forty-nine seconds, to be precisely accurate: and I\'ve been all that time sitting here with my hands before me waiting prayers for you. And, Minna Wroe, I\'ve noticed that since that young man you describe as your cousin went to Rome, you\'ve had a letter with a foreign stamp upon it every Sunday. And when those letters arrive I observe that you\'re almost invariably late for breakfast. Now, Minna Wroe, I should advise you to write to your cousin\'—with a strong emphasis of sarcastic doubt upon the last word—\'asking him to make his communications a little less frequent: or else not to lie in bed quite so late in the morning reading your cousin\'s weekly effusions. Family affection\'s an excellent thing in its way, no doubt, but it may go a little too far in the table of affinities.\'

Instead of answering, to Miss Woollacott\'s great surprise, poor little Minna burst suddenly into an uncontrollable flood of tears.

Now Miss Woollacott wasn\'t really cruel or ill-natured, but merely desiccated and fossilised, after the fashion of her kind, by the long drying-up process incidental to her unfortunate condition and unhappy calling: and moreover, she shared the common and pardonable inability of all women (I say \'all\' this time advisedly) to see another woman crying without immediately kneeling down beside her, and taking her hands in hers, and trying with all her heart to comfort and console her.

So in a few minutes, what with Miss Woollacott saying \'There, there, dear, I didn\'t mean to hurt your feelings,\' and smoothing Minna\'s hair tenderly with her skinny old fingers (worn to the bone in the hard struggle), and muttering to herself audibly, \'I hadn\'t the least idea that that was what was really the matter,\'—Minna was soon restored to equanimity for the present at least, and Miss Woollacott, forgetting even to read prayers in her discomposure (\'Which it\'s the only time, mum,\' said Anne the slavey to the landlady, \'as ever I know\'d the ole cat to miss them since fust she come here\') went on with the breakfast, beaten all along the line, and trying to pass off \'this unpleasantness\' by pretending to talk as unconcernedly as possible about every distracted idea that happened to come uppermost in her poor old scantily-furnished and disconnected cranium. But when breakfast was over, and Minna had positively kissed Miss Woollacott (an unheard-of liberty), and begged her not to trouble herself any more about the matter, for she wasn\'t really offended, and didn\'t in the least mind about it she went off upstairs to her own room alone, and sat down, and had a good cry all by herself with Colin\'s letters, and sent down word by Anne the slavey, that if Miss Woollacott would kindly excuse her she didn\'t feel equal to going to church that morning. \'And the ole cat, she acshally up and says, you\'d hardly believe it, mum, says she, “Well, Anne, an\' if Miss Wroe doesn\'t feel equal to it,” says she, “I think as how she\'d better lie down a bit and rest herself, poor thing,” says she: and when she said it, mum, you could \'a knocked me down with a feather, a\'most, I was that took aback at the ole cat\'s acshally goin\' and sayin\' it. Which I do reely think she must be goin\' to be took ill or somethin\', or else what for should she go an\' answer one back so kind and chrischun-like, mum, if she didn\'t feel her end was a comin\'?\'

And old Miss Woollacott, putting on her thin-worn thread gloves for Church upon her thin-worn skinny fingers, felt softened and saddened, and remembered with a sigh that though she had never positively had a lover herself—not a declared one, that is to say—for who knows how many hearts she may have broken in silence?—she was once young herself, and fancied she might some day have one of her own, just as well as her sister Susan, who married the collector of water-rates; and if so, she was dimly conscious in her own poor old shrivelled feminine heart, much battered though it was in its hard struggle for life till it had somewhat hardened itself on the strictest Darwinian principles in adaptation to the environment, that she too under the same circumstances would have acted very much as Minna Wroe did.

But as Minna lay on her bed alone through that Sunday morning, only for a short time disturbed by the obtrusive sympathy of Anne the slavey, she began to think to herself that it was really very dangerous after all to let Colin remain at Rome without her; and that she ought to try sooner or later to go over and join him there. And as she turned this all but impossible scheme over in her head (for if even Cohn found it hard to get over to Italy, how could she, poor girl, ever expect to find the money for such a long journey, or subsistence afterwards?), a sudden glorious and brilliant possibility flashed all unexpectedly upon her bewildered mental vision:—

Why not try to go to Rome as a governess?

It was a wild and impossible idea—too impossible to be worth discussing almost—and yet, the more she thought about it, the more feasible did it seem to become to her excited imagination. Not immediately, of course: not all at once and without due preparation. Minna Wroe had learnt the ways of the world in too hard a school of slow self-education not to know already how deep you must lay your plans, and how long you must be prepared to work them, if you hope for success in any difficult earthly speculation. But she might at least make a beginning and keep her eyes open. The first thing was to get to be a governess; the next was, to look out for openings in the direction of Italy.

