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Part Three Chapter 1 Married Life
Arthur’s life was now pent within a narrower course than ever hitherto. With the exception of Mark Challenger and William Noble he saw no friends, and even these very occasionally. During the day he worked hard for his living, but throughout those hours of labour, as at every other moment of his working time, his thoughts revolved around the petty circumstances of his home life. All wider aims and aspirations seemed to have perished from his mind; if ever his thoughts recurred to them it was to dwell upon them as the vanished joys of a past life. For six months the single room which he occupied with his wife was the sole scene of his existence. It becomes our duty now to trace out as rapidly as is consistent with clear delineation the drama which was there played.

Arthur brought his wife home in an intoxication of joy and hope. Carrie was now his, his to guard, to foster, to cherish; his, moreover, to lead into higher paths than her feet had yet known, to develop, in short, into the ideal woman that his imagination had for years loved to depict. He resolved that this should henceforth be the main task of his life. In long conversations with William Noble he exposed all his plans and hopes, asking and receiving advice in detail, and always deriving encouragement from this clear-headed and warm-hearted friend. From Noble he concealed nothing. The assurance of the latter’s sincere friendship was invaluable to him, and helped to support him in many an hour of what would otherwise have been despair.

He lost not a day in commencing the plan he had conceived for Carrie’s education. She must first be taught to read, write and speak with correctness. When on the first day of their married life, Arthur drew Carrie to his side, and in a gentle but firm tone of explanation told her of his intention, she listened with a peculiar expression of countenance, partly amused, partly astonished, partly apprehensive, but wholly incomprehensive. Notwithstanding the seriousness of Arthur’s demeanour she evidently felt convinced that it was some curious joke he was playing on her, but a joke of which she was not quite able to understand the fun.

“For how long did you go to school at home, Carrie?” asked Arthur, holding her upon his knee and caressing her long dark hair as he spoke.

“Two years, I think,” she replied.

“And what did they teach you at school?”

“Why, what do they always teach at schools? Reading and writing, of course.”

“Nothing else?”

“What else is there to be taught?”

“No geography, or history?”

“I don’t know what that is,” she replied, with a somewhat contemptuous smile on her beautiful features. “No, they didn’t teach me that.”

“But I am sure you would like to know all these, and to be a clever woman, wouldn’t you, dearest?”

Carrie shrugged her shoulders a little, but made no immediate reply. Arthur was about to proceed in his coaxing when she interrupted him.

“Do you ever earn more than forty-five shillings a week, Arthur?” she asked, passing her fingers through the hair upon his forehead.

“Oh, never mind that at present,” he said, laughing. “Let us talk a little about your education. Will Carrie promise to do as I wish her and spend a few hours a day in teaching herself to read well and write without mistakes?”

“I shan’t never be able to do that,” she replied, shaking her head and evidently thinking of something widely different.

“Shan’t ever, you mean,” corrected Arthur.

She looked at him in surprise.

“You won’t mind me correcting you when you make mistakes in speaking, will you, dearest?” said Arthur.

“Oh, then we shan’t be able to talk at all,” returned Carrie, rather pettishly. “You say I make so many mistakes, and I’m sure I shan’t never be no better, however much you trouble.”

Arthur thrust his fingers into his ears and made a wry face as though something had hurt him.

“Shan’t ever be any better, you mean,” he said. “Never mind, Carrie; you will get better for all that; I am determined you shall. Now, here’s a book. Let me hear you read a little.”

Carrie took the volume and inspected it for a few moments, then, in all probability finding it beyond her powers, gave it back to Arthur.

“Oh, what’s the good of it all?” she asked, impatiently. “It won’t make me cook dinners no better.”

The conversation was long and curious, but, by the exercise of wonderful patience and good-humour, aided, of course, by the deep love he bore her, Arthur succeeded at length in persuading Carrie to let him set her brief and easy tasks, which she faithfully promised she would perform in his absence from home during the following day. There were a few words of which the spelling was to be learnt, half a page to write in a copy-book, and a short piece of poetry to get by heart.

On the following evening Arthur returned home with a glad and hopeful heart. Hoping to give Carrie a pleasant surprise he stole upstairs in the completest silence. The door of his room was closed, but he could perceive that a light burnt within; though he listened he could hear no voice. He knocked, in the manner of a stranger. In a moment Carrie opened the door, and, peering into the darkness, instantly saw who it was, then with a joyful cry sprang and threw her arms around his neck. The room was in nice order; the few additional articles of furniture which Arthur had procured for Carrie’s special pleasure were neatly arranged round the room, and the cloth spread upon the table gave hopeful promise of dinner. But what gave Arthur still more joy was the sight of Carrie’s copy-book lying open on the side-table, as if she had just been occupied at it.

Resolved not to become a pedantic bore, Arthur ate his dinner with vast enjoyment, and then devoted half an hour to lover’s-talk with Carrie, before he broached the subject of lessons.

“Has the day seemed long, darling?” he asked at length, by way of getting round to the delicate topic.

“Oh, very long,” she replied. “I don’t know what I shall do without you always, Arthur.”

“But I see your copy-book there. That’s a good sign. Come, let me look at what you have done, Carrie.”

“Oh, not to-night,” she answered. “I haven’t done much, and it’s dreadful bad.”

“Never mind, let me see. You are not afraid of me, Carrie?”

At length he persuaded her to bring him the book. Two lines were written, and it was no exaggeration to say they were “dreadful bad.”

“There, I knew you’d only make fun of me,” said Carrie, snatching the book from his hand, as she noticed a slight elevation of the eyebrows which he could not resist.

“I shouldn’t dream of making fun of you, darling,” he replied earnestly. “It is too grave a matter for joking. Now let me show you how you can do it better next time. Come and sit by me at the table, love, and bring your pen.”

“No, not now,” she persisted impatiently. “I’m tired to death. If you’d had a room to clean up and a dinner to cook, you wouldn’t want to be bothering with reading and writing.”

Arthur was silent for a moment, sitting with downcast eyes. “But I have been hard at work all day, Carrie,” he urged gently, as soon as he could trust his voice. “I think my work is at least as hard as yours; and yet I am anxious to do more now for your sake, dearest. Besides yours has been only work with the hands. You can listen to what I say, and rest at the same time: Come and sit by me, Carrie.”

With some hesitation she took a chair at his side. Carrie had a slow, sidling way of walking which was never very agreeable to see, and the ungracious way in which she now obeyed his request gave Arthur acute pain.

“Where are the other books?” he asked, quietly. “Have you learnt the spelling and the poetry?”

She looked away from him and made no answer.

“Weren’t you able to do it, dearest?” he asked, passing his arm affectionately round her. “Did you try, Carrie?”

“Yes, I tried,” she returned. “But the words were too hard, and I couldn’t understand the other stuff a bit.”

“The other stuff” signified the first three verses of the “Ancient Mariner.” Arthur felt annoyed to hear a favourite poem so designated.

“But it is very simple, dear,” he urged. “Let us read it together, and I’m sure you will understand it.”

“Oh, what’s the use of bothering!” she returned. “I’m tired now. I’ll look at it again tomorrow.”

Then she added, directly, “Arthur, where do you keep the money you save?”