It seems easy enough at first sight to be a governess; the occupation is one open to any woman who knows how to spell decently, which is far from being a rare or arduous accomplishment; and yet Minna Wroe felt at once that in her case the difficulties to be got over were practically almost insuperable. If she had only been a man, now, nobody would have asked who she was, or where she came from: they would have been satisfied with looking at her credentials and reading over the perfunctory testimonials of her pastors and masters to her deserts and merits. But as she was only a woman, they would of course want to inquire all about her; and if once they discovered that she had been in a place as a servant, it would be all up with her chances of employment for ever. The man who rises makes for himself his own position; but the woman who rises has to fight all her life long to keep down the memory of her small beginnings. That is part and parcel of our modern English Christian conception of the highest chivalry.

Little Minna Wroe, however, with her round gipsy face and pretty black eyes, was not the sort of person to be put down in what she proposed to do by any amount of initial difficulty. If the thing was possible, she would stoutly fight her way through to it. So the very next morning, during recess time, she determined to strike while the iron was hot, and went off bravely through the rain to a neighbouring Governesses\' Agency. It was one of the wretched places where some lazy hulking agent fellow, assisted by his stout wife, makes a handsome living by charging poor helpless girls ten per cent, on their paltry pittance of a first year\'s salary, in return for an introduction to patrons too indolent to hunt up a governess for themselves by any more humane and considerate method. These are the relatively honest and respectable agencies: the dishonest and disreputable ones make a still simpler livelihood by charging an entrance-fee beforehand, and never introducing anybody anywhere.

Minna put her name down upon the agent\'s list, but was wise enough not to be inveigled into paying the preliminary two-and-sixpence. The consequence was that the agent, seeing his only chance of making anything out of her lay in the result of getting her a situation, sent her from time to time due notice of persons in want of a nursery governess. Minna applied to several of these in rotation, her idea being, first to get herself started in a place anyhow, and then to look out for another in a family who were going to Italy. But as she made it a matter of principle to tell inquiring employers frankly that she had once been out at service, before she went to the North London Birkbeck Girls\' School, she generally found that they, one and all, made short shrift of her. Of course it\'s quite impossible (and in a Christian land, too,) to let one\'s children be brought up by a young person who has once been a domestic servant.

One day, however, before many weeks, Minna received a note from the agency, asking her whether she could call round at half-past eleven, to see two persons who were in want of nursery governesses. It was recess-hour, luckily, so she buttoned up her neat plain cloth jacket, and put on her simple straw hat, and went round to meet the inquiring employers.

The first inquiry, the agent said, was from a clergyman—Reverend Walton and wife, now waiting in the ante-room. Reverend Walton, Miss Wroe: Miss Wroe, Reverend Walton and Mrs. Walton.

Minna bowed. The Reverend Walton (as the agent described him with official brevity), without taking the slightest notice of Minna, whispered audibly to his wife: \'This one really looks as if she\'d do, Amelia. Dress perfectly respectable. No ribbons and laces and fal-lal tomfoolery. Perfectly presentable, perfectly.\'

Minna coloured violently; but the Reverend Walton\'s wife answered in the same stage aside: \'Quite a proper young woman as far as appearance goes, certainly, Cyril. And fifteen pounds a year, Mr. Coppinger said, would probably suit her.\'

Minna coloured still more deeply. It couldn\'t be called a promising beginning. (She had sixteen pounds already, by the way, when she had been a parlour-maid. Such are the prizes of the higher education for women in the scholastic profession.)

They whispered together for a little while longer, less audibly, and then Mrs. Walton began closely to cross-question the little pupil-teacher. Minna answered all her questions satisfactorily—she had been baptised, confirmed, was a member of the Church of England, played the piano, could teach elementary French, had an excellent temper, didn\'t mind dining with the children, would go to early communion, could mend dresses and tuckers, wasn\'t particular about her food, never read books of an irreligious tendency, and would assist in the housework of the nursery whenever necessary.

\'In fact,\' Minna said, with as much quiet dignity as she could command, \'I\'m not at all afraid of house-work, because (I think I ought to tell you) I was out at service for some years before I went to the Birkbeck Schools.\' Reverend Walton lifted his eyebrows in subdued astonishment. Mrs. Walton coughed drily. Then they held another whispered confabulation for a few minutes, and at the end of it Mrs. Walton suggested blandly, in a somewhat altered tone of voice, \'Suppose in that case we were to say fourteen pounds and all found, and were to try to do altogether without the nursemaid?\'

Though Minna saw that this was economy with a vengeance—cutting her down another pound, and saving the whole of the nursemaid\'s wages—she was so anxious to find some chance of rejoining Colin that she answered somewhat reluctantly, \'If you think that would be best, I shouldn\'t mind trying it.\'

\'Oh, if it comes to that,\' Mrs. Walton said loftily, \'we don\'t want anybody to come to us by way of a favour. Whoever accepts our post must accept it willingly, thankfully, and in a truly religious spirit, as a door thrown open to them liberally for doing good in.\'

Minna bowed faintly. \'I would accept the situation,\' she said as well as she was able, though the words stuck in her throat (for was she not taking it as a horrid necessity, for Colin\'s sake only?) \'in just that spirit.\'

Mrs. Walton nodded her triumph. \'That\'ll do then,\' she sa............
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