This was agony to him. It is all very well to say that on the second day after his marriage he ought to have been as much in love with his wife as to care for nothing but listening to her heedless talk and to think everything worthy of detestation which caused her the least annoyance. Arthur’s nature being what it was, such love as this was impossible to him. What he intensely loved, he could not but wish intensely to respect. The pity which had originated his love was in itself a species of respect; he had convinced himself by force of emotion that Carrie could not deserve the suffering she endured, and he had almost reverenced her as an instance of unmerited misfortune. Then of course her striking personal beauty had forced him to look up to her as something superior. He could not believe that such outward perfection could exist with a common-place and sterile nature. When he openly declared to her his affection, the warmth with which she reciprocated it had added another link to his chain by convincing him of the strength of her feelings. He felt that an indifferent, passionless woman would have been intolerable to him. But now a vague dread began to encroach like an unnatural darkness upon his heart, a terrible fear lest he might have deceived himself not only with regard to her intelligence, but also as to the extent of her affection for him. He could not bear the suspicion. At all costs he must throw it off. Possibly it might force itself on him later, gain ground surely and with the pitiless persistency of fate, but as yet it was too, too early. Why, he had scarcely tasted the fulness of his joy; should the cup already be dashed from his lips?

“There, never mind the books to-night, Carrie!” he exclaimed gaily. “Throw away the copy-book! we will think of them again tomorrow. Look cheerful again, darling. Come and sit on my knee and tell me how much you love me.”

Carrie was all radiance at once, and as pretty a lovers’ tattle followed as novelist might wish to chronicle; but — somehow or other I have no taste for it. Perhaps the shadow of coming events falls already upon me and makes me gloomy.

A week elapsed. The first lesson had at length been struggled through, though with little good result as regards Carrie’s temper. In the ensuing week Arthur had calculated that he would be more exacting. He began by persistent correction of his wife’s speech, which was indeed faulty enough. The speedy result was that he brought about an outbreak of temper such as he had never conceived possible.

“Why don’t you let me speak as I’m used to?” cried Carrie, starting up with flashing eyes, one night when Arthur had interrupted her in every sentence for a quarter of an hour. “What’s the good of tormenting me in that way. If you wanted to marry a grammar-machine you should have looked somewheres else, and not have taken up with me! You can understand what I mean, well enough, and what more do you want, I’d like to know? I shan’t speak at all, that’s what I shall do, and then maybe you’ll be satisfied.”

And she flung herself into a chair by the fire-side, with her back to Arthur.

Arthur’s temper was severely tried. For some minutes he bit his lips to restrain the angry words which all but made their way. His face burned and his throat was so dry and hot that he could scarcely breathe.

“You are unkind and unjust to speak so to me, Carrie,” he began at length. “Do you think I do it to annoy you? Do you think I take a pleasure in it? I assure you I do it as a duty; I force myself to correct you when I would gladly think of other things.”

“Then why do you give yourself the bother?” retorted Carrie, without moving. “No one wants you.”

“But you should want me to,” persisted Arthur, drawing near to her, and speaking in a calm though forcible tone of explanation. “Can’t you see, Carrie, that it is for your own good? Do you like to make mistakes in speaking?”

No answer.

“Do you wish to render my whole life miserable, Carrie?” he pursued. “It lies in your power either to make me completely happy or completely wretched. Do you prefer to make me wretched?”

It was an important sentence. Had Arthur been cool enough to reflect on the experience he had already acquired of woman’s illogicality, he would never have ventured to speak thus.

“Oh, I make you miserable, do I?” she said, starting up from her chair. “I can precious soon take myself off. Perhaps you’ll be happy then. Let me go past! I’ve earnt my living before now, and I dare say I can do it again. I won’t stay here any longer to make you miserable.”

Arthur was in despair. With trembling fingers Carrie was putting on her hat and jacket, and seemed in earnest in her purpose to depart. He felt that he had not deserved this treatment. A burning sense of injustice raged within his heart, and withheld him from confessing that he was wrong, and begging for pardon. Doubtless, also, there was something of stubbornness in his disposition. Though Carrie was a long time in dressing, much longer than was necessary, he did not stir to prevent her. He stood with his eyes fixed upon the floor.

She was dressed, but did not move towards the door. After a few moments of absolute silence, she moved towards him and held out her hand.

“Good-bye, Arthur,” she said. “I don’t want to make you miserable longer than I can help.”

The last word was broken with a sob. Arthur looked up and saw that the tears were coursing fast down her cheeks. This was too much. In a moment he folded her in his arms, and kissed away the tears with passionate warmth.

“Why will you so cruelly misunderstand me, darling?” he whispered, as she leaned her head upon his shoulder. “Do you think I take a pleasure in annoying you? Some day you will see the reason of all I say and do, and you will thank me for taking such pains with you. It’s terrible for me to make you so angry. Promise me, dear Carrie, that you will try to understand me better, that you will try to do as I wish. Indeed, indeed, it is for your good. Will you believe me, darling?”

In this way at length the quarrel was made up, but the same night Arthur, with great difficulty, succeeded in getting permission from Carrie to visit William Noble, and to him he made known all his afflictions. Noble listened attentively, but with a pained expression on his countenance.

“This is very soon to begin quarrelling, Golding,” he said, when his friend had done. “Don’t you think you are too peremptory, too exacting? You must remember the old proverb, that Rome wasn’t built in a day; and I can assure you there is nothing requiring so much tact, patience and quiet perseverance as the education of a grown-up person, especially a woman. You must not expect too much you know.”

“Good God!” exclaimed Arthur, impatiently, “is it possible for a man to entertain more humble pretentions than I do? Is it too much to beg and pray her to write and read for half-an-hour a day? Am I too exacting when I rejoice if she learns to spell only one word of two syllables, or corrects some single outrageous error in her pronunciation? Do you think this too much to expect, Noble?”

“It doesn’t appear very exorbitant, does it?” returned William, smiling. “But there is a great deal in manner, you know. Do you think you are gentle enough? Don’t you lose patience too quickly, and correct her harshly?”

“How can you ask me such questions, Noble? Isn’t she my wife, and haven’t I told you that, spite of all her imperfections, I love her passionately, and would not retract my steps for the world! How is it possible that I could speak harshly to her? I use the gentlest persuasions. I put it to her in every possible form I know, that she ought to do this for her own sake.”

“How does she employ her days?” asked Noble.

“Oh, women always find enough to do,” replied his friend. “She sews a good deal, she has the meals to prepare, and walks out now and then when it is fine. But all that would leave her plenty of time to do what I ask of her.”

“Has she any kind of society besides your own?”

“Most unfortunately not,” replied Arthur, “and that is one of the sore points. The landlady is a very decent woman, and would willingly afford her company now and then, but Carrie has conceived a most inexplicable dislike to her. I can’t persuade her from it; in this, as in many other matters, she is terribly self-willed.”

“You must confess, Golding,” said Noble, “that this loneliness is a very bad thing for her. When one spends day after day in solitariness, one loses energy, and acquires a distaste for everything.”

“True, but how can it be avoided? It isn’t likely I could permit her to return to her old acquaintances of the workrooms, and her relatives she will certainly have nothing to do with. You see, I am such a lonely fellow myself; I cannot boast a female acquaintance except my wife.”

“Well, well, we must hope for better things,” said Noble, encouragingly. “Depend upon it she will find suitable friends before very long. In the meantime, Golding, you must exercise the utmost forbearance. Remember what a tremendous responsibility you have taken upon yourself. I don’t think you are the man for shirking a duty, however disagreeable, Golding. Your way is clear before you, and, so long as you don’t stray from it, I fear you must be content at present with scarcely perceptible progress. Whatever you do, you mustn’t make your wife miserable; better she should be ignorant than unhappy. To make her happy is the first aim of your life, the second is to train her to prefer a higher kind of happiness to that she has always been content with.”

Arthur was silent for some moments, reflecting. Then he rose to depart, and held out his hand, which his friend grasped.

“You are always a true comforter,” he said; “you give encouragement of the highest kind, Noble. I am afraid I make but a poor figure compared with a man of your grand energy. Do you know, I have often felt lately as if I were out of place in the world, as if the work I had before me wasn’t my tr............
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